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Obviously - Kurt Cobain did not kill himself.

He was not planning to do that, and there is no reason to believe he would suddenly choose to inject himself with a rushed amount of heroin that he knew would kill him.

Even if he was using heroin at the time, someone who understands the drug knows that taking that much that fast is deadly.

He also did not plan to shoot himself (for real) and end his life along with the shotgun and the heroin. He was not trying to end his life at all.


The evidence points to a rapid overdose, not a slow or controlled use. That kind of rushed exposure makes no sense as a personal choice for someone who did not intend to die. It leaves little to no time to react.

The purposeful lethal amount of black tar heroin was not taken by choice. It was administered very quickly by someone else, leaving Kurt with no real chance to respond or stop what was happening.

When heroin is taken, the body starts breaking it down almost right away. That process is called metabolism. If someone takes heroin and stays conscious for a while, you usually see more signs that the drug had time to be processed by the body.

In Kurt Cobain’s case, the toxicology showed extremely high levels of heroin-related substances with very little evidence of metabolism.

What that tells us is timing. It means the drug entered his system very close to the time of death. There wasn’t much time for his body to break it down or adjust to it. The system was overwhelmed quickly.

This pattern fits a rapid, massive exposure, not slow or spaced-out use. It suggests the heroin didn’t trickle in over time - it hit the body hard and fast, leaving little chance to react.

That’s why metabolism is important here. It’s not about opinions or stories. It’s about how the body works and what happens when a drug is introduced too quickly for the body to handle.

With with all of this now in mind;

Kurt got back from rehab... He left because Courtney purposely pissed him off with the magazine she had sent to him about her and Billy Corgan. Kurt decided that was the final straw. He walked out really pissed and very upset. Also focused and serious about his new plans (divorcing Courtney and taking all of the money away from HER control). Courtney found out that Kurt was back at the house, because Cali had told Courtney over the phone.

Kurt then left the house again at some point and Courtney could not find Kurt, so she called Tom Grant on Sunday, April 3rd, to help locate Kurt for her once again. She also had canceled the credit cards earlier, and that eventually led to her being able to lure Kurt straight back to the house... and overnight, just after midnight, on Sunday night in the a.m... Early Monday morning around 2am, is when Mark Lanegan, Dylan Carlson and possibly one or two other people, went to Kurt's house and tried to get Kurt to do black tar heroin... Their supply of it... Their purposeful lethal dose of it.

Kurt kept refusing it, not wanting to do any of the heroines that Mark and Dylan had gotten, because Kurt had already gotten high not too long before they showed up. The situation was very controlling and forced upon Kurt. It would have been a very sketchy and very sudden situation.

Kurt was announcing to everyone back at his house that he was leaving Courtney and leaving Seattle. He was also taking Courtney out of his will. Courtney unfortunately had many of Kurt's friends on her side. Kurt obviously should have kept his plans to himself. He had a right to feel safe in his own home... But he chose the wrong people to choose to invite in and do that around.

When Mark and Dylan specifically could not get Kurt to do their heroin... They cooked it up in front of Kurt... Most likely pretending that they were going to shoot it up themselves instead then... And then they whoever had the needle in their hand would have turned the needle on Kurt and quickly jabbed him with it, while another person would have been holding Kurt down at the same time. A quick, brutal attack. He did not have much time to respond do anything happening to him in that moment before he became unconscious very shortly after being jabbed with the lethal dose of the black tar heroin.

He was then moved to the greenhouse by Mark and Dylan and shot through the hard palate of his mouth at 2:32 a.m., right after Mark Lanegan finished his smoke at 2:30 a.m. - just as Mark explained in his song Sunday night 2:30 a.m. - After Mark's smoke, he then shot Kurt through the hard palate of his mouth, in the greenhouse, and Mark's trigger finger became all blistered and blue.

Hours later Courtney then calls in a false missing person's report as Wendy O'Connor - Playing innocent and now framing a narrative.

There we go... Finally.

- Zack (The Life Of A Borderline)

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What does everyone think? Do you think that Kurt gave in and started using the drug that they prepared for him? Or do you think thay they are and Dylan) cooked it up right in front of him, and then turned on him in an instant if Kurt was still refusing to do their own drugs? We are almost done at solving this.

