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THE LATEST DROPS ON PATREON 🩷

Full-length versions + 90+ subliminals are waiting there now:

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How many subliminals is TOO MANY? Three audios? Forty-seven? Are you “diluting your focus” every time you change your playlist, or are you now legally required to listen to the same track until retirement?

There is no useful universal number because the real question is not how many subliminals are in your playlist. It is what identity shift are you actually trying to make? I usually recommend getting very clear on what you want first and staying with ONE main theme for a while, simply because that alone is harder than people think. Actually observing yourself, noticing your reactions, documenting patterns, reflecting on what keeps coming up and staying with the same intention long enough to learn something from it is very different from redesigning your entire life every Tuesday because a new playlist looked exciting.

That does not mean you need to torture yourself with one audio until hearing the first three seconds makes you irrationally angry. If several subliminals approach the same core theme from different angles, I actually think that can be useful. The affirmations do not all have to be identical. One might work on financial self-concept, another on visibility, another on receiving larger amounts, another on discipline. Same destination, different doors.

And this is where identity work gets more interesting than “three subliminals good, forty-seven subliminals bad.” Sometimes one assumption changes ridiculously fast because the old belief was already hanging on by a thread. Maybe you have been questioning that part of your life for months. Maybe the old way of living already feels absurd to you. Maybe you genuinely want something different and all you needed was one final little shove before your brain went, oh. Wait. Obviously. That is the lovely falling-dominoes, scales-from-the-eyes moment everyone wants.

Other shifts have more roots attached to them. Say you want to consistently make a certain amount of money every month. Cute. Now suddenly we discover that this is not only about “I make X amount.” Your pricing comes up. Your sense of value comes up. Your willingness to be visible comes up. Your discipline comes up. Your ability to actually finish things comes up. Maybe your relationship with being judged comes barging through the door despite nobody inviting her. One intention can hit several assumptions because identities are annoyingly interconnected like that.

That does not mean: “I found five blocks, therefore I need six additional months and seventeen emergency subliminals.” Please do not turn your subconscious into a spreadsheet. It simply means that when something surfaces, you work with what is actually there. Pull the weed that is interfering with the thing you are trying to grow instead of obsessively counting how many weeds theoretically exist in the entire garden!

So whether three audios or forty-seven makes sense depends less on the number and more on whether they are helping you move deeper into a clear identity or just giving you forty-seven different things to mentally chase. If you know what you are becoming, the playlist can support the shift. If you have no idea what you are becoming, adding another twenty subliminals is probably just giving the confusion funky background music.

2 days ago | [YT] | 42

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This week’s Patreon drops 🖤

The transformation continues seamlessly, and new subliminals are now dropping on Patreon. Here’s a little preview of what went up this week! 🪄🦋

I also simplified the memberships a little this week ✨🗝️

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5 days ago (edited) | [YT] | 88

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I got a comment today that made me realize I probably need to clarify what I actually mean when I talk about not letting the 3D define you, because somehow that idea has apparently become “ignore reality, ignore danger, ignore bills, ignore contracts, ignore obvious red flags, ignore everything that contradicts you and just affirm harder.” And I genuinely do not know where that interpretation comes from. I do not know what other creators teach around this subject, maybe people hear one sentence and turn it into spiritual escapism, or maybe common sense is simply not as common as the name suggests. But your current reality existing does not mean you have to mentally surrender to it, and it also does not mean you should pretend it is NOT there.

If the traffic light is red, I am not walking into traffic while affirming that red means green for me. If a €10,000 bill arrives, I am not throwing it away because “I live in abundance.” And if someone consistently treats you like garbage, you do not have to remain there indefinitely affirming that they are secretly wonderful. At some point, that is not persistence. That is just denying something that is very clearly happening, and it might be worth checking that with a professional.

The distinction is actually pretty simple: circumstances can tell you what is happening right now, but they do not get the final word on what that means about you or what becomes possible next. A bill can exist without becoming “I am broke.” Rejection can happen without becoming “I am unwanted.” A business idea can fail without becoming “I am incapable of making money.” Someone else can think you are delusional, unattractive, too much, not enough, or whatever else they want to think, and their perception STILL does not automatically become your identity. You are the final point of interpretation. If every outside event immediately sends you into panic, doubt, overthinking, and questioning everything you believed about yourself five minutes ago, then your sense of self is still being handed over to your circumstances, and that is your dominant state anyway.

