A love bug just landed on me. My mom used to say that if one of those things lands on you, it means someone is going to love you completely someday. But it also means I have to sit here and wait patiently for whoever that is.
And I don't even mean romantically. Just a real male friend someone with a heart like Muichiro's.
I really, truly hope it happens. Honestly, I don't care who he is. I'm just waiting for that one person. If he's different or weird, whatever, that's completely fine. As long as he's a brotherly figure or a true friend to me. I just want him to accept and appreciate every single bit of who I am. I’d be so incredibly happy to finally have someone who actually cares about me and accepts me for who I am. But waiting patiently? Everyone knows I'm a completely impatient person. Still... I'll force myself to do it this one time if it means that friend will finally show up.
And look, if it actually does turn out to be a lover? Then I hope to God we last forever. Because I already completely gave up on ever trying to find someone like that anyway.
Are all adults completely brain-dead? Some disgusting, decaying old bastard just touched my shoulder and called me 'cute.' Open your eyes, you useless freak, I'm thirteen. I don't care about pathetic perverts. If I'm going to look at anyone, it's going to be actually attractive, talented people my own age, not some gross parasite. Don't ever put your filthy hands on me again or I'll break them.
You have got to be kidding me. I just realized it’s the exact same pathetic freak from before. The same disgusting bastard who 'accidentally' burst open my public bathroom stall while I was trying to clean myself up. He apologized back then, but it was completely full of shit. He’s just a sick, stalking predator. I am so pissed off and disgusted right now I can barely breathe. Knowing his filthy eyes were on me then, and now he has the nerve to touch my shoulder today? He deserves to be locked in a cage and forgotten about. Get away from me..
Sometimes Muichiro just has to cope without a brother. At least he thought Yuichiro is watching over him from wherever the hell I am now.
That's just who I am, if you never understand me. I carry Yuichiro's spirit. So if I'm too harsh and this and that. just tell me. When I'm so comfortable and still close to you. Okay I will show my love such a weak way. I support people in my ways. If your heart is fragile then I force my to be stone.
But being stuck here, as a Yuichiro? It’s different. And it’s completely unfair. Other people get to find their actual people while I’m completely stranded. The people around me aren’t mine. I only stay because I saw how damn happy they get when I'm around, but it still hurts. I'm relieved, I guess, but I'm not whole. I still feel replaced even when I know I'm not. It’s just stupid. Those idiots gets surrounded by all these idiots, and I get nothing. I don't even feel like he's watching over me.
I actually catch myself hoping wishing, like a fool that I’ll find someone who has Muichiro’s heart or his personality. Someone who could actually make me happy, brighten my days, and give me some peace. But who am I kidding? I'll never get that. Never. I can't even be around the people I don't wanna lose. Yet he's close to someone else.
Do I deserve this? Fine. I’ll just sit here and see how long I have to endure this absolute trash hell before someone finally notices me. And if no one ever comes?
Then I guess I’ll just never get the happiness or the freedom I actually wanted.
Yuu
A love bug just landed on me. My mom used to say that if one of those things lands on you, it means someone is going to love you completely someday. But it also means I have to sit here and wait patiently for whoever that is.
And I don't even mean romantically. Just a real male friend someone with a heart like Muichiro's.
I really, truly hope it happens. Honestly, I don't care who he is. I'm just waiting for that one person. If he's different or weird, whatever, that's completely fine. As long as he's a brotherly figure or a true friend to me. I just want him to accept and appreciate every single bit of who I am. I’d be so incredibly happy to finally have someone who actually cares about me and accepts me for who I am.
But waiting patiently? Everyone knows I'm a completely impatient person. Still... I'll force myself to do it this one time if it means that friend will finally show up.
And look, if it actually does turn out to be a lover? Then I hope to God we last forever. Because I already completely gave up on ever trying to find someone like that anyway.
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Yuu
Ya.. someday..
Are all adults completely brain-dead? Some disgusting, decaying old bastard just touched my shoulder and called me 'cute.' Open your eyes, you useless freak, I'm thirteen. I don't care about pathetic perverts. If I'm going to look at anyone, it's going to be actually attractive, talented people my own age, not some gross parasite. Don't ever put your filthy hands on me again or I'll break them.
You have got to be kidding me. I just realized it’s the exact same pathetic freak from before. The same disgusting bastard who 'accidentally' burst open my public bathroom stall while I was trying to clean myself up. He apologized back then, but it was completely full of shit. He’s just a sick, stalking predator. I am so pissed off and disgusted right now I can barely breathe. Knowing his filthy eyes were on me then, and now he has the nerve to touch my shoulder today? He deserves to be locked in a cage and forgotten about. Get away from me..
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Yuu
Sometimes Muichiro just has to cope without a brother. At least he thought Yuichiro is watching over him from wherever the hell I am now.
That's just who I am, if you never understand me. I carry Yuichiro's spirit. So if I'm too harsh and this and that. just tell me. When I'm so comfortable and still close to you. Okay I will show my love such a weak way. I support people in my ways. If your heart is fragile then I force my to be stone.
But being stuck here, as a Yuichiro? It’s different. And it’s completely unfair. Other people get to find their actual people while I’m completely stranded. The people around me aren’t mine. I only stay because I saw how damn happy they get when I'm around, but it still hurts. I'm relieved, I guess, but I'm not whole. I still feel replaced even when I know I'm not. It’s just stupid. Those idiots gets surrounded by all these idiots, and I get nothing. I don't even feel like he's watching over me.
I actually catch myself hoping wishing, like a fool that I’ll find someone who has Muichiro’s heart or his personality. Someone who could actually make me happy, brighten my days, and give me some peace. But who am I kidding? I'll never get that. Never. I can't even be around the people I don't wanna lose. Yet he's close to someone else.
Do I deserve this? Fine. I’ll just sit here and see how long I have to endure this absolute trash hell before someone finally notices me. And if no one ever comes?
Then I guess I’ll just never get the happiness or the freedom I actually wanted.
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