Welcome... I am a YouTuber/Vlogger/Blogger. I have been Blogging since 2005 & Vlogging since 2004 (pre-YT).
Since 2021, this channel has been a mix of both my personal life and the subjects, cases, and topics that interest me. You'll find both here - real-life experiences, struggles, thoughts, updates, and discussions about various subjects I'm passionate about (such as the Cobain Case, Lucid Dreaming, Etc).
My channel's name The Life Of A Borderline comes from my diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder, which is why I chose the channel name years ago. This channel isn't just about one thing - it's about life as it happens, the good and the bad, and the topics that have been part of my journey along the way.
• Zachary McQuaid
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Made these for an intro and have to share them... 90s Slappys from Goosebumps wearing a Nirvana T-shirt 💥🤯💥
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It's a weird reality when a biker who calls himself a hardcore biker and hangs around hardcore biker people is apparently afraid of Courtney Love. But maybe he's not afraid of her, maybe it's just what Chris said about not wanting potential lawsuits or money being taken away.
I was on a Zoom chat with both Chris Todd and Joe Burns, and Chris told us to leave Courtney out of the picture, go around her, and say it was Mark Lanegan in the red dress inside the greenhouse instead, because his estate wasn't going to sue.
Think about that for a minute. If you believe Kurt Cobain was murdered, then the possibility of misinformation being planted in the case is something worth questioning. And misinformation may already be out there.
Yes, Mark Lanegan is actually Kurt Cobain's murderer. But there is misinformation also being planted about him (which is covering up Courtney's and Daniel Clint Rich's involvement). Way to go Chris! ⚰️🪦💀🥀☠️
And there is no 3rd mysterious individual. There is Van and then there is Dan. You are still confused because there is a cover up happening involving Courtney Love's direct involvement.
And should I even admit any of this? I will only get a lot of hate anyway. Maybe people didn't deserve to know this. I really wonder now if I should share information with others. I never used to be like that.
P.S.
People want to hate other people, and racism, prejudice, and other forms of hate are just excuses they use to justify it.
Even when one excuse doesn't exist, they'll find another one. And even when there's absolutely no reason to dislike someone, they can still choose to hate them.
The hate comes first, and the excuse comes afterwards. Iit's unnecessary.
People could simply leave each other alone, show respect, and let others live their lives without constantly looking for reasons to judge or mistreat them.
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Hey everyone, I just wanted to say I'm still struggling right now and I'm trying to get through this. Thanksgiving was kind of horrible for me, and I literally haven't had a proper meal in about 3 days now. I just woke up in my wet tent and I'm really struggling right now. If anyone is able to help me out, even a couple dollars would honestly mean a lot to me right now. If you can't, that's okay too, and thank you to everyone who's been watching my videos and supporting my channel. My PayPal is zackmc2021@gmail.com
Any negativity? Your butthole is where that goes. Just shove it right up there.
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Hey everyone, I just want to say thank you again to everyone who helped me last time. I really appreciate it more than you know. It helped me a ton.
I'm back in my tent again. I've been going back and forth between Toronto and my small town because I really don't feel safe staying in the area I was living in Toronto. I'd rather come back here for now than keep staying somewhere I feel unsafe, until I'm able to find another room.
Right now I'm just trying to get by and survive with the basics again. It's getting really cold out here now, especially at night, and it's only October. It's been almost 7 months of tenting now... I am now having a big problem with moisture inside my tent. I keep waking up and everything is wet, and I have to keep wiping everything down. I really need some more tarps to help keep the tent dry and keep some of the cold out.
I'm still working on a new video for my channel, I haven't forgotten about it. It's just hard to get much rest out here and find the energy to work on things when I'm dealing with all this.
If anyone is able to help me out a little bit so I can get some more tarps, I'd really appreciate it. The only way I can receive money right now is through PayPal, and my PayPal email is zackmc2021@gmail.com.
