Alex // Writer

Small problem with the plans for this month, I'm sick so I can't record anything, and I've also been busy, so y'all might have to wait a few weeks for me to get anything out.

3 weeks ago | [YT] | 2

Alex // Writer

You need to romanticize your craft! If you love something so deeply that you want to devote your time and energy into creating it, then learn to romanticize it, the process, and the craft.

This video is one I think everybody should watch, just take 14 minutes, and learn to love what you do.

1 month ago | [YT] | 0

Alex // Writer

Stay tuned! Sorry for the essay, but I wanted to tell you guys what I have planned, but I had to get through the emotional stuff first, so skip to paragraph 12 if you don't want to read my rants about learning, and realizing how I want to have my chance.

Hello! As autumn begins to roll in and the weather gets colder, I began to think, and changed and the significance of that changing is as significant to me as the seasons are to the earth. I began to think differently, more about life, and I began to change because of that. Previously I just went through life, more as a commitment to everyone else rather than myself.

But now, I thought that I didn't need to just tough it out and hope things will change, I can make the change myself! I can be the beauty of fall in a life of blistering summers and fridged winters. I can be myself, and love it, so I did. I made that change.

And now on the topic of change, I thing it would be fun to make more cozy, feel good content! So after some thought and brainstorming on what would appeal to you, the audience, I learned what makes my favourite tubers popular isn't mass producing slop, but talking about, and nerding over the things they love, and the reason they are popular in their fandom and community is because they are real, and make people happy by being themselves.

So I thought for like five minutes about what kind of videos I want to make, what kind would allow me to have fun and do what I love while making other people happy as well. Once I did this, I realized that I do not need to be making videos based on what I think my audience would want, but what I want, because at the end of the day, I don't what a channel full of just what I think people would like, but a channel I could look back on and say "Hey, this is me, it's who I am and how I changed and grew" or "I was good, I was really good" (please get the reference)

Before I get into my plans for the next month, I would like to talk more deeply about my struggles, specifically with writing and my mental health. I have been having a lot of troubles lately, and I want to share them with you, so you can understand me better.

Yes, I will be promoting my book, and taking you through the entire process, but I also want to share more about who I am, and what I love, not just my books or characters. Although I love them, I have started viewing them as a job I'm not getting paid for, and that is unhealthy to me and my passions.

I do love my book, but there is so much else I love, and only talking about my book has made it hard to write anything, so I would sit looking at my laptop while hating myself for not producing chapter fast enough, or writing as well as the people I am glad to call my peers, and my friends. But as much as I loved them, I began to hate them for writing better.

But that is not the life I want to lead, a life of hate is not one to life, but merely survive.

Aside from that, my mental health has honestly been on the decline recently, and I was have problems with self worth, and I was having terrible urges. And if I'm being honest, I still have problems, with depression, anger, anxiety, everything really, but that is not who I am.

I am not some little gay freak with mental issues, I am a little gay freak with mental issues AND a passion for romanticizing life and all I can do in it, even if I'm confined within a bubble.

And after all that, I can truly say, I'm glad I went through it, because it helped me learn who I am, and who I want to be. I also learned that if I ever fell like that again, I can read through things like this and see that even if I'm at my lowest point, I can't still go up. There is no way but up from the basement.

So, now that all the emotional stuff is out of the way, let me tell you what I have planned!

Now that I got my paycheck yesterday, Friday September 5th, I have money. With said money I can fund more things, like a B&N Vlog---bloody hell I just dated myself and I am not even old T^T---(I will review my voice) for example! Now, I do have to spend a good portion on a new york trip I have in March with my school's choir---I sing tenor---so I won't have the most funds

I might also do some solo saber fencing and rapier hema training---both shorts and long form. Now I train(ed) myself, no teacher or instructor, so my form won't be as good as a lot of other fencers, and I won't have money for proper gear for a while TvT.

I will also be doing reviews of my favorite LGBTQ Romances, and possibly a live where I can go more in depth in my book, (and if I'm lucky possibly a cameo or a few from some of my favorite YouTubers but that is on a hope alone).

I also plan on sharing some of my favourite Autumn reads, outfits, shows/films, and songs as the colder seasons begin to rule in and the leaves begin to change!

With that being said, I would love to hear suggestions on what you guys would want to see me do, and I will to the best of my abilities do just that! All these videos will be posted by the end of the month, so be prepared <3

Love you all! Vīve sine vinculīs!

@GamerGreg1YT @OfficialCrim
#noctav

1 month ago (edited) | [YT] | 1

Alex // Writer

This is an amazing cover, and I love the way the the lyrics are changed, not to dishonour the original song.

1 month ago | [YT] | 1

Alex // Writer

PGE

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1 month ago | [YT] | 0

Alex // Writer

I would like to say sorry. I did intend to make a goodwill video but things came up and I forgot.

I would also like to apologise, but I am taking a hiatus from content creation, just until I can guarantee that I will have internet. My family is struggling financially and I need to make sure I have food and stable finances.

It is with a heavy heart that I say this, and it brings me no joy to take this break, but I need to prioritise my livelihood over creating content that people don't even care about. I will not be posting anything on any of my socials.

Best regards
Alexander N. Armington
#noctav

1 month ago (edited) | [YT] | 3

Alex // Writer

I am going to a goodwill on Wednesday, should I post a video and tiktok about it, and what I find?

2 months ago | [YT] | 1