hi guys, sorry i havent posted in awhile. i filmed a video a few weeks ago and i havent been able to post it for multiple reasons. i’ve decided to change my content style so that i can post more videos again.
i don’t like having my face in my videos so i’m going to be posting commentary over overwatch gameplay. i also want to start streaming overwatch on my twitch (twitch.tv/poca_ow)
i’ll be posting one final makeup short and that’s probably the last time i’ll have my face on my channel (unless something drastically changes).
i know that this is a big change but i dont think i would be able to continue youtube if i didnt do this.
so after i couldnt get out of my toxic living situation, i got sick with the super flu at my brother’s place. afterwards i had to go back to the evil apartment. the defeat from trying so hard to get out and ending up back where i started made me so depressed that i can’t function. i’m unable to work, im unable to do literally anything. im trying so hard to even post anything or respond to a text but it feels like using energy i dont have rn. i’m not sure when i can leave this place and i’m not sure how i’m gonna afford to move. i don’t know how i will be able to live with roommates again after this, i feel traumatized from all this.
the only thing getting me by right now is playing overwatch. i keep telling myself its gonna get better and that i just need to endure right now. im so sick of enduring, i want to be okay now. it feels like there’s a never ending battle of unfortunate unlucky events in my life. i really want to build a life where these things dont happen to me. i want to be healthy and happy. i’m trying my best to make that happen. im not going to give up because this isnt even my rock bottom. I know I can get through this.
thank u guys for supporting me, i really needed to get this off my chest. i hope you guys are doing okay and if ur not, you will get through it. if i can you can too.
so yesterday everything fell through. I’m gonna talk abt what’s going on bc i could use any guidance or advice rn. my roommate hasnt paid rent in 5 months and basically emotionally abuses me. since we’re on a joint lease im legally responsible even tho i pay my rent every month. the stress got so bad i stopped eating which led me to my recent hospital visit. my new place fell through bc my current building management wont let me leave. i cant stay at that apartment in fear of my health. im trying to get a lawyer but i can’t even afford that. i tried calling legal guidance hotlines too. anyone go thru anything similar and has any advice?
im just so stressed and sad rn. i don’t even know how i’ll get thru this.
i filmed and edited a video about being a social shut in living in nyc. i even have a thumbnail ready and everything.
i made this vid last month and have been considering posting it. it’s mainly about my trouble with agoraphobia, physical health/pain, and unfortunate circumstances that keep me in nyc.
the only problem is, i cried a lot in that video. i was super emotional and its a very raw video. im not too sure if i should post it as i don’t want to go into the territory of pitying myself too much. i was wondering everyone’s thoughts on me posting a video like this.
please vote on this poll and if it’s a yes i’ll post the video tmr :)
Hi everyone, it’s come to my attention that someone is impersonating me online to try to ask for money. I want to clarify that it’s not me. I will never ask for money bc of what i post. I never ask for money even if i’m struggling. it’s something I never do, even to family so it scares me someone is doing this while impersonating me. I want to urge EVERYONE, do not donate to anyone saying they are me or anything confusing/concerning or sus. THIS IS MY ONLY YOUTUBE ACCOUNT and all my social media is under poca_ow.
if you see anyone impersonating me online please send me their account and report it.
i’m so sorry if anyone has donated to these accounts, they are 100% NOT ME.
once again, please be safe online and don’t spend money on anything sketchy, sus, or unsafe.
hi guys, I woke up a few days ago and had severe pain. i’m trying to get a procedure done to help with my pain but it’s been hard. Does anyone else get increased pain when it’s raining/cloudy outside?
I’m working on videos now but I’m having a hard time managing my job and making videos. I took a few days off (i work freelance so i make my own schedule) to work on videos but now i’m a little behind. Does anyone have some advice on how to manage my work and my videos better? I also started my pre courses for school (basically classes to learn social skills bc i’m in a program for ppl w disabilities). So managing that, work, dr appts, and videos have been challenging. I really hope i can start making videos more than I work. we’ll see!!
THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR 20K!!! (well now 24k xD hehe)
I really appreciate everyone supporting my videos, it truly means the world to me. You guys are changing my life and it’s making me break out of the hole I was hiding in for so long.
Thank you. Truly, Thank you guys so much.
i went to a place today and got a treat to celebrate! im posting a shortform video about my day because i never rly do nice things for myself. so today was very special :)
hi everyone! 2 announcements **EDIT: patreon put my account on a hold for 5 days since it's a new acc and i changed my payout method. so don't mind this post until 5 days has passed xD lol sorry for the confusion I'll make a post abt it in 5 days or so **
I've created a patreon!! there are currently two tiers and one of them you can request a custom doodle by me along with so many more awesome perks. here's the link: www.patreon.com/c/poca_ow
i also want to note that the custom doodle is also available on my kofi: ko-fi.com/poca_ow
2nd announcement: my newest video is coming out wednesday (9/3) at 9am EST. It's already available on my patreon as I plan on posting early access to my videos every monday before i upload on wednesdays.
that's all for now, here's a drawing i did for my channel:
hi guys! i’m almost finished editing my new video. it’s abt a really rough thing that happened to me so the past days i’ve been working on it, i’ve been a bit sad.
i realized, making these videos is a very personal thing for me because when i was struggling so much i thought that i would never tell anyone. now i think to myself that i want to make these videos so that i didn’t struggle for nothing, that i’m turning what i’ve been thru into a way to help others.
i dont pride myself in anything bc i saw how pride has destroyed people i’ve known but i finally feel like i have something to be truly proud of. i really appreciate everyone for supporting these videos because it’s so deeply me that it hurts sometimes.
poca
announcement: change in content style
hi guys, sorry i havent posted in awhile. i filmed a video a few weeks ago and i havent been able to post it for multiple reasons. i’ve decided to change my content style so that i can post more videos again.
i don’t like having my face in my videos so i’m going to be posting commentary over overwatch gameplay. i also want to start streaming overwatch on my twitch (twitch.tv/poca_ow)
i’ll be posting one final makeup short and that’s probably the last time i’ll have my face on my channel (unless something drastically changes).
i know that this is a big change but i dont think i would be able to continue youtube if i didnt do this.
once again thank u guys for supporting me ❤️
1 month ago | [YT] | 1,525
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hey guys- vent post
so after i couldnt get out of my toxic living situation, i got sick with the super flu at my brother’s place. afterwards i had to go back to the evil apartment. the defeat from trying so hard to get out and ending up back where i started made me so depressed that i can’t function. i’m unable to work, im unable to do literally anything. im trying so hard to even post anything or respond to a text but it feels like using energy i dont have rn. i’m not sure when i can leave this place and i’m not sure how i’m gonna afford to move. i don’t know how i will be able to live with roommates again after this, i feel traumatized from all this.
the only thing getting me by right now is playing overwatch. i keep telling myself its gonna get better and that i just need to endure right now. im so sick of enduring, i want to be okay now. it feels like there’s a never ending battle of unfortunate unlucky events in my life. i really want to build a life where these things dont happen to me. i want to be healthy and happy. i’m trying my best to make that happen. im not going to give up because this isnt even my rock bottom. I know I can get through this.
thank u guys for supporting me, i really needed to get this off my chest. i hope you guys are doing okay and if ur not, you will get through it. if i can you can too.
1 month ago | [YT] | 3,216
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hi guys- housing update
so yesterday everything fell through. I’m gonna talk abt what’s going on bc i could use any guidance or advice rn. my roommate hasnt paid rent in 5 months and basically emotionally abuses me. since we’re on a joint lease im legally responsible even tho i pay my rent every month. the stress got so bad i stopped eating which led me to my recent hospital visit. my new place fell through bc my current building management wont let me leave. i cant stay at that apartment in fear of my health. im trying to get a lawyer but i can’t even afford that. i tried calling legal guidance hotlines too. anyone go thru anything similar and has any advice?
im just so stressed and sad rn. i don’t even know how i’ll get thru this.
