Welcome! I've been a YouTuber/Vlogger/Blogger since 2005 with a focus on lucid dreaming and creative expression. I create compilation videos of 90s – Early 2000s Nostalgia, as well as videos about lucid dreaming. I also do freelance video work, as well as a lot of my very own vlogging and blogging. I have been Blogging since 2005 & Vlogging since 2004 (pre-YT!).
Along the way, I’ve also spoken up about my own challenges and stood for others who have faced injustice, because I believe in giving a voice to experiences that are too often overlooked or silenced.
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• Zachary McQuaid
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The Life Of A Borderline
There you have it... Quite a haunting photo here... 1997. Way before Joe's book came out in 2025... Mark Lanegan was already being accused by one of his ex girlfriends from high school - Tammy Hill. You heard it HERE first, and it IS the TRUTH! What Joe says DOES MATTER. Just listen to what he is saying, in it's entirety, and put the pieces together as I myself have done and as others here on my channel have also done.
- Zack (The Life Of A Borderline)
#KurtCobain #JoeBurns #MarkLanegan #TammyHill #MARKLANEGANDIDIT #UnsolvedMysteries1997 #NOMOREMYSTERY #DylanCarlson #CaliDeWitt #BonnieDillard #JessicaHopper #JenniferAdamson
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Please subscribe to Joe Burns' new YouTube channel if you haven't already... Our first go on YouTube didn't go too well... Was going well... Until our account was removed.
This is Joe's new YouTube account for his podcast. We are still trying to build it up. ⬇️
youtube.com/@josefburnshottopicpodcast88?si=TibMPE…
- Zack (The Life Of A Borderline)
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I want to say something clearly.
Some people (especially people that want to be really famous regarding the Cobain case) label me as “violent” or “unstable,” but I haven’t laid hands on anyone in 10 years. Not once. And that was 2017 and it was a fight that didn't even last 5 seconds. Just some throwing of punches and that was it.
I know Lisa from WKK has threatened to go on road trips and hurt people. I haven't even done that and that's one of the people judging me for what I have done in the past.
Yes - in 2023, I got into legal trouble over an online death threat involving Sarah Silverman. I’m not denying that. But there was nothing physical that came from it. No action. No harm done. The death threat charge was ultimately dropped because the judge recognized that I was going through a serious mental health breakdown at the time.
That doesn’t excuse it - but it explains it.
There is a difference between someone spiraling mentally and someone physically hurting people. Context really matters. Growth matters... and healing matters.
I’m not sharing this to excuse my behavior. I take responsibility for the fact that my words crossed a line. Words matter. But I also believe that context really matters, and that mental health struggles are real.
When someone is overwhelmed, traumatized, or breaking down, they are not always operating from their healthiest self.
I have spent years working on myself. I’ve owned my mistakes, and I have definitely faced the consequences. I’ve worked hard to stay grounded and in control.
Passion isn’t violence. Struggle isn’t evil. Having a breakdown doesn’t make someone permanently dangerous.
If someone wants to judge me, at least judge the full story — not a headline, not a label, not a moment taken out of context.
And I know a lot of you love the Who Killed Kurt girls, but to pick on someone regarding their legal troubles (which even had a gag order at the time), and also pick on someone regarding their own mental health breakdown is absolutely horrible to do to anybody. If you're an adult you know this. If you're a kid and you're reading this then you might not understand - but you should. They made a video for their YouTube channel speaking about me and my breakdown/my court case and were laughing about me while criticizing me.
Bullying someone over their mental breakdown that they had in the past should not be seen as good behaviour ... Even if you like the people that are doing the bullying.
https://youtu.be/eVRF47N-YzU?si=twZPU...
- Zack (The Life Of A Borderline)
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Both of the accused killers (Mark Lanegan and Dylan Carlson) are literally lying about the last time that they seen or heard from Kurt Cobain.
Dylan was lying about being in the limo with Harvey and with Kurt.
Mark was lying when he said that he didn't hear from Kurt when Kurt had returned back home in Seattle from rehab in LA.
Let all of this sink in...
