thank you all for 700 subscribers, ily all like family and it means a lot that we were able to hit our goal of 700 subscribers. we are just 300 subscribers away until we hit 1,000 subscribers. my dream is to get monetized and also become a full time youtuber & animator, so please if you haven't already subscribe to the channel and share this channel if you guys didn't do so already, i promise I will start dropping regular content that is way better then what I provided weeks ago, and I look forward for this channel to hit 1,000 subscribers. i hope that this channel can continue growing. moving forward, this channel's branding will take a different turn so please be sure to stay tuned of what I got in store. it'll be something you guys want to stick around for long as you guys can.
other then making roblox animations, what else would you guys like to see from me? comment down below, or use this poll to vote your option and have a say in this poll system.
i don't have a proper introduction to this community post, so I'm just going to immediately cut to the chase. my mental health has been completely dehydrated & it has been the reason why everything about me has been different lately, especially with this channel, and I feel like it's best if I just open everything up rather then just keeping my emotions tucked to myself.
i took a short break off from making posts on this channel, mainly because I was at a point where I simply couldn't adjust to what I had to experience now, and it's also because of something I have mentioned quite a lot before, which most of you guys should know. that has also took a drastic toll on my mental health especially with this channel. growing up, my family wasn't supportive and caring towards me, and only showed equal respect towards my older siblings, and being the youngest from my family made it more worse towards my situations. during my childhood, i had experienced quite a lot of traumatic experiences mostly coming from my family. this was while I was around 5 all the way towards 12. when I first came to the internet, I never immediately jumped into venting. I started off as a dumb & annoying kid that had absolutely no idea what abuse or even venting was, until I started to later grow & develop. i won't explain what I was put through because this post isn't just to explain my trauma and how it affected me negatively as a person, and the point of this post is to explain my absence of uploading actual content and the reason why i've been extremely depressed is because my life is going downhill. i've been also quite dry with people recently because of my depression and the things I had to go through in my life. i have even considered distancing myself from the internet plenty of times in the process as well.
when I first made my channel, it was only because I wanted to show love to people that I never knew and eventually be friends with them a little after, and support their own work, and i did all of that out of my heart. i still do that today and I don't ever plan on stopping that, but during the early days of owning a channel, I had to switch to quite a few channels throughout 2022 to 2026, but now I'm here. this is where I am settled with today. originally I started to develop a small and caring community that would always have my back, comfort me when I was at my lowest, and I started to see my community as encouragements, or at least that's what I've thought of for a good while. I will admit, back then I haven't had my best moments, I would always constantly beg people to subscribe and support me without even making actual content, but now I've grew out of that and now being 14 years old, looking back at my moments were cringe. I would always act immature and annoying to people I talk with. I won't deny, I have been such an annoyance to many people. I am trying to get out of that phase in hopes of changing myself for the better, and it is still something that I'm currently doing as of right now. while I had my own moments, a lot of people still chose to support me, and have my back. even if the support was extremely small, I still chose to use all of the support that I got to improve and try boosting myself as a better person. whenever people were always showing support and love even when they've seen me at my lowest, I would always try to show appreciation and love back to that person because it is common decency and is something that I love to do even if my mental health is at a low. unfortunately, all of that happened 2-3 years ago and right now, it hasn't been the same, i'd be treated differently by people, my community isn't what they were once as, and everyone just seemed to change for the worst part most of the time.
the reason why I've always cried out of pain is because I began to experience more trauma throughout my life, the abuse I had to be put through got increasingly worse, and whenever I always try to let out my emotions, I would be made fun of, threatened, jumped on, and worst of all, manipulated. i had to put up with many people making fake supportive comments about my mental hospital situation and it didn't come off as genuine. many people who decided to "help" with my mental hospital situation only shed in windowed positivity, or in other words, decided to act all sympathetic & emotional about my situation only to just randomly go against me and make accusations & "speculations" that were later tampered as "proof". that's why I've always been crying out of pain. that's why I became a different person. my trauma was used for attention, money / profit, and other purposes that were just acted out of malice intent. to this day, i'm still left questioning, am I even dead or alive to this world?
