First–starting Feb 1, I wanna see if I can make plans with my friends that left me. I’m thinking of potentially leaving them be for 1 year while I become a better person, then try to reintegrate (minus Foxxie, who I’m convinced I’ve lost forever). If they however say some shit like “no, we want you gone FOREVER” well then I guess I can say fuck you to them, people like Loonable and epic who haven’t left I’ll still keep close but at that point I’ll just find other friends one way or another
At some point I just gotta make my music public again, and unfortunately that means My Communities too–I can handle people coming after me in DMs, I think, but I’ll try my best to purge them from My Communities so you won’t have to deal with them. As for music? Well, allegedly people like Acid-Notation ELEPS and Satania still produce as horrible people, yet I hounestly don’t see myself falling under that rabbit hole (I REALLY hope people who listen to my stuff don’t hate me as a person, I’d MUCH rather have people hate my music but still like me as a person) I could pull a Dream and write essays or “apology videos” and whatnot but hounestly I think just being a good person and being my actual hounest true self might eventually get people tired of causing someone trouble that isn’t causing trouble anymore. See people like Satania are openly pedophiles, assholes and trolls, and I am none of those things. Music production is something I plan to pursue to the end of time, and I’m sure if I’m a good person people will EVENTUALLY get bored of harassing me for whatever the Hell is happening on social media (collabs might be hard to land, but I’ll still try my best to keep the boat cruising)
If my friends God forbid do decide to leave me forever, I’ll probably try to join online communities and develop social connections again. Hell, I might even start my own rp group (I relate to BFDI PDA so much that I don’t see dropping rp something I’ll do anytime soon) not only that but if this dreaded event does happen well I’ll definitely try and overcome my whole PDA misgenderer paranoia (which includes blocking people) and start a “PDAPrnns” alias (like TwoPrnns on Twitter) to kindly and wholesomely spread awareness of PDA’s pronouns. Obviously there’s gonna be some trolls but to Hell with them, why be an ass when you can be nice XD. I might also start a digital horror series based on my friends leaving me if they decide to do just that, though I’ll ask my friends that I still have at that point if that’s a good idea
Either way, my plan is to come out on top. Shit may be rough but I have a few ideas on how to either mend relationships or respond to loss, lots of shit’s been happening these past few weeks but I think I can make it work
I’m making a resolution to be more stubborn and strong-willed. I keep getting into situations because I cave too much and am too flexible for my own good
None of this shit would’ve happened if I had been like Xtrullor back in the day when I was “friends with oms”. He was smart. He put his foot down and another past friend Sedulous didn’t even try to reason with him because “Xtrullor is too stubborn to reason with”. I should’ve done it too. Zoftle also did it. But me? I fell for it. I fell for oms’s “pwease don’t leave me senpai, I wuv u :3 👉 🥺 👈” and fell into the most parasitic “friendship” I’ve ever been in, and spent WAY longer with him than I should have (don’t worry, I left him eventually, but I have this STUPID reputation I “used to be his best friend” now. And Sedulous STILL TRIED TO GET ME TO BE FRIENDS WITH HIM AGAIN AT SOME POINT)
(This next part mentions religious belief so tw if you’re sensitive to that) same with F-777. He’s a lot more openly atheist than I am yet is friends with Sedulous who’s very Christian, yet Sedulous doesn’t try to convert Jesse at all to Christianity. You know why? Because he’s STRONG, he stays put with his beliefs and Sedulous doesn’t even bother. Me on the other hand. I was too weak-willed, and Sedulous knew this and tried to convert me multiple times. And it WORKED, and I wasted a year of my life worshipping God only to discover God doesn’t care about me and isn’t by my side
So yeah. I’m way too lenient and empathetic, I seriously gotta toughen up. Like many people, I gotta become more thickheaded and strong because this easy-to-cave flexible personality is literally costing me my only beloved friendships. I’m way too easily manipulated–starting now, no more soft lenient Itz_GamePoint. I’m going hardass
(I’ll definitely be less likely to get suicide baited like I was by oms multiple times 2 years ago when I start to do this)
I actually intended for resurfacing to wait this shit out till I can exist without people spamming My DMs and Communities, but I guess another way to go about things is to openly explain myself since I have no social media so the playing field isn't exactly fair. So here, have this which I will continue to share around because it's literally all I can do at this point
Edit: I've attached a pinned comment outlining some key details about my situation that I highly recommend you go read. It should also be known (I said this below) that I am deeply sorry for what I have done and do not think it was okay now (nor did I back then) and would never do something morally compromised while knowing what I'm doing is morally compromised
Edit edit: the pinned comment has now been edited (again..)
It’s not gone. All music has been indefinitely unpublished because someone has been attacking me lately and causing drama, and as someone who hates drama and doesn’t have any social media, I can only do so much in the way of defending myself so most efforts haven’t done much. This wouldn’t really be a problem if people weren’t actively going out of their way to harass me in DMs and send inappropriate memes in my communities (which can make many people uncomfortable) so invites to my Discord server(s) have been paused as well–if you wanna hear any tracks in particular, friend request me as “@itz_gamepoint” on Discord and I’ll try to sort you out. Technically all my stuff is still available a la my archive, but since people don’t seem to really care you can just DM me which track(s) you wanna hear and I’ll DM you what you need. You can also potentially join one of my communities, tho speak with me first. That’s about it, stay tight and stay awesome! :]
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So–what are my plans?