So imagine you are the killers... You are Dylan and Mark sent there by Courtney... And what you have is black tar hero!n but you are going to cook Kurt up some... because you can't do it before so because it won't last that long once it is already cooked up... So they would have cooked it up right in front of Kurt and got him to eventually take the needle for himself or they forced it into him. Because the last thing we know about what Joe seen, is that Mark and Dylan were trying to get Kurt to do it, and Mark kind of slapped him in the face with the hero!n kit or something... Not a metal something like Chris Todd twisted. So they either succeeded in eventually pressuring Kurt into doing more hero!n... And they knew that the dose that they packed for him would kill him... And so Mark or Dylan prepared it and then they gave Kurt the needle - probably for Kurt to do for himself, and Kurt took the needle and put it in his arm. He then would have passed out after a little while, and then they would have dragged his body out to the greenhouse. It either went down that way, or they forced it into him after they cooked it up - the entire time pretending that they were going to shoot it in themselves (if he kept refusing and wouldn't budge on that decision once Joe left the basement).

So they literally just came with the murder weapon, knowing how to do it, but still being kind of friendly to him and acting like they are close still .... Acting like they are still his friends, just to get his trust still so that they can get Kurt to job himself with the lethal dose of hero!n just like Tom Grant said in the Mysteries episode (by having Kurt inject it himself, without realizing that it's a lethal dose - though Mark and Dylan absolutely knew that it was).

The people who Kurt trusted pushed him to use drugs again, even when he was already high and did not need nor want to take anymore.

They acted like friends, but their actions pressured him into doing something dangerous... We know that Joe seen them trying to get Kurt to do their own personal share of the drug.

They prepared him a hot shot of black tar hero!n... A deadly dose of it... And either had him inject himself with it, or was injected by either Mark or Dylan with it. Again, they would have cooked it up right in front of Kurt. If Kurt still didn't agree to do any more hero!n with them (as Joe had seen him doing moments before Joe left the basement - not wanting to do anymore) - they probably pretended to cook it up for themselves but then quickly turned it on him. It they didn't force it into him then it wasn’t a fight or anything obvious, it was more like manipulation, making him do something while they stayed “friendly.”

Basically - someone being pushed into making a choice that seems like their own, but really isn’t. If not then they forced it into his arm, which could possibly explain away the bruising.

- Zack (The Life Of A Borderline)

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Important Update – Josef Burns Hot Topic Podcast

As many of you may already know... The Josef Burns Hot Topic Podcast has been banned from YouTube.

Because of this, Joe and I are moving forward with our own independent website where episodes can be viewed directly, without relying on Big Tech platforms and all of their censorship.

👉 New official home;

josefburnshottopicpodcast.jimdofree.com/

The website is still under construction, and a lot more content will be added soon, so please stay tuned.

This site will be the main place to watch the podcast, stay updated, and contact Josef directly.

You’ll also still see the occasional video featuring Joe uploaded on my own YouTube channel, The Life of a Borderline, as well.

And just to be clear;

If this website is ever attacked or taken down, we already have backup websites ready and will share them immediately. The podcast is not going anywhere.

Thank you to everyone who continues to support, watch, and stand by independent voices. Your support matters more than ever. Stay tuned.

- Zack (The Life Of A Borderline)

#JoeBurns #KurtCobain #JosefBurnsHotTopicPodcast #BannedContent

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So it is a no to a Chris Michaelson being involved in the Cobain case. I know that Eric Erlandson brought up his name in a video backstage. But Joe never said that he was there. If anyone is saying that then they are making that up.

- Zack (The Life Of A Borderline)

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What do you all think? This also aligns with Tom Grant saying that Kurt died either on Easter Sunday or early Monday morning. Which also means that somebody else (⬆️) could have been there... The one who supplied the money for the black tar hero!n for Mark and Dylan to find Kurt with and to do with him. For business reasons. The literal drug that actually did kill Kurt... Tom needed to buy that specific drug for Mark and Dylan to get and to go find Kurt with... For business reasons.

For so long I thought that Krist meant that tweet in a certain way, in which he didn't believe that that Kurt was killed... But now I believe that he knows a lot more... And knows that Tom Grant is covering up for everything... Because he was also involved IN the crime.

Which also means that last meal of his would have been his Easter Sunday meal with Joe. Kurt possibly ate one on Saturday too right when he arrived back home. It also means that the coroner only got the date of death wrong by only one day. That also makes more sense.

It is also noted that Tom Grant (the private investigator Love hired) 'believes' that she filed the missing persons report at approximately 9:00 a.m. on April 4, 1994 - under the name of Cobain’s mother, Wendy O’Connor. What do most people do after they murder someone... From all of the crime documentaries and body cam footage videos that I have watched here on YouTube... The killers call the police and they act like the person is missing and that they haven't seen them, and they act like they are very concerned about them. They act all innocent and concerned.