there's one thing I know for certain, and it's that I'm not a perfect person either. just because I had to live throughout the trauma and be put up with abuse doesn't excuse or make me look 100% perfect or innocent. i'm not a god to anyone, i'm not innocent, and I'm not a person that created a religion. i'm a human being that messes up in their life and eventually tries to look back at their mistakes and use those mistakes to do better and fix them. a lot of people know what I was in the past. I was a bad seed to some people, and for that I apologize. i'm not what people wanted me to be. despite the things I had to be put through, i'm not what I promised myself to be. moving forward, I want everyone that's reading this post to understand that this post is just a note that I'm improving myself for the better, and also try to change my ways. this post is not me trying to "victimize" myself in any shape, way or form, nor this post is me trying to "drag" or bring anything just to add on fuel to the fire, I understand your pain, I understand how you feel, what you think about me for now, that's fine. I just hope everyone understands that I'm trying to become a better person, and I'm not better yet, but I am working on to becoming a better person.
i know I agreed on my post to not mention anything about this drama or situation, but this has to be addressed because some of y'all are taking this situation too far by making fabricating messages of me saying some really awful things, and I feel like this is absolutely important for me to address so I can fully clear my name out of this draining situation so I can put this to rest. Autumn or AutumnOSC framed me by using a screenshot that was easily fabricated was also taken out of context to try and throw me under the bus and ruin my reputation more, in other words he tried to make me look like I "admitted into saying such threats" when that clearly wasn't anywhere near what I said, I will admit my wording is very poor as english isn't my first language but to stoop this low by fabricating my messages is DISGUSTING. the first screenshot shows the real conversation between me and Artsy (she did not give consent or tell Autumn it was ok to use this screenshot for a false narrative but still chose to screenshot the message despite it being easily fabricated) and the second screenshot shows the fake message obviously. i'm just going to say this right now I'm not going to bother make another video about this, but I will say, this video is just another attempt at defaming me, and painted with lies, making false accusations of me "lying about having allegations" despite not having concrete or physical evidence of me "lying" and on top of that it is pathetic and immature that you profit off from videos that involve someone being exposed, especially making profit off from two videos that are just slander, interjection, misinformation, "speculations" and a bunch of other things that is clearly making both "expose" videos flawed. if you're going to "call me out" do research before jumping the gun on me. "making a response on this video won't work" and making a response towards this community post won't work either but make you look more pathetic and stupid. on top of that, didn't you admit to having connections with the UTTP? how does that make you look any better while you admitted to having associations with a cult that terrorizes children on the internet? why are you trying to expose things that you would later go on and do?.. this entire idea of "exposing" me is pointless, the only reason why this entire situation is happening is because you saw me getting hundreds of supporters showing love to someone that decided to speak out against a mental hospital that abused a 14 year old.. it shows that you're more of the "dragger" then me. you're defending a friend group that you KNOW very well made those rumors about me, yet you shift ALL THE BLAME directly towards me.. how pathetic. this will be the final time I mention or address everything that is related to the situation. i want to let everyone know that immediately after this post will this drama be put to rest. it has drained my mental health a lot and I have better things to deal in my life then pointless internet drama. on top of that this friend group has even made fake positive and supportive comments about my situation too and only shed in windowed positivity to try and make me believe that they were actually supporting me when in truth they never supported me in the first place. take this information however you want, but I'm just listing the facts. no I'm not innocent in anyway too and I don't want anyone to think I'm a perfect person because I'm not and I will admit I have made flaws during this situation but I took account to those mistakes, however this friend group cannot do the same thing and be mature enough to accept responsibility because they want me to "accept a person that has their own beliefs" your "beliefs" have nothing to do with this situation btw. but all in all I am sorry for not being able to handle this situation maturely but I did everything I could in my own power to stop this situation from escalating but my efforts and attempts did nothing at all. remember to take everything into consideration and not immediately invalidate the person's points. also I do want to advise everyone that you should read this post before forming your own conclusions.
