what once felt fine now mostly reminds me of pain and trauma.
i always felt like i would be pulled into needless drama or not as often sit and/or watch something spiral down i had no part in, and even after they died out way before, the thoughts still linger like a parasite
i usually never make posts like these, but this time it hit me like a truck. i even thought about doing the unthinkable to myself at one point
this is probably the lowest i've ever felt for myself in a long time and i rather not keep an alias that reminds me of those memories
i feel that restarting fresh is for the best for me and my safety, but I’m not going to do it immediately. it'll probably be on a new account sometime in the future. some might know, and for others it may take some time.
i want to go on a new path and find what i want to do
with that aside, i do want to say that i genuinely appreciate all of y'all for sticking with me throughout this... certainly peculiar experience. i have certainly learned a lot of new things in this journey
i feel like i would've never went on without out of y'alls support and i will always wholeheartedly cherish my friends and the good times we had, even if i do post inconsistently.
hi, I know I haven’t been rapid fire at posting stuff (that should be a given at this point lol)
good news is that I am actually getting an entire new desktop setup after my laptop slowly transformed into a craptop through my two years of using it even though I took the up-most care of it, which is majorly a part of the reason why I haven’t been posting as much.
which is why I feel like getting a desktop could be a big step-up for me lol.
the desktop and monitor are already here, but I also have to wait for my table that should be coming at Friday, and my chair sometime later after that
this also means I can finally properly use my drawing tablet that I bought around the same year I got my first laptop even though I never mentioned it at all here, oops sorry lol.
getting all of that out of the way, just felt like it was important to let you all know what has been going on with me rn
hey everyone! the new year is almost coming (well, almost in my time zone), so i couldn't do a very big new year art. however, JuanmaDu will still be here for this post, as he wants you to have a happy new year.
a year later follow up to my "late Christmas" video last year. Vibri (to her cousin's relief) doesn't miss the big day, and even got a colored Christmas tree this year!
before i forget, today is the 24th anniversary of "Vib-Ribbon"!!! that means you know what i have to do lol. this time starring the cast from Vib-Rihon as well! didn't want Vibri to be alone on this, don't you?
okay, i guess me having community tabs is a thing now lol.
also, thanks ya'll for 300 subs!! i'm glad that you guys like whatever crud i do lol, though i'm actually thinking of doing some pokemon related videos since y'know, pokemon fan and everything-
anyways, have this drawing of juanmadu that i don't think i've actually shared anywhere in my social media, so this is like many months old lol.
abandoned
i don't want to be known as this alias anymore
what once felt fine now mostly reminds me of pain and trauma.
i always felt like i would be pulled into needless drama or not as often sit and/or watch something spiral down i had no part in, and even after they died out way before, the thoughts still linger like a parasite
i usually never make posts like these, but this time it hit me like a truck. i even thought about doing the unthinkable to myself at one point
this is probably the lowest i've ever felt for myself in a long time and i rather not keep an alias that reminds me of those memories
i feel that restarting fresh is for the best for me and my safety, but I’m not going to do it immediately. it'll probably be on a new account sometime in the future. some might know, and for others it may take some time.
i want to go on a new path and find what i want to do
with that aside, i do want to say that i genuinely appreciate all of y'all for sticking with me throughout this... certainly peculiar experience. i have certainly learned a lot of new things in this journey
i feel like i would've never went on without out of y'alls support and i will always wholeheartedly cherish my friends and the good times we had, even if i do post inconsistently.
until we meet again!
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so almost a week ago, i went to a park which had a water park section so i decided to do something Vib-Ribbon summer related lol
Vibri obviously has the summer spirit! Couz though.. Yeah, that's a different story.
(first vib related thing on new desktop)
[Vib-Summer]
( original twitter post: twitter.com/dujuanma/status/1796749434182644105?s=… )
#Vibri #vibribbon
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[Lil’ Reminder]
hi, I know I haven’t been rapid fire at posting stuff (that should be a given at this point lol)
good news is that I am actually getting an entire new desktop setup after my laptop slowly transformed into a craptop through my two years of using it even though I took the up-most care of it, which is majorly a part of the reason why I haven’t been posting as much.
which is why I feel like getting a desktop could be a big step-up for me lol.
the desktop and monitor are already here, but I also have to wait for my table that should be coming at Friday, and my chair sometime later after that
this also means I can finally properly use my drawing tablet that I bought around the same year I got my first laptop even though I never mentioned it at all here, oops sorry lol.
getting all of that out of the way, just felt like it was important to let you all know what has been going on with me rn
JuanmaDu and others will be back soon!
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hey everyone! the new year is almost coming (well, almost in my time zone), so i couldn't do a very big new year art. however, JuanmaDu will still be here for this post, as he wants you to have a happy new year.
Happy New Year y'all!
original twitter post: twitter.com/DuJuanma/status/1741684668800368921
#NewYear #NewBeginnings2024 #NewYearsEve
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a year later follow up to my "late Christmas" video last year. Vibri (to her cousin's relief) doesn't miss the big day, and even got a colored Christmas tree this year!
Merry Christmas to you all!
[Christmas 2023]
original twitter post: twitter.com/DuJuanma/status/1739463677948940489
#Vibri #vibribbon #ChristmasDay #MerryChristmas2023 #Christmas
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before i forget, today is the 24th anniversary of "Vib-Ribbon"!!! that means you know what i have to do lol.
this time starring the cast from Vib-Rihon as well! didn't want Vibri to be alone on this, don't you?
[Vib-Ribbon's 24th Anniversary!]
original twitter post: twitter.com/DuJuanma/status/1...
#Vibri #vibribbon #fanart
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okay, i guess me having community tabs is a thing now lol.
also, thanks ya'll for 300 subs!! i'm glad that you guys like whatever crud i do lol, though i'm actually thinking of doing some pokemon related videos since y'know, pokemon fan and everything-
anyways, have this drawing of juanmadu that i don't think i've actually shared anywhere in my social media, so this is like many months old lol.
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