Vicky Boss

If I started a podcast, would you want me to post it on my main account or a separate channel?

1 week ago | [YT] | 1,055

Vicky Boss

I started writing a book about living with chronic illness and one of the chapters is just a poem

Soooooo I thought I’d give you guys a little sneak peak 🥹

The chapter is called:
I miss
(Read this while listening to sad music)

I miss the freedom of feeling the wind on a run.
I miss the days of carefree fun.
I miss that sun-kissed girl from the past.
I wish her energy had been granted to last.

I miss my full potential -
this part of me I’ll never know.
I miss the days before sickness
had dimmed my glow.

I miss when frustration was rare.
I miss when I didn’t have a care.
I miss not noticing my body at all.
I miss when the worst pain was an unlucky fall.

I miss falling asleep after playing all day.
I miss not sleeping my life away.
I miss when slumber meant dreaming, discovering new worlds.
Not anesthesia darkening my vision to the sound of doctors' words.

"Count to ten" suddenly wasn’t a game
I miss when medical bills didn’t cloud my brain
"Sign here" I’m told, as I read about death
A risk I’m expected to gratefully accept

One surgery, two, three… or was it six?
There’s nothing incisions and a cannula can’t fix
I miss not being prodded and poked
I miss not having to fight for hope

Be graceful with your pain,
don’t suffer too loud
Why didn’t you tell us?
Your silence makes us proud

I miss not observing the fading of my scars
All over my body, like constellations of stars
I miss not fearing the warmth of a hug
The risk of pain challenging the comfort of being snug

I miss feeling the wind in my hair
I chase the feeling through windows, my new source of fresh air
"Go outside, go for a run!"
How I wish I could spend my days in the sun

When I’m no longer tired from being alive
I will live and not simply survive
Until then, I’ll fondly hold onto this wish
Of a life where I no longer say “I miss"


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This is a bit darker than my usual videos, but I hope you enjoy it anyway!💜
I’ve been writing since I was 10/11ish, but I haven’t written any poetry in years 👉👈

1 week ago | [YT] | 3,266

Vicky Boss

We went to a wedding 🥹💜

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1 week ago | [YT] | 18,946

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I am truly beyond speechless. 😭 I woke up this morning to see that we’re over the 90% mark and have almost reached the full goal!🥺💜

There have been so many challenges along my health journey.
Two months ago, I was so scared and so uncertain about my future. It really, really sucked.
My insurance didn’t want to pay for anything, my health was getting worse and I didn’t know what to do. It felt so hopeless.

Then you guys suggested a GoFundMe. And here we are today. 🥹💜
I’m healing from my second surgery, I have so much more energy and almost half of my body is lipedema-free! YIPPIE!

This means so much to me. I’m grateful for every one of you. 💜💜💜💜

1 week ago | [YT] | 9,842

Vicky Boss

So about that cosplay question 👀👀👀

AHHHHHHHHHHHH (stay tuned for more)

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3 weeks ago | [YT] | 10,095

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We’re back homeeee💜

1 month ago | [YT] | 19,893

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I’m back from surgery 2/6💜

1 month ago | [YT] | 20,839

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I accidentally made a long video:

https://youtu.be/_S5U0hX99CM

(It was supposed to be a short) (pls watch it) (love u)

1 month ago | [YT] | 6,695

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My next surgery is two weeks!
I’m super scared but also so hopeful after yesterdays pre-OP consultation 🥹

For the next surgery, we’re removing the lipedema tissue that extended upwards from my legs to my stomach area.
It’s one of my most painful areas, it bruises easily and is extremely sensitive to any touch.
I can’t wait to be pain free there too!

I think it’s going to be the most sucky out of all surgeries though, healing wise. So wish me luck!💜

Also I was able to interview my surgeon yesterday! She wanted to help me with a long video I’m putting together for my first surgery that will be posted here on YouTube soon.
So you’ll get an expert with 15+ years surgery experience talking about the topic, rather than just always me. And she answered all questions I figured someone would have that knows little to nothing about the condition. ☺️💜

1 month ago | [YT] | 15,840

Vicky Boss

85% of the total goal is absolutely insane and although it’s been over two weeks now, I feel like my brain still can’t catch up with the fact that this is real. 💜

I’ve been helped more by you guys than systems designed to help like health insurance, which is both amazing and sad at the same.

I love you all so much!!💜💜💜

In other news, I got a new diagnosis, endometriosis.
At this point I’m considering to write a book about living with all the chronic illnesses seem to have gathered like infinity stones 🥲

1 month ago | [YT] | 12,604