Right shortly after that moment they are panicking because they had just murdered someone and they know it, and they do not want to get busted for it. So they work immediately in covering their tracks. It would make sense for Courtney to wait until 9:00 a.m. though. Calling at 3:00 a.m. in the morning would be very, very suspicious and odd - plus the staged crime scene is not completely set up yet at 2:30 to 3am.

And I doubt anyone else of Mark or Dylan's friends are going to buy Mark and Dylan the drug for them and Kurt and not do any with them, since they are all junkies too and would want to just do it with them. And since they got it from Caitlin's... Well she didn't tag along... and that was where Tom drove Mark and Dylan to get the drug. It couldn't be an innocent tag along person with them because they wouldn't want that. They know what is about to go down with that drug. Afterwards Mark or Dylan will take some with them and do it themselves. As selfish as they are.

Note: The song mentioned below is Sunday Night 2:30 a.m. by Mark Lanegan and Skeleton Joe.

- Zack (The Life Of A Borderline)

#KurtCobain #MarkLanegan #DylanCarlson #TomGrant #JoeBurns #BonnieDillard #CaliDeWitt #JenniferAdamson #JessicaHopper

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When we talk about Kurt Cobain and the Cobain case, it’s not just about solving a mystery or defending someone we care about. To really understand Kurt, we have to step back into 1994 itself.

Not just because we love Kurt - but because the world he lived in was fundamentally different from the one we’re drowning in now.
Life moved slower then.

Yes, people partied. Yes, some people lived fast and burned bright. But the pace of life itself was slower. Moments had weight. Silence existed. Boredom existed - and boredom is where creativity, reflection, and real connection came from.

There was no constant scrolling. No endless notifications. No algorithm deciding what you should feel every 3 seconds.

If you wanted to connect with someone, you had to show up. If you wanted to be heard, you had to say something that mattered. If you lost someone, the grief wasn’t swallowed by a feed - it stayed with you, quietly, heavily, honestly.
Now look at us.

We’re more “connected” than ever, yet more isolated. We consume instead of feel. We react instead of reflect. Everything is fast, disposable, and instantly replaced.

And we wonder why people feel empty. Why attention spans are shattered. Why meaning feels harder to hold onto. Why genuine connection feels rare and fragile.

Kurt came from a time where pain didn’t have filters. Where art wasn’t optimized.

That matters.

Because judging 1994 through a 2026 lens - through social media logic, internet culture, and modern desensitization - will always miss something essential.

You can’t fully understand Kurt without understanding the slower, quieter, more human world he existed in.

Caring about Kurt isn’t just about looking backward. It’s also about realizing what we’ve lost along the way.

And maybe asking ourselves: What would it look like to slow down again? To protect meaning? To value real connection over constant stimulation?

Because the world didn’t just change. We did. I wish that Kurt Cobain was still here and that the world was still the many sentimental ways that it was in the 90's. I know that a lot of us do unfortunately. What is cool is that with Lucid dreaming... You realize that the 90's has never left. Neither have the 80's or any other year.

If the government told everybody tomorrow that it was suddenly 1997 again... And that everyone in the world would just have to accept that and believe it - most would have no choice but tl suddenly live like that and start believing that. We really need to start to govern ourselves more. We can create our own reality too... Just like the government can do to us.

In fact... Most of us could do a way better job at so than any form of government.

The world has been changed time and time again to benefit the elites who are in power of the world. The world has not been changed time after time again by the 'elite' to benefit the majority of humanity. Things have only been changed to hurt us and to enslave us more.

Realize your own power and government authority over your own mind and life completely.

Imagination, visualization, and perception... All so VERY important. STOP SCROLLING and start using your imagination again... And just start thinking for yourself. Without Chat GPT or any other AI app telling you how to go about things and how to BE. It's more important than many people realize.

- Zack (The Life Of A Borderline)

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This photo is important, and the parts I underlined are intentional.

The red and white highlights line up with what Joe later wrote and testified to in his book, but this isn’t new information. These same core details were already being reported back in 2007.

What stands out is the consistency:

Kurt becoming increasingly reclusive.

The very same small circle of people around him at the Lake Washington house.

The references to who was there, what was happening, and where he spent his time
And the fact that his basement was his common “go-to” place during those final weeks/days.

That matters, because it shows that the basics of what was going on at the house didn’t suddenly change years later - they were already documented long before Joe’s newer book came out.

This isn’t about speculation. It’s about comparing sources across time and noticing when the same details keep appearing, years apart, from different angles.

When older reporting and later testimony match up this closely, it’s 💯 percent worth paying attention to.

