Callie The Nekomata

Hey! Just to give a quick update. I officially completed and passed my first year of college! Next year I'll be getting my associates and I'm WAYYY more excited for my classes next year.

Right now I'm more focused on my main account, so I have been making videos just not for here LOL. Thanks for sticking my breaks out ♥️

2 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 4

Callie The Nekomata

Happy 2 years! Time goes by so fast yikes

4 months ago | [YT] | 5

Callie The Nekomata

So updates: I got a new job, I somehow managed to pass all my classes for my first semester even though I swear I failed math. Twice. This channel is going to be 2 years old next month and I'm going to be 19, when this posts I finished my midterms for my second semester fuck biology and theology btw, anddd mental health wise Ive stabilized again without going into details. Life's great. Spring break I'm going to crash out and never leave my house I'm so fucking tired.

5 months ago | [YT] | 8

Callie The Nekomata

EDIT: things are slowly getting better. I'll be okay,

Looking back on this channel I'm not sure when things shifted and when my initial excitement and joy for this channel stopped.

I have ideas but they never go anywhere. It feels like a monumental task and chore and I physically can't drag myself out of bed enough to draw or write anything, I don't know why or when, or how but I can't muster up the energy to do anything.

Life has beaten out any joy or fulfillment art has for me. I'm losing my job, and I have to look for a new one. College sucks and nothing seems to go good longer than a week before all I can do Is stress about the next thing life slapped me with and force myself to be okay.

There's only so far "taking care of myself" or taking a mental break can do before it just becomes another excuse to do nothing. Everyone in my life tells me that I'm doing the right things and heading down on the right path but it doesn't feel like I am making any progress at all. I haven't felt proud of myself in awhile and I just think everything I do is kinda shit. I wish I could go back to the mentality of not giving a damn and having fun, but I'm right back where I started when I first started this channel and it feels like I only deluded myself into thinking things were getting better.

I don't know how to get better anymore, and I'm so tired of everything. Venting publicly is stupid but this channel made me feel obligated to mask everything and be overly positive and kid friendly that I'm just tired of sugar coating my mental health struggles. There's no purpose for this post besides being an outlet, I honestly might delete this later or keep it up. Not sure yet

7 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 5

Callie The Nekomata

L Tik Tok

EDIT: NVM LMFAO

7 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 5

Callie The Nekomata

Allergies + being sick is the worse combination known to man and has to be whatever omnipresent motherucker that is in the sky special way of tormenting me for being alive idc if I'm being dramatic I'm literally suffering

9 months ago | [YT] | 5

Callie The Nekomata

Friday the 13th, Friday the 13th, Friday the 13th

I actually never watched a slasher before, I probably should

11 months ago | [YT] | 7

Callie The Nekomata

Please cherish the people you care about. Life is so short and sudden and it's such an asshole.
Please do what you feel is right in the moment even if it's selfish, or selfless it doesn't matter. Trust your gut. Try to have no regrets. Your loved ones will never blame you, or be upset for that decision.

1 year ago | [YT] | 11

Callie The Nekomata

My channel is going to go on an indefinite hiatus. I'm starting college, and have to go through a grieving process. I don't know when I'll be back or when I'll post, but I'm getting pulled thin in so many directions to the point I've lost a majority of any motivation to continue trying to do anything for this channel. I wish things were better. Thank you to whoever reads this for supporting me and my art, but I'm done making empty promises

1 year ago | [YT] | 15

Callie The Nekomata

One done ♥️♥️

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