Hey folks…. I know I said I’d be back in May but it’s July and I haven’t posted a thing…sorry. I’m just gonna say it, I really don’t know when I’ll post another video because I’m very sensitive and susceptible to any distractions and disturbances to my work. I really do require total uninterrupted laser focus on just my videos or stories to be able to work and write on them. If there’s even just one event or big chore I have to do a day like mowing the lawn or if somebody bugs me and pulls me a way to do something with them, I can’t get into a rhythm and don’t feel like doing video work or writing for that day and I’ve only had a handful of days between April and now where nobody has bugged me or I didn’t have anything else more essential and urgent to do. Even when said chores and responsibilities don’t take up the full day they leave so physically or mentally drained that all I feel like doing for the rest of the day is watch tv or play video games. I kid you not yesterday I had opened up my laptop, opened up iMovie and was set to begin working on a video when my brother barged into my room and begged me to take him to the pool, and my focus was thusly ruined for the day I feel terrible for keeping you guys waiting cause I do have a lot of cool videos in my mental line up and more stories to write but I don’t know I just can’t get hardly a moment’s peace and what little I do I spend worrying about the next thing coming(I struggle with anxiety in addition to autism so add that to the constant mental turmoil) I’m not giving up on YouTube or writing just yet but don’t expect exact release dates or regular updates anytime soon cause I just can’t guarantee that kinda thing and I do deeply apologize for those of you that don’t like waiting I really wish I could just write and produce videos and take care of my real world life but it’s proven to be supremely difficult for me to do.
Generation Avenger
Hey folks…. I know I said I’d be back in May but it’s July and I haven’t posted a thing…sorry. I’m just gonna say it, I really don’t know when I’ll post another video because I’m very sensitive and susceptible to any distractions and disturbances to my work. I really do require total uninterrupted laser focus on just my videos or stories to be able to work and write on them. If there’s even just one event or big chore I have to do a day like mowing the lawn or if somebody bugs me and pulls me a way to do something with them, I can’t get into a rhythm and don’t feel like doing video work or writing for that day and I’ve only had a handful of days between April and now where nobody has bugged me or I didn’t have anything else more essential and urgent to do. Even when said chores and responsibilities don’t take up the full day they leave so physically or mentally drained that all I feel like doing for the rest of the day is watch tv or play video games. I kid you not yesterday I had opened up my laptop, opened up iMovie and was set to begin working on a video when my brother barged into my room and begged me to take him to the pool, and my focus was thusly ruined for the day I feel terrible for keeping you guys waiting cause I do have a lot of cool videos in my mental line up and more stories to write but I don’t know I just can’t get hardly a moment’s peace and what little I do I spend worrying about the next thing coming(I struggle with anxiety in addition to autism so add that to the constant mental turmoil) I’m not giving up on YouTube or writing just yet but don’t expect exact release dates or regular updates anytime soon cause I just can’t guarantee that kinda thing and I do deeply apologize for those of you that don’t like waiting I really wish I could just write and produce videos and take care of my real world life but it’s proven to be supremely difficult for me to do.
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