:SHOCK: - Invidious

First things first,
Jydn I deeply apologize for the troublesome things that I’ve did over the past couple of months—pushing you to the point of quitting.

I first saw your Shibuya Gojo moveset video and gave you some tips to improve, but it seemed like you didn’t really understand what I said which kinda gave me a disliking to your channel. Weeks go by, and I stumbled upon your video again having thousands of views for such a low effort and easy video to make, which caused me to get heated over it. Since when I first started a channel, I barely even got any views and that continued for months, really stressing on how I was gonna make it out there. I even tried making high quality videos and that barely made a difference. Every now and then, whenever I see people who make the sloppy and low effort content, I tend to get frustrated over it since they gain a bigger audience than me, while I put countless hours into my works.
And that’s what caused me to make you feel like quitting since people like you shouldn’t be on this platform—which was what I used to believe as a mindset for your channel. But I realized that I was wrong this entire time. Just because somebody is doing better than someone doesn’t mean you have to rip them all the way to the ground, especially when they’re still a child who’s trying to make good content, enjoying their hobby.
I somewhat saw my old self inside of Jydn. When I further thought about his situation, that really just made me a bit emotional since he was just like me, getting hated out of nowhere while trying to find success, with such sorrow at a young age, and I can really understand how hard that is since i’ve experienced it countless amount of times. And the more i think about that, the more I feel ashamed of how I’m putting all this to somebody and making them feel the same insane experience that i’ve felt.

The slanders that I made about Jydn started off as a joke, but I seriously should have stopped when Jydn posted that mental health post from around a month ago. But instead as you guys have probably already seen, I mindlessly commented somewhere saying that “I didn’t care” and was thinking that he’s too much of an immature guy who can’t handle the “criticism” around him. This should’ve already been a warning that I ignored thinking Jydn would be fine, and I really thought so since he went offline for like 3 weeks making us think he was gonna make the biggest comeback, but he posted a long message in his post of what he was truly feeling over the weeks of him being gone.
Like the dumbass I was, even after reading all of that, I had the intent of making more slander posts until I reached my desired goal—which was so fucked up of me.
This part is really embarrassing to say, but without my best friend,‪@getsuuga‬ , telling me to stop and really, REALLY consider what I’ve done to Jydn, I probably wouldn’t have stopped for a couple of days until
I finally realized it myself. I just wanted to say that since Getsu also contributed alot to the Jydn slander, I’m not only mentioning Getsu since alot of my people from my discord server was also involved in the making of the Jydn slanders that I constantly posted for the span of whole 3 months. Yes, I never once made a single Jydn/sunaki slander image, but even with that, I’m the main culprit behind what’s causing this and I don’t expect to be forgiven.
I just wanna come clean and say that I was reaching my lowest point, where I didn’t even realize it, until people snapped me out of it.

Even with all of this, Jydn, or anybody should never ever consider ending it all because of the amount of hate they recieved. I know Jydn is still a kid, and that’s pretty hard to deal with since he lacks the experience. But ending it all is never the answer or the solution to your problems.

Jydn, from the bottom of my heart, I deeply apologize for the mess that I’ve caused, and this goes the same for Sunaki.
I really hope you still continue and try to strive for your goal—even after deciding that you’re going to delete your channel after your last video. Even if you still feel like deleting your channel, I wish the best for you and hope your goals be reached. If not, I’ll be willing to help you on your journey with skill building. If you still feel like making that type of content, feel free to dm me on discord!!

With all of that said, have a late Merry Christmas and thank you for listening. I’ll be very careful of my actions from now on.

Hope we can be friends, Jydn.

-logan