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HEY!!! Some important news!

I know I’m not the most outward person since I’m pretty closed off, but it’d mean a lot if you could take the time to read.

Things have been a bit rough these past 2 years, not gonna lie.
Behind the scenes, I’ve been really working a lot on videos for the channel; it’s been increasingly obvious that I’ve become less and less productive to the point of struggling to push myself.

It’s not like I DISLIKE what I do, quite the opposite.
I just can’t seem to follow through like I used to, like there’s this invisible force holding me back, and it feels like I’ve exhausted all my options to combat this. It seems like my past self had better leadership and management skills when I know logically for this to be untrue.
And normally I do not give a damn how long something takes to make if the quality makes up for it in the end… but MAN there’s kind of a limit until it gets kinda ridiculous.

All this has really put into question the reason why I fight for making these videos.
At one point, I even thought about quitting Youtube completely, but fundamentally, I really really enjoy what I do so much, even at its most painful. Maybe, I have worked out of insecurity of trying to prove myself to others and that’s definitely not a reason you want to be doing this for years and years into the future.

If there’s some wisdom I want to share is that, being a workaholic is not a sustainable way to work even if doesn’t feel like so. Life needs balance man.

Eitherway, it does suck because for so long I’ve been wanting to be way more active on Youtube.

But what I need is a PROPER break.

Not sure how active this means I will be on Youtube but I will be building up some mad skills >:D

Thanks gang for everything, and being so goddamn patient with me.

P.s. I’m so sorry to the few of you who watched my stream. I said I’d stream again…. oops.