- Zack (The Life Of A Borderline)
#KurtCobain #JoeBurns #MarkLanegan #DylanCarlson #TammyHill #UnsolvedMysteries #HarveyOttinger
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For only a few people left out there, there has been confusion about who was actually driving Kurt Cobain and Courtney Love during the last days of 1994.
In the book Heavier Than Heaven, limo driver Leonard “Leon” Phelps is described as driving Kurt and Courtney around Seattle, including during the time Courtney was dealing with returning a Lexus. That detail comes from interviews used in the book. Leon possibly even drove Kurt around in Seattle when he was back home after having left Exodus (that part about driving Kurt around when he was back in Seattle is not confirmed at all though).
But when it comes to the trip to rehab, the timeline is clear.
On Tuesday, March 29, 1994, Kurt was supposed to leave for rehab but got into an argument with Krist Novoselic. Reports say there was a confrontation at the airport, and Kurt did not leave that day. He even almost jumped out of the car that Krist was drove him in. Kurt and Krist got into a fight and Kurt then left the airport and he went back home.
The next day, Wednesday, March 30, 1994, he did fly to Los Angeles to enter treatment at Exodus Recovery Center. Harvey Ottinger is the person who drove Kurt to Seattle–Tacoma International Airport on THAT date - not Leon. They had many limo drivers.
So in simple terms:
•Leon is mentioned in Heavier Than Heaven as driving them around Seattle.
•The airport incident and rehab departure involved different people.
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•Different drivers are connected to different events.
- Zack (The Life Of A Borderline)
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I think that it would be a great idea to collaborate with independent musicians on YouTube that do cover songs of Nirvana that will actually be creative and go on camera and perform... And collaborate with them with Joe... Having Joe do like a thumbs up on camera in their music video or something... Doing a bit of what Kurt wanted to do with him, in a way... What do you all think? I know there are people that sing here.... Just send me a link to your stuff here... I can even make a video... 💥👍💥
- Zack
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There is a false narrative being carefully shaped around what happened in April 1994.
But we are digging deeper now...
We have been looking into who was actually in Seattle on Thursday, April 7th - before the body was discovered the next day.
There are confirmations being worked on about flights, timelines, and who was physically present.
Since certain people were there earlier than the public has been led to believe - alongside Tom Grant, Dylan, and others - that changes the context entirely.
What concerns me most isn’t just the past. It’s the present.
There are individuals with platforms trying to “manage” the story. Media vultures trying to manage YouTube platforms and tell them what they can and cannot reveal to the public. Trying to soften it. Trying to shape books and media narratives in ways that protect reputations instead of pursuing truth.
When you see coordinated efforts to downplay key details, that’s not journalism - that is damage control.
If Courtney was flown into Seattle and was there on Thursday, April 7th, that is not a small detail. That is central.
This isn’t about headlines that look good. It’s about facts that hold up.
And the more people try to contain or cover parts of the timeline, the more obvious it becomes that those parts really matter.
Truth doesn’t need managing.
- Zack (The Life Of A Borderline)
#KurtCobain #JoeBurns #TheLifeOfABorderline #MarkLanegan #DanielClintRich #DannyRich #TomGrant #CourtneyLove #KatBjelland #EricErlandson #DylanCarlson #JenniferAdamson #BonnieDillard #JessicaHopper #PatSmear #CaliDeWitt #ReneNavarette #TammyHill #MaureenHerman
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Woah! I just uploaded that video of Daniel Clint Rich and I just looked at the time after and it's 2:32 a.m. ... Wow.
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I have learnt that you have to let liars lie and let them fool people. You can't call them out, or else your life will be threatened. That is what happened to me tonight. Previous posts and stream deleted.
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Is there anyone on here that will put in the serious hours to help me and Joe with his podcast? We are speaking about a whole range of subjects as well as Kurt Cobain. I no longer want to give that opportunity to somebody who is going to exploit it. I also need help with transcribing all of the Daniel Clint Rich videos. The person I had doing this before never really wanted to complete the work.
Please email me at zackmc2026 at gmail.
- Zack (The Life Of A Borderline)
#KurtCobain #JoeBurns #BonnieDillard #JenniferAdamson #CaliDeWitt #CourtneyLove #JessicaHopper #MarkLanegan #TomGrant #EricErlandson #DylanCarlson #DanielClintRich
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