WonderBee

Hi! Sorry again for the lack of videos this week and in the future for now. My courses turned out to be insanely intense (plus, I got sick...).

Anyway, I wanted to let you know I’m changing my channel name. Now I’m Wonder Bee. Like Wonder Woman... Okay, maybe that’s a bit full of myself, haha. Originally, I came up with the name "Bee at Work" as a play on the lowest rank in IDV—the Worker Bee—implying that I’m low-level in every sense of the word. But now I feel like BeeAtWork doesn't quite have the right ring to it; it’s probably hard to remember. So, let's go with WonderBee. Plus, it has the same rhythm as Worker Bee, so it still fits my idea of ​​having no skill—and being just as cute as a bee!

I hope you have a good day, evening and/or night! See you soon!

1 month ago | [YT] | 2

WonderBee

My video releases might be a bit irregular and infrequent over the next four weeks or so. My summer semester is starting, and I’ve also picked up double shifts at work for the time being (you can never have too much money). So, my time will be dedicated to these commitments for the coming month.
P.S. I finaly got the Worker Bee frame! And Mind's Eye A-tier...

1 month ago | [YT] | 3

WonderBee

Please forgive me for my last post. Sometimes a wave of depression washes over me, and I start feeling very sad for all sorts of reasons—some valid, some not (this one was not reasonable). I didn't hold back this time and didn't think it through, and made a scene and feel really dumb right now. I am so sorry. I will try my best to do better

1 month ago | [YT] | 4

WonderBee

I’m really at my breaking point. And I feel like I can finally let myself lose it, since there’s no one here anyway. And it is my space too, so...

I feel terrible. Invisible. I try so hard, but why does no one watch my videos? What am I doing wrong? Why do others manage to go viral with their very first video, while I’m just like dust in the corner? Is it because my English is bad? Is my voice annoying? What exactly makes my thumbnails and titles different—why don't they attract anyone? What makes my content different—why doesn't it draw people in? It’s all so confusing, and it makes me so angry I want to cry. I literally don't see a difference between me and other people's content, except that they get views and likes and I don't. And it feels awful to be envious. I hate myself for it. And I hate myself because there are actual things worth worrying about, yet here I am, stressing over views on videos about some stupid game. I got my hopes up way too high that this would work out. That’s a bad trait of mine—getting my hopes up, then quickly becoming disillusioned when my expectations aren't met right away. Pouring all my energy into the one thing that brings joy to my drab life, hoping for a response, only to regret it all at the first sign of failure.

I don't know what to do, and that makes me furious too. Should I stop putting so much effort into the videos? Should I just make compilations of ranked matches with no commentary—since that seems to be the only thing attracting viewers these days, or am I getting that wrong? What am I supposed to do?! WHAT?

1 month ago | [YT] | 2

WonderBee

Gen thinking about to turn this channel into a diary, where I rant (cry) about everything that even slightly makes me angry or jealous... It will be my Twitter 💔

1 month ago | [YT] | 0

WonderBee

One week of blood, sweat and tears in Rank for this... I don't want knight accessory, I want a Worker Bee FRAME! GIVE ME A FRAME PLS!
My disappointment is immeasurable and my day is ruined...

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1 month ago | [YT] | 1

WonderBee

The new Identity V video *I'll never learn how to play Hunter, will I? | Fool's Gold Gameplay* is finally out!

Getting back to editing was a bit of a struggle—mostly because I’d been procrastinating for ages and was feeling a little nervous. I tend to get anxious about everything and nothing, really.

Anyway, this post is also about some random thoughts and updates.

🐝 With the new video about Fool's Gold, I decided to stop recording Quick Matches with him and move on to something more exciting... like Ranked matches. Playing against Elks just feels wrong at this point. It’s not that I’m some unstoppable Hydra, but low-tier players aren't really a challenge for me anymore, and the matches start to feel like bullying.

My biggest enemy all this time was Hunter anxiety—it kept holding me back. But I’ve been playing Ranked daily for four days now, and the fear of playing this faction has really started to fade.

If everything goes to plan, the ranked matches video should be out on Monday. It’ll feature a slightly different format.

🐝 I really wanted to make videos about other games, but since April, I’ve been overcome by a deep sense of gloom and total exhaustion. I tried getting back into Genshin Impact, but I couldn't find any inspiration or desire to play it, let alone make videos about it. I didn't want to do anything at all: no anime, no movies, not reading books or manga, not going for walks, and not playing games—except for finishing Little Nightmares. I only had the energy for work and studies.

I eventually forced myself to make the Identity V video because it’s the only game that’s brought me any real joy lately (I loved Little Nightmares too, but that playthrough is ending soon, and I have no plans for other games right now). Once I actually sat down to edit, though, I more or less regained the energy and desire to keep making videos.

🐝 Still, I hope to start playing other games with you all someday. I don’t want to make videos exclusively about Identity V; I don’t want to stay in one niche. I want to broaden my horizons, explore new ideas, gain fresh experiences, and meet more people.

