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OnehandBombsGaming

I used to ask myself these questions my entire life, who am I? Why am I here? What is my identity? For so long I was lost. My flesh and the worldly mindset was convinced, this is my life. Wake up, doing the same things everyday, just to go to sleep at whatever time because I was physically and mentally exhausted, combined with spiritual depletion. The only good thing I was doing, was breathing.

My life was going in circles.. Job after job.. Couldn’t keep one because I was rebellious and just didn't care and did whatever I wanted to do.. Fully loaded on drugs for nearly 20 years.. Dealing with chronic pains from my injuries from the motorcycle accident I was in Aug 2005, resulting in heavy use of narcotics and every other type of drugs. In and out of jail, dealing with years of probation. Rehabs.

The lessons and consequences I suffered through, was because of my own actions. But owning them was a different story. Denial, selfishness. Darkness consumed my life and I didnt know how to get out of it.

Growing up in Pinellas Park, I didn't have a bad childhood. I played sports. I did well in school, until I started smoking weed with my best friend Will at 15 years old. I decided to get stoned every morning before school, then dropped out in 10th grade. Here's where the “going in circles” lifestyle begins.

Drugs, Sex, and rock and roll, strip clubs, partying with more drugs sex and rock and roll, was the way I lived. Centered in defeat. I felt Beaten up daily by the world. For so long, nothing really mattered.

One thing I've learned is that the bumps, bruises, wrong turns I took, and the scars I now have, would all be worth it. All the Hardships that I've created for myself and went through, would ultimately bear fruit and build character, which produces hope in Christ today.

Fast forwarding. At 19 years old, my first child Haleigh was born. I was a senior in high school and about to graduate.
But in order to make sure my daughter had what she needed, to support this new and much different life of parenthood, which I was in no way ready for, I left school and dropped out for the 2nd time, and got a full time job at Dayton Andrews Dodge. Started detailing, then quickly transferred into the body shop, repairing cars, and due to my experience in high school body shop class, I was good at what I did. I also suffered with egotism and pride, living in denial about everything.

Having Job after job Until I started working at Modern Tool and Die, working on 50,000 ton metal stamping presses, at 22 years old. I began building a 1980 Kawasaki KZ 750 from the ground up. Spent a total of 4 months to finish. It was beautiful, and completely custom.

After working there just over a year, On August 22nd 2005 (which is my mom's birthday, hair birthday mom), I was staying next door to her house. She asked if I wanted a ride to work that morning. We worked at the same company, at the same time. I told her no, that I was going to ride my motorcycle and that I would see her there. I wished her a happy birthday as she was leaving. Fired up the bike, and then I left.

As I was crossing through the intersection at 54th Ave North & 71st street, a car ran a red light, turning in front of me. I hit the car head on at about 70mph.

Totally unconscious and dying, then dead. I don't remember anything. I Lost more than 5 pints of blood in my body. EMT’s bayflighted me to Bayfront hospital, I woke up 2 days later, where I spent the next 3 months.

In the accident, my right knee cap was ripped off by the headlight of the car, which is now plastic. I couldn't walk for almost 2 years. And from slamming to the ground unconsciously, after flying like a rag doll through the air for 100ft, I landed on my right shoulder and slid another hundred feet across the concrete, which tore my brachial plexus nerve and caused other damages in my right arm and hand. I was born right handed.

My Life had dramatically changed, in an instant. I became different from everything that I knew. Lived every day with a major anger problem, hating everything and everyone, even myself. Just lived Completely miserable. Ever fake it till you make it? Yep, that was me.

A couple years after the wreck, I began walking, chronic pain started, my drug intake increased and then pain management happened. The doctor flooded me with narcotics and off to the races I went, even further. My substance abuse took off and only got worse and worse.

There it was, from one tragic wreck to another. Next thing I know, I’m a full blown junkie, In and out of jail and hospitals and death was coming, quickly.

I didn’t realize it then but I was living a life of darkness, hell on earth, and was in complete denial of it. I put myself in that position. Still without a care, full of the darkside after many years of living like this and feeling very different from my disability. I isolated!

About 12 years ago, I surrendered and accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and savior. I was baptized for the first time. I got completely sober from drugs and My life was finally turning around. Going to church regularly, na meetings sometimes, everything was going well, until I relapsed. In fact, I got complacent. Taking my own control back. Pride and ego resurfaced again, then I picked back up the drugs years later..

Picking up right where I left off. Shootin dope. Stealing. Robbing. Manipulating everything around me just to get more. Living completely sideways and lost for 5 years.. Disconnected from God and separated from anything good or praiseworthy…

Although I accepted Jesus Christ, I stopped seeking after him. I became a criminal, a junkie and a drug dealer. Schemed to get whatever I needed to put things into my veins. My mind and heart had been clouded with pure darkness. Complete Insanity along with denial.

It was 5:30 in the morning on February 16th, 2019. Everything that I had experienced, the good and the bad, led me up to this very pivotal moment. The turning point. Waking up after a 5 day awake binge, I walked out of the shed I was living in beside an abandoned house.

There were only 2 choices I had, either I was going to physically die from active addiction, or I would choose to live for Jesus. I said out loud, “God, I can’t do this anymore, I don’t want to live this way any longer. Either I'm going to live for you, or I'm going to die” At that moment, I fully surrendered my life over to Jesus Christ.

Confessing with my mouth that Jesus is Lord and believing in my heart that God raised him from the dead. Believing every promise of God, and that he would resurrect my dead life, and give restoration to my soul and redeem me.

God is So Good. I thank him daily for the life he has given me. I thank him for his grace and having mercy on me.
By surrendering my life, choosing to lay it down so that Jesus can lift it up. He has forgiven me of my sins and all unrighteousness. Today, I am able to live for Him.

It took me nearly dying from the accident, doing massive amounts of drugs, in and out of bad relationships, to being homeless and having absolutely nothing, in order to get a full and humble surrender out of me. God has a purpose for my life.

Today, I stand before you, a new creation in Christ. 2 Corinthians 5:17 , Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.

Nothing that happened in my past was by accident, nor does it define who I am today. It was for a purpose and it brought me to my knees, to glorify Jesus.



Jesus came to save the sinners like me. Though I may fall short everyday to the Glory of God, I’m so thankful and grateful for everything that God has and will continue to deliver me from.

Currently, I am working full time in ministry. I am the Out-Reach and associate pastor here at House of Hope. I work one on one with others, helping, guiding, and leading them to know Jesus.

I’ve learned that my number one purpose in this life is to be a fisher of men, and to make disciples, to work with others, even if they are in the same situation that I used to be in, through love and patience, and to share the Good News about the Light of the world, Jesus Christ.

Romans 12:2 says, “Do not conform to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is. His good, pleasing and perfect will.”


As we come to know Him, by seeking Him, fasting and praying, cleansing ourselves with the Word of God, our hearts and minds will be renewed in accordance with the knowledge of Him.

Ephesians 2:10 says “For we’re God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

This is my testimony.

From death to life.

His grace rewrote my story.

God bless you.

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