But identity work also cannot stop at thinking different thoughts. Eventually, the way you see yourself has to influence the way you move through your actual life. If you keep affirming that you are an incredibly valuable woman while staying with some loser who expects you to finance him, change how you dress, cook, clean, shrink yourself, and accept treatment you supposedly no longer identify with, the contradiction is not that he has proven your self concept wrong. It is that your choices are still supporting the old one. If you want $1,000 days while relying exclusively on a $15-an-hour job, that job is not morally bad, but it is probably not the mechanism that creates the income level you say is normal for you. So you find, build, or create another mechanism. If you want a strong, healthy, fit body while consistently treating your body in ways that move you in the opposite direction, another thousand repetitions are not a substitute for eventually living from that identity.

That is where the external world actually becomes useful. It gives you feedback. It shows you where something already matches your standards and where it does not. And when something does not match, the conclusion does not have to be “well, apparently everything I believe about myself is wrong.” The much more useful question is: why am I still choosing this, what is this choice reinforcing, and on a higher level, what am I actually trying to achieve by doing what I am doing? Because understanding what your choices are really serving is part of understanding yourself.

From there, you can actually work with reality instead of either obeying it blindly or pretending it is invisible. If something works, great. If it does not, change the strategy. If one route does not take you where you are going, take another one. This is not failure and does not require an identity crisis. Abundance comes with change, more options, and moving your ass and your mind. Persistence means remaining loyal to your own self concept and to the results you believe are available to you. Your circumstances are information, not authority.

And if one red light makes you forget the entire destination, the problem was never the red light.

6 days ago | [YT] | 438

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A little update for all of you because the last few days have forced me to rethink quite a few things.

I created and submitted my appeal video. It was rejected in less than 24 hours. I am sure YouTube has a fascinating internal system for reviewing these things, but from what I can see, the video does not even appear to have been opened. So yes, this channel will remain demonetized for now.

On top of that, my already earned July revenue was removed from my payout. July was completed, the revenue had already been generated, ads had already been shown on my videos, and the monetization decision itself did not happen until August. Yet here we are.

Now, I know there are contracts and terms we all agree to when we use these platforms. I understand that. But imagine working an entire month and then, right before payday, your boss tells you, “Actually, you know what, I changed my mind, I keep that.” No real person to speak to, no proper explanation, just a system telling you the decision has been made.

And this is where I had to rethink my relationship with YouTube.

I do not want to keep providing an endless library of my work for a platform that can continue placing ads before, during and after my videos while deciding that I no longer get to participate in the revenue those videos generate. A video still has to be created before there is anywhere to place an ad.

So over time, I will begin removing more of my subliminals from YouTube.

Not because I want to interrupt anyone’s transformation here. That is the last thing I want. Some of the big favorites will stay here for now, and I will continue posting. But YouTube is no longer going to be the place where my entire library lives for free while the platform continues to profit from it.

From now on, this channel will become more of a preview into what I am creating. Shorter subliminals, snippets, previews, and little windows into what is waiting for you on Patreon. The full lengths, the larger audios, the more specific themes and the majority of my creative energy are moving there.

And what exactly is happening on Patreon?

Honestly, I currently feel like a tractor on a giant field with way too many ideas to collect. I have spent the last few days producing and producing, exporting, uploading, organizing and moving things over to build a new foundation there. Everything I make is still created and put together manually, so it simply takes time, but it is growing every day.

There are currently six membership spaces:

ALL MINE ACCESS

OBSESSED WITH ME

EVERYTHING PAYS ME

LOVE ME CORRECTLY

OFF LIMITS

GODDESS STATE OF MIND

ALL MINE ACCESS is essentially the continuation and expansion of what you already know from this channel. Subliminals with music, brown noise, nature sounds, and combinations of them, with the collection continuously growing.

The other spaces focus more specifically on their individual themes and allow me to create things that are more focused, more specific and simply not made for a completely public platform.

Everything on Patreon will be behind a paywall and for adults only.

And strangely enough, I actually like that.

Because one thing I have wondered throughout all of this is whether having every single thing completely public also brought my work in front of people who had absolutely no context for subconscious reprogramming, identity work or manifestation. Someone desperate sees an intense title, has no idea what the content actually is, expects a miracle in five minutes, feels uncomfortable, reports it, and suddenly the person who spent hours creating it is the problem.

I obviously cannot prove that this is what happened. It is simply a feeling I have had for a while now. (I also do not even want to get started on some of the truly extreme content that continues to exist on YouTube while this is happening. At this point, a lot of it simply does not make sense to me anymore.)

