Axton Pino
Making playlists is what I spend most of my time doing nowadays.
To those who know me from my Twitter or school, I am in fact still alive. I don't make videos no more, or engage with social media very often, because I just don't have the living conditions nor resources to make quality content/keep up with my socials.
Furthermore, the reason you haven't heard from me is because I no longer play ROBLOX due to increasingly worse updates, and numerous personal issues that I'm still working through.
I'll still be around on here, though. I'll keep making playlists for whatever I care about.
Axton Pino
Hey folks. As of today, two of my playlists have been removed due to community guidelines violations. I'm working to get the decision repealed.
As a result, I'm likely going to have some (not all or most) of my own playlists privated to sanitize them of any videos that might give me a channel strike.
2 years ago | [YT] | 0
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Axton Pino
Hello World. Alright, before I begin this post I must say that, If any of my old subscribers are still around, this is for you. If you don't know or care about who I am, just keep scrolling. Nothing I say will be relevant or important to you, so it's fine.
I haven't been active on here for quite some time, and I only really update my playlists every so often. YouTube randomly decided to give me access to the community tab. I have no idea why to be honest. This is why I'm here again, and the following is an explanation for my absence.
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Put simply, my life has truly went to shit since COVID-19 began to ravage the earth. I have a terrible relationship with my abusive father, and I'm in the process of removing him from my life. This naturally lead to me being diagnosed with depression and anxiety by a therapist, on top of a pre-existing autism diagnosis I've had for all my life.
I have no friends that I still have contact with, and I'm not exaggerating, I have absolutely nobody. I got locked out of my discord account, and I am not using the shitty mobile version. I don't talk to anybody outside of my immediate family. I go outside maybe once every 3 weeks at best.
Consequently, I have struggled at handling anything and everything in my life. I can't sleep right, I can't manage my hygiene consistently, I can't do a damn thing that I'm supposed to do to live. I've developed a video game addiction as a coping mechanism to escape from my own thoughts and feelings. My mother and one of my sisters are the only reason I have the will to keep going.
It has not been a matter of me reaching the bottom of the barrel in my life. It's that my life has been spiraling downwards in a bottomless pit of despair for years for so long, that I don't even feel like I'm falling any further. But, I know that I am. It's a truly terrible feeling.
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If there's a single person out there that is even slightly interested in what I have to say, perhaps I will make another post about where I will go from here. I wouldn't be here if it was still getting worse. There's hope for me, and I have a long life ahead that I have to face.
3 years ago | [YT] | 1
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