i'm going to reiterate myself a lot of you guys are getting my words twisted, this will be the final time I publicly talk about this friend group. i have enough of being constantly mistreated, thrown under the bus, framed and constantly silenced by people who are ignorant enough to play dumb and shift the blame towards me. this "counter response" this friend group I had to deal with in the past is making me look more bad and is another attempt to defame me based on "speculations". please read this document as I go through the ENTIRE situation, and debunk everything that's been said about me. and please don't forget to read the segments as well before casting final judgement or coming to your own conclusions. and always remember there's two sides to a story but there will always be one truth and one lie. doesn't matter if this friend group cares enough to "make a response back" they are already making themselves look more bad anyway. (the document link is no longer clickable so I will be leaving down a comment where you can view the comment that way instead) https://docs.google.com/document/d/18kyj5zoTLV_wquFMH3W872uA2HFIKpZ3KJnl6YMlQF4/edit?usp=sharing
please do not harass, attack or even go after anyone that's mentioned in this document. this document was only made to criticize their behavior, not to "make anyone look bad" or do anything else harmful. have an amazing day and as always take care! when the link does become clickable it will turn blue so make sure you keep an eye on that.
i usually don't post stuff like this into my community post's feed, but if anyone wants my asset or wants to make fan-art, use it for something like intros, outros, shows, or any of that other sort of kind my asset can be found in this post. also this goes out to ‪@GanimatorMOD‬ since he's making a intro, so if you want the asset, here it is. this is for everyone here that wants to know what my asset design looks like. this was made by yours truly my brotha in christ ‪@FloidToons5_5‬
i am not ready for school to come back at all, this summer "break" went by so fast now unfortunately I'm becoming a freshman. wish me luck because this school is going to be hell and it'll probably add more stress to the table but if anything happens I promise I'm gonna try to push forward for you guys and for me. just learned that school starts in august 10th for me sadly so I will be heavily inactive after this week due to school so uploads may come in a big delay, just a friendly reminder.
can anyone tell me how to fix this issue of my comments not showing up on anybody's comments section or posts? this isn't just happening to one person it's happening to everyone I comment even if my comment is just innocent, it makes no sense YouTube should rely AI heavily on moderation when they're a multi-billionaire company, but regardless if anyone has tips or explanations as to how I can fix this issue let me know down below.
zayhha
thank you all for 700 subscribers, ily all like family and it means a lot that we were able to hit our goal of 700 subscribers. we are just 300 subscribers away until we hit 1,000 subscribers. my dream is to get monetized and also become a full time youtuber & animator, so please if you haven't already subscribe to the channel and share this channel if you guys didn't do so already, i promise I will start dropping regular content that is way better then what I provided weeks ago, and I look forward for this channel to hit 1,000 subscribers. i hope that this channel can continue growing. moving forward, this channel's branding will take a different turn so please be sure to stay tuned of what I got in store. it'll be something you guys want to stick around for long as you guys can.
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other then making roblox animations, what else would you guys like to see from me? comment down below, or use this poll to vote your option and have a say in this poll system.
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i don't have a proper introduction to this community post, so I'm just going to immediately cut to the chase. my mental health has been completely dehydrated & it has been the reason why everything about me has been different lately, especially with this channel, and I feel like it's best if I just open everything up rather then just keeping my emotions tucked to myself.
i took a short break off from making posts on this channel, mainly because I was at a point where I simply couldn't adjust to what I had to experience now, and it's also because of something I have mentioned quite a lot before, which most of you guys should know. that has also took a drastic toll on my mental health especially with this channel. growing up, my family wasn't supportive and caring towards me, and only showed equal respect towards my older siblings, and being the youngest from my family made it more worse towards my situations. during my childhood, i had experienced quite a lot of traumatic experiences mostly coming from my family. this was while I was around 5 all the way towards 12. when I first came to the internet, I never immediately jumped into venting. I started off as a dumb & annoying kid that had absolutely no idea what abuse or even venting was, until I started to later grow & develop. i won't explain what I was put through because this post isn't just to explain my trauma and how it affected me negatively as a person, and the point of this post is to explain my absence of uploading actual content and the reason why i've been extremely depressed is because my life is going downhill. i've been also quite dry with people recently because of my depression and the things I had to go through in my life. i have even considered distancing myself from the internet plenty of times in the process as well.