Thank you to everyone who's helped me before and everyone who's still here supporting me. It really does mean a lot to me. And I do remember your names! Add me on Facebook if you want to speak to me about the case. I have tried adding some of you that send to me. Doesn't matter if you do or don't though - still add me 💥👍💥
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I am sorry - but because of negative comments I am starting to become a lot less active on my channel. I don't even want to say too much because I will just be faced with bullying from other adults. Save any video you want before they are all removed. WKK is standing up for Mark Lanegan, trying to keep the information sealed from others, and want to really make me stop making videos about THE ACTUAL TRUTH about what happened to Kurt Cobain. The bullying... It works. Congratulations. I think Kurt would have hated the internet. The ways in which people are connecting with others through it. Who knows... But I certainly am starting to really not like it. The truth is being pushed aside... At least you still have a forensic report to go by though, brought to you by Jason Jensen (not Michelle). Given to her to gain more attention, and then... Then they start twisting the eye witnesses testimony... While still working with Chris Todd but pretending not to be. Chris has worked with Michael Levine ... Michael also worked with Kurt himself, and Courtney. That's an odd connection. Especially since that person was brought into this case by someone who has had over 13 phone calls with Courtney Love and has met with her in person many times. Congratulations Courtney Love as well. I'm taking a break. I'll be back and forth but definitely a lot less active on here - for now.
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I tried to make this photo look as realistic as possible (not just with AI but with my own editing skills as well). Click on the photo to enlarge it.
This is related to Saturday and Sunday... Not Monday in the early AM hours when Kurt was unconscious and brought up to the greenhouse by Mark Lanegan and Dylan Carlson.
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CLICK ON THE IMAGE TO ENLARGE IT.
I am putting this in a new video I am making, but I wanted to share it with everyone... I think a lot of you would like to see this. This is the most realistic version with AI/my own editing skills combined that I have made so far.
This is related to Saturday and Sunday... Not Monday in the early AM hours when Kurt was unconscious and brought up to the greenhouse by Mark Lanegan and Dylan Carlson.
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The murder didn't happen on the 5th and Kurt was never 'missing' until he was killed. The coroner was off by a day. It was Monday, April 4th.
Sunday, Courtney met with Tom, trying to locate Kurt. She didn't leave at all yet. Cali answered. Told Courtney Kurt was there (she likely already knew though - via Antonio Terry). So she knew Kurt was there early Monday morning still for sure though - because of Cali and Jessica telling her over the phone. Then later on that same early Monday morning, while it's still dark out, Jessica is hearing someone in the house walking with a purpose... Think about Jessica's statement.. and think about last days 2005... The person in heels is walking with a purpose.. and then you hear the words "listen... It's her!" This is all in the early morning hours of Monday April 4th. The murder occurs. Courtney, Mark, Dylan, Van. Cali was the betrayer and helping them, while playing both sides.
She then does an interview - apparently from her hotel room in LA. She can't stop crying uncontrollably (for some reason) - Obviously we know why now. Still Monday, though now way later on in the day time hours.
Also, the missing persons report is set up to make his death to look like a suicide right away... Same day still - Monday. Courtney calls for the electrician to do work on the house in the greenhouse on Tuesday April 5th. He cannot make it and has to reschedule for this 8th. Courtney knows she has until Friday before Kurt's body is finally located and he's no longer 'missing.
She flies back again before the body is discovered for sure by the electrician. Everything is still set. Mark and Dylan... she couldn't trust to get them to find the body with someone. They let her down on that - and obviously they did so purposely. I bet as drug addicts that they were super sketched out about bringing an ex police officer/private investigator to a dead body.. especially since they had killed the person.
Let's just say... If surveillance was set up at the house on Sunday night, though Courtney didn't want that... Well... We would know exactly what happened. Without trying to do too much research.
And now we are going into ... "Sunday night in the am.... 2:32... My trigger finger... All blistered and blue..."
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She did the interview on Monday from her hotel room... She could have been anywhere though. If she did leave Seattle again, sometime in the week she flies BACK. Thursday night she is spotted there again and then she again flies back to LA. It's looking to me like she stayed there and only went back on the 7th. She then pretends to be suicidal and overdosing. Gets arrested with fake drugs on her. She knows the news will hit once the electrician she hired the next day goes there to the house. Again, Kurt was never actually 'missing' until he was killed - Monday, April 4th.
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Courtney hunted Kurt down without waiting for him to call and explain anything to her. As soon as staff found out that Kurt left Exodus, they told Courtney... And they told Courtney before Kurt had even placed his missed call to her. Shortly after he left, she knew she had to go back to Seattle. The hotel was then used as her alibi... She wasn't STILL there though. She was only checked in as being there during certain times still. Not was she enjoying herself at a nice concert, being all relaxed and having a lot of fun. That is the exact opposite of what she was actually doing.
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