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What do you think of my latest single, Danu's Decline?
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8 months ago | [YT] | 0

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Alright, people. Ngl, it's been absolutely hectic recently. There's me and nobody else working on these songs, and this act as always. I struggle to get in with most people, so it's probably going to stay like that for the foreseeable future. I don't mind too much. I don't have to deal with assholes, egos, or any other shit, and likewise people don't have to put up with me and my lack of social skills, mental health issues, anxiety, poor communication or aggression. So it's mutually beneficial. Let's call it symbiosis. I've lived as the lone wolf all my life, and I doubt that will change any time soon. The closest people to me are my parents and brother as well as Mickey, my cat son. Long story short, I write and play and produce my songs, largely on my own, and it's rare that anyone other than haters and scammers actually gives them any attention. Even when they do, it's something like 3 likes and a comment at best. Largely people are just not interested and don't care, too busy in their little bubbles. It's a strange world we live in now. All this tech, social media and crap, has supposedly meant to bring us together, has instead done more or less the opposite - people just sit and stare at screens, swipe those obnoxious short videos and post their whole lives on social media, doing all sorts of stupid shit for cloud and coverage. Me? I just make angry songs, angry music with some experimentation, and try to keep things fun and original. To quote Slayer, "I'll be beating this guitar, 'till the day I die." My point is, I make the songs myself and not many people know or hear of them and I don't know anymore, if anything I make is even worth sharing, hell, even recording at times. I just want to know - did you listen to may latest track - Danu's Decline? Did you watch the music video? Do you like the song? Is it actually good, heavy, hard-hitting? Is there anything worth your time in that single that I tirelessly spent stupid months doing or have I actually just made another weird song that's going to get shoved down into the pit of forgotten/obscure media, along with the rest of my songs? In any case, I will say this much - whether you love or hate, or don't care about my music I WILL persist with the songs and the ideas and what I like and WILL keep things heavy, fast, metal and dirty. I don't care what the stupid trends are now, whether the animal noises some kid made in the recent breakdown of some trending core metal video were so cool that we all need to blindly follow suit, or whether some djentcore guitar nerds just unleashed the SICKEST 50 minutes of berimbau drumming... ahem, I mean "guitar playing" in some weird polyrhythm that makes them such good musicians that we should all worship them and follow suit, or whether the short haired emo kid just made the saddest most depressing song about how sad he is and whined like Justin Bieber for half the song and calls himself punk and once again everyone has to follow suit, I really don't care. I'm going to make these songs my way, that represent me and my feelings, anger, frustration, hate and apathy as well as tell some stories and maybe help some people alkng the way and whatnot, I couldn't care less, if thrash is dead, if punk is dead or x genre is dead. I don't give a shit anymore. I don't need to be the next best thing. I just want to make music that makes me happy and makes others happy and expresses me. In a way, that music is like part of me put out there. So yes, I will keep making songs the way I always did and always will. From the heart. Whether you want to listen is up to you. But I will not obsess so much over this anymore. I'm tired of constantly obsessively chasing rainbows, making music nonstop, and doing something that's literally next to BEGGING people to listen to it because "promotion." It's been three years since I left college. I made that awful EP back then that nobody gives a shit about, made songs religiously through the years, only to delete them or never release them because I wasn't happy, now I made Danu's Decline - this single that I feel like is my best work but the "community" or lack of proves me wrong every time. Everything I post online just gets ignored anyway. So I think I will rest now. I WILL NEVER STOP making music, and as we've established, I will NEVER EVER make music for the sake of following trends or mainstream success, IT WILL ALWAYS BE MUSIC FROM THE HEART AND SOUL. But... I WILL no longer obsessively sit and hammer out song after song, idea after idea, and scheme after scheme, in the vain attempt to get someone to notice and buy or just enjoy the songs. It's impacting my mental health. Maybe not as bad as working a 9 to 5 job - I can still stim, talk to myself, I can still swear, act weird and be aggressive and be the regular mess I am, without being arrested or told that my "CoNDuCt Is SoCiAlLY inApProPriATe". It's definitely nowhere near as draining as school was. I am still fucking scarred mentally and emotionally after the trauma I endured in my youth at school. My music and the idea to make a solo act where I make music and express myself isn't just a job, but also a way to help me voice my anger, built up hate, frustration, aggression, and help me express myself, give light to some of my thoughts and help my mental health, and hopefully help others, and make a legacy of Expression and rebellion. Say it's not the case. It's just making me feel more angry, more frustrated, more hateful, more resentful and like a failure and drained. So... I'm going on a hiatus. I'm taking a break. I won't exactly stop playing my instruments or stop posting every now and then, but honestly I just got to disconnect from this whole struggle. I'm going to go outside, try to enjoy life, maybe record some stuff or write a song. But only because I want to share it not because I feel like I have to. I no longer care if I get listened to, or liked. I'll just do my thing and try to fix up my none existent mental health. There's forests, there's nature, there's cats and there's other animals, there's my little brother and my family and my Mickey. There's my instruments too. I just got to take this slowly and try and get back in my feet. I've got a new board recently - I might take up skating and do some light cruising or tricks and whatnot, I might put on some all terrain wheels on the board and take it to the forest. I might take my acoustic guitar there and just sit and play some songs. I might share it either here or on my other channels. Either way, I won't be making songs and videos like my life depends on it. I don't care of they're successful. My only wish now is to share my talent and inspire and potentially help others. I'm done chasing success, I need a break.

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What is your favourite song off the Upon A Bloodied Earth EP?

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