when I first made my channel, it was only because I wanted to show love to people that I never knew and eventually be friends with them a little after, and support their own work, and i did all of that out of my heart. i still do that today and I don't ever plan on stopping that, but during the early days of owning a channel, I had to switch to quite a few channels throughout 2022 to 2026, but now I'm here. this is where I am settled with today. originally I started to develop a small and caring community that would always have my back, comfort me when I was at my lowest, and I started to see my community as encouragements, or at least that's what I've thought of for a good while. I will admit, back then I haven't had my best moments, I would always constantly beg people to subscribe and support me without even making actual content, but now I've grew out of that and now being 14 years old, looking back at my moments were cringe. I would always act immature and annoying to people I talk with. I won't deny, I have been such an annoyance to many people. I am trying to get out of that phase in hopes of changing myself for the better, and it is still something that I'm currently doing as of right now. while I had my own moments, a lot of people still chose to support me, and have my back. even if the support was extremely small, I still chose to use all of the support that I got to improve and try boosting myself as a better person. whenever people were always showing support and love even when they've seen me at my lowest, I would always try to show appreciation and love back to that person because it is common decency and is something that I love to do even if my mental health is at a low. unfortunately, all of that happened 2-3 years ago and right now, it hasn't been the same, i'd be treated differently by people, my community isn't what they were once as, and everyone just seemed to change for the worst part most of the time.
the reason why I've always cried out of pain is because I began to experience more trauma throughout my life, the abuse I had to be put through got increasingly worse, and whenever I always try to let out my emotions, I would be made fun of, threatened, jumped on, and worst of all, manipulated. i had to put up with many people making fake supportive comments about my mental hospital situation and it didn't come off as genuine. many people who decided to "help" with my mental hospital situation only shed in windowed positivity, or in other words, decided to act all sympathetic & emotional about my situation only to just randomly go against me and make accusations & "speculations" that were later tampered as "proof". that's why I've always been crying out of pain. that's why I became a different person. my trauma was used for attention, money / profit, and other purposes that were just acted out of malice intent. to this day, i'm still left questioning, am I even dead or alive to this world?
there's one thing I know for certain, and it's that I'm not a perfect person either. just because I had to live throughout the trauma and be put up with abuse doesn't excuse or make me look 100% perfect or innocent. i'm not a god to anyone, i'm not innocent, and I'm not a person that created a religion. i'm a human being that messes up in their life and eventually tries to look back at their mistakes and use those mistakes to do better and fix them. a lot of people know what I was in the past. I was a bad seed to some people, and for that I apologize. i'm not what people wanted me to be. despite the things I had to be put through, i'm not what I promised myself to be. moving forward, I want everyone that's reading this post to understand that this post is just a note that I'm improving myself for the better, and also try to change my ways. this post is not me trying to "victimize" myself in any shape, way or form, nor this post is me trying to "drag" or bring anything just to add on fuel to the fire, I understand your pain, I understand how you feel, what you think about me for now, that's fine. I just hope everyone understands that I'm trying to become a better person, and I'm not better yet, but I am working on to becoming a better person.