3 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 3,430
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hi everyone- need some advice for a vid:
i filmed and edited a video about being a social shut in living in nyc. i even have a thumbnail ready and everything.
i made this vid last month and have been considering posting it. it’s mainly about my trouble with agoraphobia, physical health/pain, and unfortunate circumstances that keep me in nyc.
the only problem is, i cried a lot in that video. i was super emotional and its a very raw video. im not too sure if i should post it as i don’t want to go into the territory of pitying myself too much. i was wondering everyone’s thoughts on me posting a video like this.
please vote on this poll and if it’s a yes i’ll post the video tmr :)
5 months ago | [YT] | 378
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poca
Hi everyone, it’s come to my attention that someone is impersonating me online to try to ask for money. I want to clarify that it’s not me. I will never ask for money bc of what i post. I never ask for money even if i’m struggling. it’s something I never do, even to family so it scares me someone is doing this while impersonating me. I want to urge EVERYONE, do not donate to anyone saying they are me or anything confusing/concerning or sus.
THIS IS MY ONLY YOUTUBE ACCOUNT and all my social media is under poca_ow.
if you see anyone impersonating me online please send me their account and report it.
i’m so sorry if anyone has donated to these accounts, they are 100% NOT ME.
once again, please be safe online and don’t spend money on anything sketchy, sus, or unsafe.
6 months ago | [YT] | 1,444
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hi guys i filmed 3 vids but i need to edit them. i’m going to post tmr or friday! sorry for the delay ❤️
7 months ago | [YT] | 465
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poca
hi guys,
I woke up a few days ago and had severe pain. i’m trying to get a procedure done to help with my pain but it’s been hard. Does anyone else get increased pain when it’s raining/cloudy outside?
I’m working on videos now but I’m having a hard time managing my job and making videos. I took a few days off (i work freelance so i make my own schedule) to work on videos but now i’m a little behind. Does anyone have some advice on how to manage my work and my videos better? I also started my pre courses for school (basically classes to learn social skills bc i’m in a program for ppl w disabilities). So managing that, work, dr appts, and videos have been challenging. I really hope i can start making videos more than I work. we’ll see!!
Just a quick update for you guys
7 months ago | [YT] | 917
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poca
THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR 20K!!!
(well now 24k xD hehe)
I really appreciate everyone supporting my videos, it truly means the world to me. You guys are changing my life and it’s making me break out of the hole I was hiding in for so long.
Thank you. Truly, Thank you guys so much.
i went to a place today and got a treat to celebrate! im posting a shortform video about my day because i never rly do nice things for myself. so today was very special :)
7 months ago | [YT] | 652
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poca
hi everyone! 2 announcements
**EDIT: patreon put my account on a hold for 5 days since it's a new acc and i changed my payout method. so don't mind this post until 5 days has passed xD lol sorry for the confusion I'll make a post abt it in 5 days or so **
I've created a patreon!! there are currently two tiers and one of them you can request a custom doodle by me along with so many more awesome perks.
here's the link: www.patreon.com/c/poca_ow
i also want to note that the custom doodle is also available on my kofi: ko-fi.com/poca_ow
2nd announcement:
my newest video is coming out wednesday (9/3) at 9am EST. It's already available on my patreon as I plan on posting early access to my videos every monday before i upload on wednesdays.
that's all for now, here's a drawing i did for my channel:
7 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 248
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poca
hi guys! i’m almost finished editing my new video. it’s abt a really rough thing that happened to me so the past days i’ve been working on it, i’ve been a bit sad.
i realized, making these videos is a very personal thing for me because when i was struggling so much i thought that i would never tell anyone. now i think to myself that i want to make these videos so that i didn’t struggle for nothing, that i’m turning what i’ve been thru into a way to help others.
i dont pride myself in anything bc i saw how pride has destroyed people i’ve known but i finally feel like i have something to be truly proud of. i really appreciate everyone for supporting these videos because it’s so deeply me that it hurts sometimes.
7 months ago | [YT] | 560
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