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ANNN ART COLLAB WITH MY NEW IRL FRIEND!!!

Base cred: owner of the base on pinterest

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1 week ago | [YT] | 3

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Let's make it short, I'm tired.

I have some unspeakable killing intents. I dont know if I have mental illness or mentally okay. I only know that i'm emotionally not okay. I just wish from the very beginning... I had never encountered this at all. I just wish I never met 'gacha' at all. I don't wanna be ruined by it, and I don't wanna feel my relationship with family and friends apart because of this.

It was refreshing to meet you all.

I feel very far from reality, friends, my mother, father, siblings and Allah. I do bold things because what i want was blocked. And I hate that decision. It's not about the videos it's about the roles. I'd love to be a writer or a moderator or co-owner for any projects. That's my desire. It's not about the gacha community. And EVERYTHING I want is the opposite of my fmaily favours.

I love social connections... I love you all. From the first meeting until now. I can't bear cutting off connections... I just wanna talk with yall everyday, but I lose contact with some friends.

I do wanna be active. But i give up on that. Because when i look at others achievements—jealousy got the best of me. I dont wanna fight with my friends nor people. So I just wanna settle down and live in peace. I gave up everything I want. I gave up explaining things bcz i think there's only a slight chance of understanding.

I failed. As a person.

And now i'm trying to restart everything. I don't wanna be caged by this stupid thoughts anymore. I don't wanna be jealous of you all. I.. too wanna achieve everything. But now I dont need it. Achievements are ZERO. Because i'm afraid i'd be jealous. I know there's always peoples who's better than us.

That's all. I'll post every month okay? Be safe, be healthy. You are the important thing in my life. Your soul cannot be exhange or replaced. Thank you. May Allah guide you to the best way.

2 weeks ago | [YT] | 3

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2026 ISS..... HEREEE

A change of heart to a better one wont hurt you.
Fallen into the hole many times before, one day i'll stop the loop and leave this place.

3 weeks ago | [YT] | 3

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@ me if you guys have anything to do with me. Yeah, im busy and plz remind me if i agreed to do a gift, fanart, art or etc. k byee i'll still communicate with you guys as i can! luv yall

1 month ago | [YT] | 4

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I was cooking yk? When i'm offline ><
‪@kyunikyun‬
‪@Ryhaa‬
‪@imanhassaballa2709‬​
‪@Misswater_Official‬​
‪@Its-alexa133‬​ (hruuuu? Remember me?)
@you
I really lost contact with others.... please help @ the others such as ritiocookie T^T

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1 month ago (edited) | [YT] | 4

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how i started VS how its going (no this is not recent image)

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2 months ago | [YT] | 4

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Sorry guys I will seek a therapist but not today ig because there's a lot thing to do... luv yall

2 months ago | [YT] | 3

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Doctor, i'm really sick. I can't get what's wrong with me. I feel like I need someone to help me here... I don't know why I suddenly tried to strangle myself. God that was terrifying. Glad that it was a thick towel–I can't tighten the knots. I don't know what's going on. Everything seems to trouble me. It's getting worser day by day. Aku selalu rasa macam nak m@ti. Words and arts don't seem to affect me much as always. I've been buried in my arts. Classmates and teacher always complain about it. Ke manakah pergi semangat ku? Where all of it lost?

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