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i love you all as family don't forget that
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i know I agreed on my post to not mention anything about this drama or situation, but this has to be addressed because some of y'all are taking this situation too far by making fabricating messages of me saying some really awful things, and I feel like this is absolutely important for me to address so I can fully clear my name out of this draining situation so I can put this to rest. Autumn or AutumnOSC framed me by using a screenshot that was easily fabricated was also taken out of context to try and throw me under the bus and ruin my reputation more, in other words he tried to make me look like I "admitted into saying such threats" when that clearly wasn't anywhere near what I said, I will admit my wording is very poor as english isn't my first language but to stoop this low by fabricating my messages is DISGUSTING. the first screenshot shows the real conversation between me and Artsy (she did not give consent or tell Autumn it was ok to use this screenshot for a false narrative but still chose to screenshot the message despite it being easily fabricated) and the second screenshot shows the fake message obviously. i'm just going to say this right now I'm not going to bother make another video about this, but I will say, this video is just another attempt at defaming me, and painted with lies, making false accusations of me "lying about having allegations" despite not having concrete or physical evidence of me "lying" and on top of that it is pathetic and immature that you profit off from videos that involve someone being exposed, especially making profit off from two videos that are just slander, interjection, misinformation, "speculations" and a bunch of other things that is clearly making both "expose" videos flawed. if you're going to "call me out" do research before jumping the gun on me. "making a response on this video won't work" and making a response towards this community post won't work either but make you look more pathetic and stupid. on top of that, didn't you admit to having connections with the UTTP? how does that make you look any better while you admitted to having associations with a cult that terrorizes children on the internet? why are you trying to expose things that you would later go on and do?.. this entire idea of "exposing" me is pointless, the only reason why this entire situation is happening is because you saw me getting hundreds of supporters showing love to someone that decided to speak out against a mental hospital that abused a 14 year old.. it shows that you're more of the "dragger" then me. you're defending a friend group that you KNOW very well made those rumors about me, yet you shift ALL THE BLAME directly towards me.. how pathetic. this will be the final time I mention or address everything that is related to the situation. i want to let everyone know that immediately after this post will this drama be put to rest. it has drained my mental health a lot and I have better things to deal in my life then pointless internet drama. on top of that this friend group has even made fake positive and supportive comments about my situation too and only shed in windowed positivity to try and make me believe that they were actually supporting me when in truth they never supported me in the first place. take this information however you want, but I'm just listing the facts. no I'm not innocent in anyway too and I don't want anyone to think I'm a perfect person because I'm not and I will admit I have made flaws during this situation but I took account to those mistakes, however this friend group cannot do the same thing and be mature enough to accept responsibility because they want me to "accept a person that has their own beliefs" your "beliefs" have nothing to do with this situation btw. but all in all I am sorry for not being able to handle this situation maturely but I did everything I could in my own power to stop this situation from escalating but my efforts and attempts did nothing at all. remember to take everything into consideration and not immediately invalidate the person's points. also I do want to advise everyone that you should read this post before forming your own conclusions.
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i'm going to reiterate myself a lot of you guys are getting my words twisted, this will be the final time I publicly talk about this friend group. i have enough of being constantly mistreated, thrown under the bus, framed and constantly silenced by people who are ignorant enough to play dumb and shift the blame towards me. this "counter response" this friend group I had to deal with in the past is making me look more bad and is another attempt to defame me based on "speculations". please read this document as I go through the ENTIRE situation, and debunk everything that's been said about me. and please don't forget to read the segments as well before casting final judgement or coming to your own conclusions. and always remember there's two sides to a story but there will always be one truth and one lie. doesn't matter if this friend group cares enough to "make a response back" they are already making themselves look more bad anyway. (the document link is no longer clickable so I will be leaving down a comment where you can view the comment that way instead) https://docs.google.com/document/d/18kyj5zoTLV_wquFMH3W872uA2HFIKpZ3KJnl6YMlQF4/edit?usp=sharing
please do not harass, attack or even go after anyone that's mentioned in this document. this document was only made to criticize their behavior, not to "make anyone look bad" or do anything else harmful. have an amazing day and as always take care! when the link does become clickable it will turn blue so make sure you keep an eye on that.
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i usually don't post stuff like this into my community post's feed, but if anyone wants my asset or wants to make fan-art, use it for something like intros, outros, shows, or any of that other sort of kind my asset can be found in this post. also this goes out to ‪@GanimatorMOD‬ since he's making a intro, so if you want the asset, here it is. this is for everyone here that wants to know what my asset design looks like. this was made by yours truly my brotha in christ ‪@FloidToons5_5‬
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i am not ready for school to come back at all, this summer "break" went by so fast now unfortunately I'm becoming a freshman. wish me luck because this school is going to be hell and it'll probably add more stress to the table but if anything happens I promise I'm gonna try to push forward for you guys and for me. just learned that school starts in august 10th for me sadly so I will be heavily inactive after this week due to school so uploads may come in a big delay, just a friendly reminder.
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can anyone tell me how to fix this issue of my comments not showing up on anybody's comments section or posts? this isn't just happening to one person it's happening to everyone I comment even if my comment is just innocent, it makes no sense YouTube should rely AI heavily on moderation when they're a multi-billionaire company, but regardless if anyone has tips or explanations as to how I can fix this issue let me know down below.
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