Nzcade

So... it's 2025 now. Happy New Year's! Where have I been? What has happened this year? I can explain it.

2024 was not really a good year for me, I've had to deal with a lot of problems, I gave false promises that I couldn't achieve way too much, and I haven't posted a lot like at all, which is a heavy reason on why I haven't been uploading or even posting.

-- THE BIG PROBLEM + WHY I HAVEN'T POSTED --

The true reason why I haven't been uploading is storage, I've been constantly running out of storage and it's a HUGE problem. ibisPaint X just straight up won't work half the time and basic apps are unavailable to me due to this problem. I've also had to move computers which means installing all of my programs again. I basically had to start completely from scratch. So, despite me having a full year to reflect, I could barely get any work done. I really wanted to do more but I've been constantly held back by either my motivation, or the lack of storage meaning that I couldn't even draw when I wanted to. This has been a problem for the entire year, and it's still eating away to this day, so hopefully I can finally get it over with and I won't have to deal with it ever again for good.

-- SOME GOOD --

But there's also been some good, I've met some cool people, been trying to branch out to others, and I've been teaching myself on how to be better as a person and how to improve my art and animation. I've been re-watching and going back on shows. I also figured out what I did right and what I did wrong so hopefully I'm more prepared for this year and can upload way more frequently, as I'm way more motivated now. I can't promise anything, but I think I've been in a way better mood than I was last year.

I may have been gone but I am not dead! I am still working on new ideas while I was away, and I can't wait to show them once I'm done with my hiatus!

-- NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS --

So my new year's resolutions well I have a few so I'll just rapid fire them:

- Clear up all of my storage

- Learn to control my anger

- Not procrasinate over literally everything

- Have the confidence to post and share my stuff

- Actually improve on my skills (for example my art if I can)

- Do research and spend more time on what I do

And that's it for now! I hope I can do them but we will see.

-- WHAT'S NEXT? --

But honestly, my mind has been thinking, is this really what I want to do? I don't know if this is what I want to do yet and I've been thinking about the type of content I really want to do. The way I'm currently going might be seen as too "childish" for my age and that I'm getting older now and I might want to move on to more mature stuff. I'm just not sure right now so don't expect me to be online until I figure out exactly what I have on my mind.

I doubt anyone will even see this, but if they are... just remember that I still have a lot to offer and that I'm not going away any time soon and this is still only the beginning of a long journey.

-- THE END? --

This might be my last post for a while as I'm not sure on what to do currently, but I am hoping for 2025 to be my best year yet! Good luck, as only the future awaits for this year of 2025.

7 months ago | [YT] | 3

Nzcade

I’m gonna be honest, I don’t know if I’ll be able to finish my plans any time soon. I feel like such a failure and that I wasted my life. I keep getting jealous and thinking to myself that I could never reach those heights and what’s the point if no one’s gonna see it. I felt like some days I couldn’t get anything done because of my past trauma was eating me up and all of those bad experiences made me feel awful. For now the series is paused until I can become confident that it will work. (Or maybe change it up again) I severely apologize, I’m just a nervous wreck, I hope I can improve my life, I really do.

(08/31/2024)

11 months ago | [YT] | 4

Nzcade

Been doing some stuff outside YouTube and was busy in IRL too (like school), I am learning but I’m not sure if my future plans will even be worth it anymore. That’s why I stopped uploading, hopefully I can find a way to fix this.

(08/31/2024)

11 months ago | [YT] | 0

Nzcade

Clearing storage is hard

1 year ago | [YT] | 1

Nzcade

It’s my birthday TODAY!

Don’t know what to plan for it but I might make a video celebrating it, I don’t even know what it is but I’ll try

(08/07/2024)

1 year ago | [YT] | 2

Nzcade

My birthday is tomorrow and tbh I’m kinda nervous and idk what to do

Idk if I’m still gonna upload or not kinda in a limbo (been hella busy and got back from vacation and school is starting up)

But I should be making good progress so yeah

This might mean the channel will be dead forever or not but we will see

(08/06/2024)

1 year ago | [YT] | 1

Nzcade

Been on vacation to a place and the internet kinda sucks so yeah, also busy as usual and can’t find any good tutorials rn so I’ll probably be back around July 27th idk

1 year ago | [YT] | 1

Nzcade

About time I speak the truth:

Honestly don’t know what to do. I’ve been trying to improve at art and get to know people better but I am just a total failure.

It’s like I get ignored whenever I try to start a conversation or comment on a video or post. Am I just invisible?

I’ve been cowardly to try or post because I’m just scared of the failure and I shame myself whenever I draw and constantly think that it’s not good enough and that I need to improve. That’s why I’ve been holding it off for so long, because I either think I can’t do it or when I manage to do it, it’s gonna be trash anyway.

But progress is going (slowly, but surely), so hopefully I can figure this out.

(This will probably be the last vent post for a while since I don’t wanna ruin the mood)

1 year ago | [YT] | 3

Nzcade

So… it turns out that there is a TORNADO in my area rn, I’m really scared and I don’t wanna die, I’m not sure if I’m going to make it or not; if I do make it however, I’ll make sure to give an update, if I don’t then you’ll know why I stopped posting.

I hope that I can make it out alive as this is really nerve wracking right now.

- 2nkf

(07/10/2024)

1 year ago | [YT] | 2

Nzcade

Today officially marks the 6th year anniversary of my first upload, I honestly can’t believe it’s been 6 YEARS since I started this channel, I’ve gone so far, yet I have SO MANY stuff still waiting! Thank you for everyone who’s stuck around from 2018 all the way to now in 2024. Truly great years of my life, hopefully this channel can improve! Wish me luck.

(07/08/2024)

1 year ago | [YT] | 1