Ye mai hu—20 year old, aimless, undisciplined aur ek khoya hua jinda laash. Definitely, I am in the worst phase of my life. Pressure, health issues, distractions—sab kuch ek saath. Kabhi kabhi lagta hai jaise mai ek battlefield me khada hu, aur mera yudh mera apne hi man se hai. Jab bhi mai koi naya kaam start karta hu, mera mind usse turant 10 aur better cheezon ke saath compare kar deta hai… aur result? Ek bhi kaam properly shuru ya complete nahi ho pata.
Workout karta hu to health issues aa jate hain, aur sab chhodna padta hai. Mental peace toh kab ka loot chuka hai. Relationships—friends aur family ke saath—wo bhi maintain nahi ho pa rahe. Na unhe time de pa raha hu, na khud ko.
Lekin sabse ghaatiya aur destructive cheez jo abhi mere saath ho rahi hai—wo hai meri sleep cycle ka pura tarah se kharab ho jana. Usne meri poori life ulta-pulta kar di hai. Din aur raat dono ajeeb se lagte hain, kuch bhi balance nahi raha.
Mera man bas kehta hai—“apne room me raho, na kisi se milo, na kisi se baat karo… sab chhod do.” Confidence khatam ho gaya hai. Jo start karta hu, use khatam karne ki himmat hi nahi bachi.
Har din mai hazaron logo ke beech se guzarta hu… lekin andar se lagta hai jaise mai bilkul akela hu.
Pata nahi ye baar baar girna aur fir gir kar uthane wala process kab tak chalega, pata nahi kya hai jo mujhse chhut raha hai, nahi pata is kyu ye phase hai aur kab tak rahega. Agar kuch pata hai to wo yah ki mai bas jinda hu jindagi jee to bilkul nahi raha..💔
Casual Himanshu
31/08/2025 | Life Update
Ye mai hu—20 year old, aimless, undisciplined aur ek khoya hua jinda laash.
Definitely, I am in the worst phase of my life. Pressure, health issues, distractions—sab kuch ek saath. Kabhi kabhi lagta hai jaise mai ek battlefield me khada hu, aur mera yudh mera apne hi man se hai. Jab bhi mai koi naya kaam start karta hu, mera mind usse turant 10 aur better cheezon ke saath compare kar deta hai… aur result? Ek bhi kaam properly shuru ya complete nahi ho pata.
Workout karta hu to health issues aa jate hain, aur sab chhodna padta hai. Mental peace toh kab ka loot chuka hai. Relationships—friends aur family ke saath—wo bhi maintain nahi ho pa rahe. Na unhe time de pa raha hu, na khud ko.
Lekin sabse ghaatiya aur destructive cheez jo abhi mere saath ho rahi hai—wo hai meri sleep cycle ka pura tarah se kharab ho jana. Usne meri poori life ulta-pulta kar di hai. Din aur raat dono ajeeb se lagte hain, kuch bhi balance nahi raha.
Mera man bas kehta hai—“apne room me raho, na kisi se milo, na kisi se baat karo… sab chhod do.” Confidence khatam ho gaya hai. Jo start karta hu, use khatam karne ki himmat hi nahi bachi.
Har din mai hazaron logo ke beech se guzarta hu… lekin andar se lagta hai jaise mai bilkul akela hu.
Pata nahi ye baar baar girna aur fir gir kar uthane wala process kab tak chalega, pata nahi kya hai jo mujhse chhut raha hai, nahi pata is kyu ye phase hai aur kab tak rahega. Agar kuch pata hai to wo yah ki mai bas jinda hu jindagi jee to bilkul nahi raha..💔
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