Bernard Alvarez

Hey friends,

I’m starting to slowly ease back into things over the next week or so. I’ve opened up a couple of client spots and will be returning to my work with the Roanoke Diversity Center this Thursday and Friday. You’ll probably start seeing some videos and posts trickling back onto my feed soon, too.

Honestly, I’m still feeling things out. I want to keep showing up with love and inspiration, but I also need to honor where I’m at in my grief. So, what you’ll see from me might be a mix—some joyful, some tender, some spiritual, maybe even a little political. Just real.

Sharing my journey with you has always been the heart of my work, and I hope whatever flows through me in the coming days is of some comfort or use to you.

Thank you for your love. I love you right back.

—Bernard

5 hours ago | [YT] | 8

Bernard Alvarez

We'll be flying up to Massachusetts this afternoon. Daniel is finally on his way back to Amherst from NYC. I believe the funeral will be tomorrow or Wednesday. I'll be there till Thursday with Elizabeth Parsons to hold space for me and point me in the right direction as I wander aimlessly through these next few days. Thank you to all of my friends who have supported me, comforted me, donated to make these last minute travel arrangements possible and allowed me the time to grieve. To my coven, to my Roanoke Diversity Center family, to my Al-Anon community and to all of my life long friends who continue to send me words of comfort and encouragement and love. Thank you. Send me strength during these next few days. I love you.💔😔

2 weeks ago | [YT] | 22

Bernard Alvarez

Thanks to my 'bereavement manager' Elizabeth, it looks like we're almost to the goal. Thank you friends. Please share with anyone that might be able to help with this. These last minute flights, and hotel rooms in New England are SO ridiculous. (My therapist wants me to be accompanied by a friend and get a room I can retreat to if things get too overwhelming.) thank you everyone for really taking care of every aspect of this awful time. I love you all so much. 💔😔🙏 If you are able to help me get to my son's funeral please go to: gofund.me/ea93071a

2 weeks ago | [YT] | 19

Bernard Alvarez

For Daniel, My Beautiful Boy

Daniel…
My son.
My beautiful, brilliant, beloved boy.
Only fifteen years in this world,
And yet—
You carved your name so deeply into the walls of my soul,
The echo of you will never fade.

I was not your everyday, not your morning alarm or nightly tuck-in,
But oh, how I cherished every second we shared.
Every FaceTime ping, every text—
Each one lit me up like fire in my chest.
You called, and I sang inside.

You—
So sharp, so dazzling with thought,
So loud with justice,
So full of love it spilled out in quiet kindness,
In passionate words,
In that look you’d give that said, “I see it, Dad. I see the world. I want to change it.”

Your compassion could shake mountains.
Your beliefs, strong like our Seminole roots,
Proud like the warriors we come from.
You were proud—of us, of you.
And Daniel, I was—I am—so proud of you.
You amazed me.
You always amazed me.

Your smile—God, your smile—
It lives behind my eyes now,
Flashes in the dark when the tears won’t stop.
And they won’t stop.
My heart is shattered,
Grief has swallowed me whole,
And yet—I would choose this pain a thousand times
For the joy of being your father even once.

The world feels wrong without you.
Bent, incomplete.
But I feel you still…
In the hush between breaths,
In the morning sun,
In every hawk that flies high above our grove.

I will always be your father.
Always.
In life, in death, in memory,
In every whispered prayer,
In every song I sing for you from this broken place.

Thank you, Daniel.
For choosing me.
For loving me back.
For every moment—
You are my miracle and my mourning.
My gift, my guide, my sacred son.

And I will love you,
Forever.

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2 weeks ago | [YT] | 44

Bernard Alvarez

My dear friends,

I've been meaning to write something to you for days now… but the words just haven’t been there. I keep hoping that soon I’ll feel that familiar flow of Life Force energy again—that spark I love to share with you when I’m feeling grounded and whole. But right now, I’m empty. I’m doing my best to be gentle with myself and to allow space for what’s here.

Thankfully, my short videos are already scheduled for the month, so you’ll still see me pop up. But beyond that, I just don’t have anything else to give at the moment.

I want to thank each and every one of you for the love, the messages, the gifts, the prayers, and the healing light you’ve been sending me and my family. It means more than I can ever say.

Please also hold in your hearts his mother Eileen, his sister Gabriella, his Tía Cachi, his cousin Chelsea and her daughter—all of whom were constants in his life and are just as heartbroken. And his Tiger family—he was just beginning to connect with them and was so excited to have found that circle.

For now, I’m giving myself at least two weeks to grieve, to rest, to begin the long process of saying goodbye to my beautiful son Daniel. It may take longer—I just don’t know yet when I’ll be ready to return to work or show up in the ways I’m used to.

