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ughh i wish i had that life where you got out of a hot shower, rewatch your favourite show, while living on the top floor of a building in new york..

anyways here’s how i’d put it in a story::

i just got out of the shower, steam is overflooding my bedroom, i can’t see myself in the mirror due to all of the steam. i grab my brown, curly hair in a ponytail on the top of my head, i turn my head upside down. my hair starts dripping, the little drops look like the spots on a ladybug; they aren’t even, but still fit right. i grab a towel and scrunch my hair with it, the towel gets soaked and i drop it. i grab a bathrobe and tie it around my body. i’ll clean the bathroom later, i admit, i’m too lazy to do it, so it’ll probably be cleaned by the time i shower again. i wanna fall on my bed but something distracts me. the sound of pouring rain, ticking against the windows, the shots of lightning. the sky is covered with grey, and black clouds. the sound of rain calms me, it reminds me of a time i can’t go back to. i open the window a bit, a big swoosh of wind flies in my face. my hair flies around. the door flies shut. bad idea.
i’d already closed the window, when i jumped on my bed. wish i could be like this forever, laying in my bed, watching my favourite show. reminds me of when i watched it with my mom, the pit in my stomach appears again.

chat should i make this into a story or sm????

5 hours ago | [YT] | 3

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okay so i just got back from school and here’s some things that happened with b!!! ‪@how.did.it.end.ৎ‬ ‪@how.did.it.end.ৎ‬

1. i think i found out his name and it doesn’t start with B…
2. okay so we had an event and we all gor soaked, and B took. his. shirt. off. right when i could see. OH MY AHAGEGHSBSB
3. i heard his voice and it’s kinda… he went from a 10/10 to a 7/10.
4. B got super close with me like (not super close but i he stood close to me a ton of times)
5. i kinda pissed his friends off, so he prob won’t like me after that…


anyways uhh school went well, still kinda upset, don’t know why, btw SO MUCH drama happened wtf bea is innocent again???

8 hours ago | [YT] | 5

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i need someone to love me too, you always only focus on me being a good person, never on people being good to me. i’ve only self harmed 2x. it’s gonna be 3 times now.

1 day ago | [YT] | 8

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i’m so fucked up i should kill myself already

1 day ago | [YT] | 5

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so uhh chat i did something..

i deleted capcut.

so if you’re thinking “noo” or “where are you gonna edit on now”
capcut. yeah i know that seems confusing, but i’ve had problems with my storage since JANUARY. but now i’m gonna edit on my iPad, (i’m gonna screenrecord on my phone bc i have storage on here). so yeah. war is over.

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1 day ago | [YT] | 7

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i wonder if someone would make a hate page about me, and i wonder exactly how far they’ll go

1 day ago | [YT] | 6

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chat so this is how i think my friends would do it
(not tryna stereotype this is just for fun)
btw i’ll probably make more of these so if you wanna be in just lmk

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2 days ago | [YT] | 3

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kiss, marry, kill
(but it’s only one person, and the person is me)

2 days ago | [YT] | 5

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somebody steal my edits my channel ain’t growing 😣

2 days ago | [YT] | 7