But moving forward, I actually want a space filled with people who deliberately chose to be there because they are choosing themselves and giving themselves a real chance to transform, while taking full responsibility for their own journey.

ANTI algorithm. ANTI AI. A lot more intentional and much more ours.

So, the doors are officially open! 🖤

And if you have been here for a while, listened to my work, supported this channel, left kind comments, shared your results or simply understood what I have been trying to create here, thank you so so much!!

This next chapter is for us 🗝️𖦹🪞

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1 week ago | [YT] | 76

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We literally just celebrated this channel’s birthday and YouTube apparently decided I deserved a special surprise gift: demonetization. 🎂💀 Yea, baby. No warning, no, strikes, no heads up, not even an email to my business account. Just “unsatisfying or off putting content.”

The timing is almost too perfect because for the past few weeks I had already been thinking that I wanted to take all of this to the next level somehow. That is exactly why I had just opened the new membership levels. I had already started producing new subliminals for them and wanted to build everything properly BEFORE announcing it to y’all. At the same time I had also started looking into Patreon because there are topics I have always had to water down here, or simply knew better than to touch at all.

I have no idea what exactly triggered this because the claim I received is vague enough to mean almost anything. One of my suspicions is the wording, the PROMISES they think I make with certain videos, or things they might even interpret as emotionally manipulative. If the message is “be confident” or “be magnetic,” everything is still cute. If it becomes “know that you are a goddess, understand your real power,” things apparently start getting dangerous. And then we have the whole specific person universe. Make him yearn, make him choose you, make him obsessed, make him treat you properly... apparently that is where we enter forbidden territory. And you know exactly which reactions from whom I mean.
What makes this especially funny is that those are some of the videos YOU have supported the most. The clicks, comments, messages and repeat listeners made that very obvious. You wanted more. And I was the one creating with the handbrake on because I already knew how easily certain wording, desires or topics could be interpreted in whatever way an automated system feels like interpreting them that day. You like it. The algorithm and sponsors apparently do not.

The other possibility is that the videos themselves simply look too repetitive. And yes, visually there is not exactly a Marvel movie happening because the entire point is the AUDIO. The end product looks easy. Thumbnail. Particle overlay. Music, nature sounds or brown noise. Me whispering somewhere in the background. Maybe to an AI agent that looks like mass production. (Which is kind of funny when you think about AI judging something for being repetitive when repetition is basically its favorite hobby.) What it does NOT SEE are the hundreds and hundreds of Word pages of affirmations I have written, my recording sessions with my microphone, Audacity projects, layering vocals, adding frequencies, mixing everything, exporting the audio forever, building visuals in DaVinci Resolve, rendering for another forever, combining everything and uploading huge files while my sweet little laptop fights for its life in the heat. 💻🔥

YouTube has now given me until September 7 to submit a video appeal where I have to show my production process and prove how I create my own content. So now I get to make a video explaining how I make the videos. Very meta and efficient. And not to sound like Negative Nelly, but after all of this I am not exactly filled with blind faith that context, intention and the actual amount of creative work behind these audios will suddenly become the thing that matters in the review process when everything is once again filtered through an adjusted AI framework. Typical soulless behaviour.

So I got the notification today and I have already been sitting down with Patreon, collecting the bangers and your favorites so your transformation processes can keep going. The good part is that I can upload the AUDIO there directly, which is so ridiculously much faster. Thank goddess! 👑 That means I can spend more time on new themes, go deeper, stop constantly censoring my own wording and experiment with other formats too. I also want to move the membership concept over there, including the new levels I had just created here and one SPECIAL CATEGORY I have been thinking about for a while.

I am already uploading and rebuilding things there now, but I am still working out the exact structure so I do not want to throw random promises at you tonight and then change everything again tomorrow. I will give you a proper breakdown very soon of how the Patreon will be structured, what each membership will include, what kind of content will live there and how I want the whole thing to work going forward.

I am also still deciding exactly how I will continue on YouTube. I am not disappearing, but if the platform no longer financially supports the work, I may have to change how much time and energy I put into uploading here.

And to everyone who had already joined one of my YouTube memberships, I am especially sorry!! 🤍 I currently have no access to the membership area here at all. It was disabled together with the monetization, including the new levels I had literally just started building. I did not remove anything myself and I did not get a warning that this was about to happen. Your membership payments have been paused, and I will only regain access if this entire process actually ends positively for the channel and this community.

For now, just know that I am not making the work smaller because an AI system suddenly decided it has opinions.

Quite the opposite. 💋🖤🔥

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