Your support has given me something so precious: time. The gift of time to grieve without the stress of finances pressing down on me. I can’t begin to express how deeply grateful I am.

I’m doing my best to find the silver lining, to trust that strength and wisdom will rise from these ashes. I love you all so much. Thank you for walking with me through this.

With love always,
Bernard

2 weeks ago | [YT] | 32

Bernard Alvarez

My heart is shattered beyond words.
On Sunday, my beautiful 15-year-old son Daniel crossed over, and I can barely breathe under the weight of this loss.
I don’t know what to think. I don’t know what to feel. I only know the ache... the emptiness... the numbness that has taken over me.

Please, I ask with all the tenderness I can muster—don’t ask me questions right now. I don’t have answers. ( We are asking members of our Cuban family to please not reach out to his 99 year old grandmother at this time. )

My spirit feels like it’s dissolving. I am lost in this grief, and I don't know how to move forward.
Hold space for me. That’s all I ask.

My coven, Al Anon, Roanoke Diversity Center and my neighborhood friends are all taking very good care of me. I'm so grateful for you my online friends and everyone who loves me and loves him. 💔 I love you Daniel. 🫶

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2 weeks ago | [YT] | 36

Bernard Alvarez

Hey beloveds, If you're planning to attend one of the global protests today—please, take care of each other. Watch each other's backs, stay hydrated, speak up, and move as one. Your presence matters, your voice matters, and your safety deeply matters.

I may not be out there marching beside you physically—I'll be holding it down at the Roanoke Diversity Center today—but know this: my heart, my spirit, my fire is with you. We are rising together, demanding justice, demanding change, and refusing to be silent.

Remember, protest is sacred. It's prayer in motion. It’s our ancestors marching with us, it’s our descendants counting on us. So make noise, raise your signs, and let the world feel the power of the people.

With love, strength, and deep solidarity,
Bernard 🙏✊🙏✊💖

(Find your local action and info here: handsoff2025.com/ )

3 weeks ago (edited) | [YT] | 14

Bernard Alvarez

The Finger (New Major Arcana Card)

Sometimes, the Universe isn’t sending signs, synchronicities, or gentle nudges—it’s just flipping you the bird. That’s where The Finger card comes in! This newly discovered (and totally necessary) addition to the tarot deck represents cosmic tough love, spiritual sass, and the kind of divine intervention that says, “Nope, not today, sweetie.”

Upright, it means you’re barking up the wrong energetic tree—whether it’s a bad relationship, a dead-end job, or trying to manifest a yacht on a budget of $3. Reverse it? Well, that just means you’re ignoring the big, obvious NO from the Universe and doubling down on the nonsense.

Interpretation tip: When The Finger appears, take a deep breath, laugh at yourself, and move the hell on. Sometimes, the best spiritual advice is just: Don't. 😝😉😘

3 weeks ago | [YT] | 26

Bernard Alvarez

The Ripple Effect: Energy In, Energy Out 💫

Every action, every word, every thought—each one sends out an energetic ripple into the universe. And here’s the thing: the universe doesn’t judge. It doesn’t weigh "good" against "bad." It simply responds in kind. Energy in, energy out.

No matter if you’re a queen or a president, a spiritual leader or a store clerk, the ripples you send always find their way back to you. Every result—positive or negative—shapes our future.

When we pour love, compassion, and kindness into the world, that’s what we receive in return. But when we feed hate, destruction, or harm, we align ourselves with that same energy. And when we justify, support, or excuse actions that bring suffering—whether it’s harm to a child, a parent, or an entire community—our energetic return is linked to that support.

The universe mirrors what we emulate, amplify, and focus on. What we put out, we receive. It’s that simple.

🫶 So today, let’s be mindful of our ripples. Let’s choose to send out what we want to come back. - Bernard

3 weeks ago | [YT] | 19

Bernard Alvarez

I Am a Survivor – And So Are You

Survival isn’t just about making it through the storm—it’s about learning to dance in the rain, even when the thunder roars.

I am a survivor. I survived growing up in an alcoholic home. I survived religious trauma and LGBTQ conversion therapy. I survived Hurricane Wilma and losing everything. I survived alcohol and drug addiction in my best friend. I have survived me.

Survivors don’t always feel strong, but we are strong. We are the ones who kept going when it would’ve been easier to stop. The ones who stitched our hearts back together with nothing but hope and determination.

And so, I turn to you, my community—you are a survivor too. I want to hear your stories. Share something you have survived in the comments. Let’s show each other that no one is alone in this journey. Let’s share our strength, our hope, and lift up those who need to hear: You can survive this too. I love you friends! ✨

#Survivor #Healing #Strength #WeAreStillHere #ShareYourStory

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