renwhite

ST5 is so peak

2 months ago | [YT] | 2

renwhite

8 months ago | [YT] | 3

renwhite

guess who didn't fail math this semester 😛

8 months ago | [YT] | 5

renwhite

Free will is such a weird thing
Like I can do whatever, whenever
I could technically walk into a boys bathroom if I feel like it
But if free will is so free
Why am I only know feeling it
Have I never had a choice?
Has the adults in my life held me back?
My fear held me back?
I could walk down the middle of the road
Ride a shark
Burn a house down
But what oh what is stopping me
I don’t think I’ve ever had much of a choice
Rules holding me in place
I hate rules
But I follow them like they’re the light in a dark
Because if I follow
I don’t get yelled at
Because I did what I was told
I hate being told what to do
It’s my life, my choice
But I’ve never had a choice
There’s always someone trying to control you
If it’s your parents
Your friends
The goddamn fucking government that uses you as a pawn
You never had a fucking choice
So stay in line you goddamn whore
Fear holds me back to
Fear of judgement
Fear of failure
Fear of glares
Fear of more hospital visits
Fear of something going wrong if I step out my comfort zone
Well you know what
I’m gonna burn the goddamn comfort zone to the ground
My life, my choice
Free will is so freeing
If your free enough to feel it
I’m done being a pawn
I’m done being told
I’m done feeling out of control
I may not be able to drive
I may be held down by my gender
My age
My beliefs
My strength and my brain
I have almost everything stacked against me
But that just means I have everything to gain
And it starts now
With me using my free will
That free will I find so freeing
To learn how to skateboard
Not fully my choice
But it’s a start
And after that
I’m burning all this fat off
And that
Is my choice



I wait
And I wait
But what for
Theres nothing I get for waiting at the door
I get nothing as a prize while my patience runs thin
How thin can it go
How thin
How thin can my patience go
Roll me out like a fresh batch of dough
See how thin it goes
I'm a
People pleaser
Introvert
Crashout
Cunt
I'm the person who stays silent and nobody ever knows
I can't make up my mind
Because no one cares
They make fun of my choices
So I get insecure
How thin
How thin can I go
Roll me out like a fresh batch of dough
I can't see past
The overthinking and anxiety
My overwhelmed self with a closterphobic fear
I can't help but get scared
It's a phobia after all
But why oh why
Do yall want me to fall?
How thin
How thin can my patience go
Roll me out like a fresh batch of dough
I've been used
Blamed
Tormented
And tamed
It's never my choice
And when it is
I don't know
I wait
And wait
Oh when can we go
My feet hurt
I'm overwhelmed
Oh please, can we go?
No
No
No we can't go
Because it may be my day
But they don't wanna go
I can't speak up
Make a choice
My anxiety sky high
As I rock myself to sleep
How thin
How thin can my patience go
Roll me out like a fresh batch of dough
Thinner
Thinner
The thinner I go
The more I crashout
Just no one will know
I get thinner
And thinner
How thin can I go?
The thinnest isn't even how far i'll go
I don't have a breaking point
Not one I've ever seen
Cuz of how thin I'll go
A people pleaser with no patience
Will go thinner then anyone would know
How thin
How thin can my patience go
Roll me out like a fresh batch of dough

8 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 3

renwhite

which should I make first

8 months ago | [YT] | 4

renwhite

😛😛😛

9 months ago | [YT] | 2

renwhite

may 10th 2025 lore goes crazy

9 months ago | [YT] | 2

renwhite

wdym there's supposed to be fucking TORNADOS i did NOT sign up for this shit

9 months ago | [YT] | 2

renwhite

9 months ago | [YT] | 8

renwhite

sigh not my mentions being off and I didn't know

10 months ago | [YT] | 3