- Zack (The Life Of A Borderline)

#JoeBurns #KurtCobain #DylanCarlson #MarkLanegan #TomGrant #CourtneyLove #CaliDeWitt #JessicaHopper #BonnieDillard #JenniferAdamson #EricErlandson #KatBjelland #ReneNavarette #RoddyBottum

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This post is going to be hard for some people to accept and to believe... But it is true.

In the early 90s, when I first started seeing reptilian like alien beings at night (in my sleep), it really scared me... and it would happen when I had to go to bed. Sometimes it would even happen during the day - through my third eye I would see them just very briefly, and sometimes for a prolonged period of time... Sometimes.. but only when I was all by myself and away from my mom, stepdad, and my other two siblings at the time.

From 1995 I can remember absolutely hating going to bed. Especially going to bed alone. I would stare at the ceiling until I fell into the (what I now know to be called the hypnagogic state) and I would see all of them again. Then I would wake up out of it and I would yell and scream for my mom or my stepdad. Either one or both would come upstairs and into my room and I would tell them and they both would think that I was just making it up or that I had another bad dream again. This was almost EVERY night.

Now though, I am absolutely used to them. I am used to all kinds of them. It's just normal. Even ones that are of just a black stretchy dark muck, or alien beings that look like a blob/puddle (if that makes any sense at all). It is Actual Reality. Knowing all of this is accepting MepA and MepB as One. Aka your waking life and your dreaming life as One full eternal experience (your 3D experience and 4D/5D etc experiences - YOUR ETERNAL LIFE - all as One). MepA (Main Earth Plane A) refers to the 3rd dimension and MepB (Main Earth Plane B) refers to all of the other dimensions beyond the 3D. You are suddenly consciously seeing the full picture of reality again, and not just fragments of it anymore.

I remember getting this Buzz Light Year and Woody from Toy Story for Christmas in 1995, and this was when all this was really happening so vividly to me for the first time ever - because I was basically still only just a baby. I remember these very toys making me feel safe and I never wanted to go to sleep without them. I remember holding them really tight when I would lay in my bed and wait anxiously for them to appear in my room again. My mom overtime thought that my older brother drugged me... Because I kept telling her about all of it throughout the many years... but that was not the case... Because all of these experiences continue to this day... And I understand that everyone else can do it as well... Even if they have or have not taken drugs in their life. I am also aware that everyone else has also been doing all of this 'dream travel' as well.

The other images I have attached in this post are of multi-dimensional beings that would also appear in almost every dream of mine ever since I was a baby and they continue to happen to this very day. Seeing Slappy alive from Goosebumps in that hypnagogic state was very freaky as a child. Sometimes I would think there was more episodes of Goosebumps... And I grew up thinking that... I grew up thinking it was a Mandela effect... But it wasn't... It was just that I had forgotten that I was having conscious experiences with the props from the show in the hypnagogic state. That actually happens to a lot of us I realize. All of us actually (depending on what we personally watch). To be in the hypnagogic state... It is like experiencing your third dimension life.... Anything and Everything in that state is just as real as it is in the third dimension... Except anything and everything that you want to believe - you can manifest up for yourself.

We really are multi-dimensional spirit beings. We are too distracted by so much media to realize this unfortunately. We were supposed to remain aware since babyhood and forever onward.

Only be friends with the other multi-dimensional beings that are like you... that will not harm you. We are all multi-dimensional beings and different races of being multi-dimensional... And there is no need to freak out over this.

Most don't understand it... We are supposed to understand it... We are not supposed to be clueless. I will continue to try and help people understand it. If you can dig deep down into your memory enough then you will know that what I am saying is true... but I will help you actually understand all of it as well 👍

Happy New year 2026 everyone ... We are getting a lot of things done this year on this channel and on Joe's Channel as well. Soon Joe will come out with a lot more content about Kurt and many other topics that are very important as well. Thank you all for tuning in here and I hope that you all stay around to see what all of this here on this channel and on Joe's channel evolves into overtime... 😊💚🎉🎊✌️

NOTE: The first photo is not of me (it's a pin I found on Pinterest from 1995 of the exact same thing I got on that Christmas as well) but the next 3 photos are of me in the early 90's in Bowmanville, Ontario, Canada.

- Zack

#GateWayProcess #GospelOfThomas #OutOfBodyExperiences #LucidDreaming #Consciousness #RemoteViewing #SpiritualAbuseByTheElites #YouAreNotABeingOfTheGovernment

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I did my first on camera interview with Catherine the other day. I know it was a little platform but I was still nervous because of everything that I was speaking about... Which I haven't spoken about ever... Especially toward the middle of the video.

- Zack (The Life Of A Borderline)

#KurtCobain #JoeBurns #EpsteinList

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