First–starting Feb 1, I wanna see if I can make plans with my friends that left me. I’m thinking of potentially leaving them be for 1 year while I become a better person, then try to reintegrate (minus Foxxie, who I’m convinced I’ve lost forever). If they however say some shit like “no, we want you gone FOREVER” well then I guess I can say fuck you to them, people like Loonable and epic who haven’t left I’ll still keep close but at that point I’ll just find other friends one way or another
At some point I just gotta make my music public again, and unfortunately that means My Communities too–I can handle people coming after me in DMs, I think, but I’ll try my best to purge them from My Communities so you won’t have to deal with them. As for music? Well, allegedly people like Acid-Notation ELEPS and Satania still produce as horrible people, yet I hounestly don’t see myself falling under that rabbit hole (I REALLY hope people who listen to my stuff don’t hate me as a person, I’d MUCH rather have people hate my music but still like me as a person) I could pull a Dream and write essays or “apology videos” and whatnot but hounestly I think just being a good person and being my actual hounest true self might eventually get people tired of causing someone trouble that isn’t causing trouble anymore. See people like Satania are openly pedophiles, assholes and trolls, and I am none of those things. Music production is something I plan to pursue to the end of time, and I’m sure if I’m a good person people will EVENTUALLY get bored of harassing me for whatever the Hell is happening on social media (collabs might be hard to land, but I’ll still try my best to keep the boat cruising)
If my friends God forbid do decide to leave me forever, I’ll probably try to join online communities and develop social connections again. Hell, I might even start my own rp group (I relate to BFDI PDA so much that I don’t see dropping rp something I’ll do anytime soon) not only that but if this dreaded event does happen well I’ll definitely try and overcome my whole PDA misgenderer paranoia (which includes blocking people) and start a “PDAPrnns” alias (like TwoPrnns on Twitter) to kindly and wholesomely spread awareness of PDA’s pronouns. Obviously there’s gonna be some trolls but to Hell with them, why be an ass when you can be nice XD. I might also start a digital horror series based on my friends leaving me if they decide to do just that, though I’ll ask my friends that I still have at that point if that’s a good idea
Either way, my plan is to come out on top. Shit may be rough but I have a few ideas on how to either mend relationships or respond to loss, lots of shit’s been happening these past few weeks but I think I can make it work
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I’m making a resolution to be more stubborn and strong-willed. I keep getting into situations because I cave too much and am too flexible for my own good
None of this shit would’ve happened if I had been like Xtrullor back in the day when I was “friends with oms”. He was smart. He put his foot down and another past friend Sedulous didn’t even try to reason with him because “Xtrullor is too stubborn to reason with”. I should’ve done it too. Zoftle also did it. But me? I fell for it. I fell for oms’s “pwease don’t leave me senpai, I wuv u :3 👉 🥺 👈” and fell into the most parasitic “friendship” I’ve ever been in, and spent WAY longer with him than I should have (don’t worry, I left him eventually, but I have this STUPID reputation I “used to be his best friend” now. And Sedulous STILL TRIED TO GET ME TO BE FRIENDS WITH HIM AGAIN AT SOME POINT)
(This next part mentions religious belief so tw if you’re sensitive to that) same with F-777. He’s a lot more openly atheist than I am yet is friends with Sedulous who’s very Christian, yet Sedulous doesn’t try to convert Jesse at all to Christianity. You know why? Because he’s STRONG, he stays put with his beliefs and Sedulous doesn’t even bother. Me on the other hand. I was too weak-willed, and Sedulous knew this and tried to convert me multiple times. And it WORKED, and I wasted a year of my life worshipping God only to discover God doesn’t care about me and isn’t by my side
So yeah. I’m way too lenient and empathetic, I seriously gotta toughen up. Like many people, I gotta become more thickheaded and strong because this easy-to-cave flexible personality is literally costing me my only beloved friendships. I’m way too easily manipulated–starting now, no more soft lenient Itz_GamePoint. I’m going hardass
(I’ll definitely be less likely to get suicide baited like I was by oms multiple times 2 years ago when I start to do this)
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I actually intended for resurfacing to wait this shit out till I can exist without people spamming My DMs and Communities, but I guess another way to go about things is to openly explain myself since I have no social media so the playing field isn't exactly fair. So here, have this which I will continue to share around because it's literally all I can do at this point
Edit: I've attached a pinned comment outlining some key details about my situation that I highly recommend you go read. It should also be known (I said this below) that I am deeply sorry for what I have done and do not think it was okay now (nor did I back then) and would never do something morally compromised while knowing what I'm doing is morally compromised
Edit edit: the pinned comment has now been edited (again..)
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“Where did all your music go? What happened?”
It’s not gone. All music has been indefinitely unpublished because someone has been attacking me lately and causing drama, and as someone who hates drama and doesn’t have any social media, I can only do so much in the way of defending myself so most efforts haven’t done much. This wouldn’t really be a problem if people weren’t actively going out of their way to harass me in DMs and send inappropriate memes in my communities (which can make many people uncomfortable) so invites to my Discord server(s) have been paused as well–if you wanna hear any tracks in particular, friend request me as “@itz_gamepoint” on Discord and I’ll try to sort you out. Technically all my stuff is still available a la my archive, but since people don’t seem to really care you can just DM me which track(s) you wanna hear and I’ll DM you what you need. You can also potentially join one of my communities, tho speak with me first. That’s about it, stay tight and stay awesome! :]
-Itz_GamePoint/PDA
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