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3xistenc3

"My favorite character is Corrupted Nightmare (noncanon)
My favorite ship is Killermare (noncanon)
My pronoun is He/they/it

My favorite fandom til now is UTAU

Please aware that there's disturbing topics in this channel included mental illness like depression, PTSD, BPD, abandonment issue, SA, su!cid3 and s3lfharm.

I don't like to have any insults or hate comments around here so kindly check on my warnings before starting anything that cause me to not being nice to you

Respect me if you want my respect, thank you
Please aware to know if any topics is uncomfortable to me if I'm unspoken about it"

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3xistenc3

"Tw: su!c
Fun fact about me but if i found myself adore you as a friend and we ended up broken, i'll block you
But if i found you my everything, I'll unfriend you, which, i have never found myself doing that unconsciously for a whole while now,
Damn.

And second fun fact, when i give up, i'll say it consciously before completely give up, which, that's probably why i look pretty much not really stress over giving up that much

Random question but if i want to die but i fear of death then does that count me as su!c or am i playing dumb with my mind about it*?*
Because it's weird how i really meant to kill myself but when i sleep at night, i found myself overthink "what if i hang myself" and instead of having it normally, i keep thinking of trapping in my house (i don't have a room) and i'll have to experience the world in the horror movie
Which it made me traumatized enough to stay up til my parents woke up (6am)
And i even imagine my hell bloody body just lying on floor if just jumping off the building
It's alright when i speak, but when i close my eyes, it's like living in the other world, it left me crying, and i found it scary of how i'd have to see my mom on earth after leaving

But also i hate to have my world without my mom on earth so i just keep waiting for a right moment just to off myself without fearing someone find my body

I legit don't remember why i want to die anymore and it's fucked up and honest i hate living if not because i love people around me and wanted them to not feel my cold body and or see it bloody and or have to touch it and it's insane that i found myself having to wander around to see how my mom might went schizophrenia because of me, i don't want that, i just death"

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3xistenc3

"Tw: selfh4rm

They both make it not just deep but a lot
They both allowed them to c$t, even though they made it rough, but only so they won't make it worse than it already is

Headcanon that they kissed each other's scars, and lick tears, very silly, very yummy"