A new game called Sea of ​​Remnants—also from Joker Studio—is coming out soon, and I really like its visuals. Admittedly, the combat is similar to HSR (from what I gather), which isn't really my cup of tea. But hey, I should give it a try. Who knows, I might change my mind.

I kinda also wanted to see what's Dandy's World is all about. But I didn't know it was on Roblox, and I never played on Roblox before...

🐝 By the way, I also have a small idea for a video—or maybe two?—about Little Nightmares that won't just be a standard playthrough. I’m not sure yet exactly how to go about it, but it shouldn't be too difficult. But I don't want to say that they for sure will come out, too.

🐝 Overall, I’m aiming to establish a more or less consistent upload schedule. Maybe Mondays will be for my weekly ranked matches; Tuesdays and Fridays for (mainly horror) game playthroughs; Wednesdays for Quick Matches with characters I’m currently learning to play (speaking of which... oh god, I’ve lost all my skill with the Meteorologist, and I’m totally bummed out about it); and Saturdays could also feature another Identity V video. I’m not sure yet what to release on Thursdays and Saturdays—perhaps formats that won't appear as frequently. I have plenty of ideas, but I’m still figuring out exactly how to execute them!

🐝I also made a TikTok account! And it has... ONE VIDEO ALREADY, SO EXCITING! 🥳 (An absolutely genuine reaction. Not an act at all, yes-yes.)
https://www.tiktok.com/@lil.bee.works

🐝 Look at this GREEN Fool's Gold! With flowers on his head... And he gives you one! So cute!

1 month ago (edited) | [YT] | 6

WonderBee

Hello everyone! And welcome to my very first post. It’s a shame that it won’t be a very cheerful one. I will also ramble a lot.

I just wanted to give you all a heads-up, if NetEase doesn't resolve this current AI issue, I’ll probably stop posting content related to IDV. I want to repeat this again because YOU—the people currently subscribed to me AND others who will likely be subscribing to this channel in the future—may be expecting something from me that I will no longer be able to provide for you.

I don't know if you watched my AI video after subscribing (or will watch it), but I did discuss this very topic over there too. I mentioned that, even if AI issue is not resolved, I might still try to reach the peak tier with Fool's Gold or perhaps continue making videos about the Meteorologist—since she seems to be the fan favorite on my channel, and I happen to like her quite a bit myself. However, about a week has passed since then, and I now find myself in an even more disheartened state.

As I mentioned in the video, I actually started making videos quite a while ago—back in January—though I only recently began uploading them to YouTube, at the beginning of April. All the Identity V videos scheduled for release before May 16th (since I typically space out my uploads every three to four days) were recorded and edited BEFORE the AI ​​controversy really started to gain momentum. Since April 10th, I’ve barely been able to bring myself to log into the game (I only played twice this past week, and only to play with a friend); consequently, I haven't recorded or edited ANY videos dedicated to IDV since that date.

I still intend to release these videos that I made before April 10th, however, simply because I’ve already invested so much time and effort into creating them. And I am proud of my work, but it is sad that it was dedicated to this game, from this big greedy company, that doesn't really appreciate that—actual work and dedication to creation.

So, once again: if you’ve subscribed to my channel recently, I want to apologize now and in advance in case there are no further videos about this game after mid-May. Unfortunately, however, the blame for all of this will have to lie with NetEase—specifically, their unwillingness to support their artists and their apparent lack of concern for the future of the planet.

If things take a turn for the better—and I truly hope they do—I will return to making videos about IDV with renewed passion. But if not, I hope you’ll stick around; though, at the same time, it is absolutely fine if you decide to unsubscribe. After all, you barely know me, and right now there are only about seven to nine videos on my channel. I have a few vague ideas about what I’d like to film next, but for the moment... everything remains hazy. I’m still feeling upset, and I have almost no energy left. It’s incredibly difficult right now to find and join a new fandom—one that I’d actually WANT to create videos about.

IDV has been a huge part of my life for the past almost two years. It was the primary space where I could hang out and connect with my friends (since meeting up in real life isn't an option for us, and there are various reasons why my friends are limited in the games they can play). I ended up spending a BIG fortune on it, too... And I loved the game so much that I decided to start making videos about it. I had so many plans; I spent so much time dreaming, and so vividly: about finally being able to show people what I’m capable of creating, about meeting a whole bunch of new people, and about bringing people joy. But the moment I actually started, everything came crashing down. It’s incredibly disheartening.

Nevertheless, I do want to record some gameplay of Silent Hill F, though it will be my third playthrough. I’m aiming to reach the "The Fox Wets Its Tail" ending this time around. And then, on the game's anniversary, I could do my very first stream (if I have enough subscribers by then, of course) and finally reach the true ending.

I was also thinking maybe I’ll go back to Genshin Impact... Though, truth be told, I haven't played it in three years... I'm scared to see what has happened there since I left... I didn't really check that much...

Apologies for the long post. But thank you if you made it all the way to the end. If you have any thoughts or suggestions regarding the kind of content you’d like to see—if you have any advice on which fandom to join or which game to play—PLEASE, I’M BEGGING YOU: LET ME KNOW!

3 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 3