*「𝓓𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓶𝔂 𝓚𝔁𝓲 ꩜ .ᐟ」*

Please support them omg

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*「𝓓𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓶𝔂 𝓚𝔁𝓲 ꩜ .ᐟ」*

Shout-out to my irl friends for giving me stuff on my birthday, you all are amazing!!!!!!!!! (Technically my b-day is on the eleven but since it's on a weekend my friends and teachers at school celebrate today, the ninth of may)

I got fanart from one of them and my other friend got me a cute tiny present with a cute bracelet, a sticky note that has amazing art of my persona, and a kawaii keychain that I can stick to!


y'all are amazing- have I ever told you that? lol

-Kxi <3

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*「𝓓𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓶𝔂 𝓚𝔁𝓲 ꩜ .ᐟ」*

making a PNG Tuber......maybe... coming soon...

1 day ago | [YT] | 8

*「𝓓𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓶𝔂 𝓚𝔁𝓲 ꩜ .ᐟ」*

I have typed this story in one sitting lol I’m outside rn



Story: 

The day during my exam. I don’t what to feel- or how else I should. Stressed? Panicking? Feeling confident? I have no idea. I feel numb, which is weird. Maybe my brain is doing this to protect me from being an emotional mess during the day of? I always was considered the ‘smart one’ and yet this was harder than every math problem out there.

After doing some late night research about managing test anxiety, they always said the same old things, drink water, have self-confidence, etc, I was getting tired the same results again. I wanted a change. Well that was quite new for once. Change was the last thing I hated. But then again, there were situations where I really longed for one, I knew, but I never imagined that it would hit me now.

I finally take a deep breath and exit my house, going to my deck. It was beautiful- I briefly remember how guests of my parents wanted a house like mine, with a beautiful scenery and windows to look upon. I was deeply grateful of them and their kind words, however, I felt as if I was still arrogant enough to not take advantage of it.

I had a lot of things that children and teens don’t have around the world. The reason why I bring this up it because I did research about war and the effects on children for a project, and what I saw was horrifying, I cried. A lot of my classmates were serious and sympathetic, something rare I saw. It should’ve made me happier that they were finally for once taking something seriously, but the reason for it made me sick. Why did anyone have to go through this? And a thought hit me right as I wondered. I was caring too much about my social media, my family, and my friends, as well as my studies, and I never really cared about the other stuff I had. Even though I wasn’t into material goods. I felt guilty that I never cared at all, despite saying I was grateful. Just because you say that you are grateful doesn’t mean that you are. I have said a lot of words of mindfulness and gratefulness, but I’m starting to wonder exactly if I am grateful actually. I was reading this not only to be informed of the world, but also to remind myself how greed and arrogance, as well as denial can take over a person, like a manifestation. But sometimes, it was more than just obvious.

I realize how selfish I was, not taking advantage of beautiful nature. I decided that I was done with this self-loathing, so I went outside. As soon as I did, I put on a Lofi music playlist and decided instead of cramming and freaking out. As I lowered the volume, I could hear the birds and the peace around me, but also, for the first time, I felt like I opened my eyes. I didn’t understand why I felt this way, I have looked at this scenery before with my family. Until I realize that I only went outside for my family, which is why it didn’t make an impact on me. I learned that if I truly meant something, I would perform the action by myself instead of waiting for someone to remind me. I have heard these sounds before, all the time, but I never took the time to listen, except now. The birds flying through me made me instinctively duck, but I laughed it off and continued walking around my porch, listening to this sweet melody. It was a change for me, since in the past I would have never thought of doing it. I promised myself I would say for only 15 minutes, but I check how long my playlist video has been playing.

33 minutes. I look shocked but I feel happy. Proud that I actually chose to break my old habits and do something better. As I’m writing, (or typing this on my iPad), I began to wonder how nature helps benefit us, even at this so called ‘modern age’. There were so many opportunities I could’ve taken, but I don’t quite feel any regrets. Everything happens for a reason, right? And I needed to learn and understand that. Nature is a beautiful and amazing thing, and it really does change a person’s perspective.

As I sit there typing, I see the sun beaming on me. It was beautiful, since once again, I chose to listen in instead of just looking and leaving. The sun beams land of me as I smile. The weather outside describes my emotions perfectly well. Two days of rain and storms now being entered in with clear, yet cloudy skies and the eye-catching sun as its star. I never imagined how much of a metaphor I can make with everyday things and scenery. I whisper a soft prayer of thanks and close my iPad. I felt like it was a new day, but instead of dreading it, I’m ready to embrace the change. Good or bad, I still have myself and nature, bring its beauty and comfort to those who follow and are truly grateful.



The end~

1 day ago | [YT] | 5

*「𝓓𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓶𝔂 𝓚𝔁𝓲 ꩜ .ᐟ」*

Happy Birthday, ‪@xMilkpudding‬ ! (Yes I made in school like I promised)

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*「𝓓𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓶𝔂 𝓚𝔁𝓲 ꩜ .ᐟ」*

Happy Birthday ‪@xMilkpudding‬ !!

(Yes it’s literally 5:17 AM where I am)

2 days ago | [YT] | 11

*「𝓓𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓶𝔂 𝓚𝔁𝓲 ꩜ .ᐟ」*

Good news? I’m off hiatus and I will resume posting as normal this weekend and I finished my b day art as you can see yay! As well as that, today I went to a school concert with my best friend of all time and me and him got cake! Yummy! (I was so hyper but in a good way)

Bad news? The coming up soon exams have ruined my mental health and have risen my stress by a million, so I’ll need some time to recover from that. 

Btw, contest ends May 11! Last minute art, hurry up! 

Obv, I miss you all so much and I’m so happy y’all are patiently awaiting for my return. I love y’all sm. <3

Birthday art description:

“꧁༺ 𝓐𝓵𝔀𝓪𝔂𝓼 𝓓𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓶𝔂, 𝓝𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓢𝓵𝓮𝓮𝓹𝔂~ ༻꧂”

3 days ago | [YT] | 14

*「𝓓𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓶𝔂 𝓚𝔁𝓲 ꩜ .ᐟ」*

last post for a while

6 days ago | [YT] | 14

*「𝓓𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓶𝔂 𝓚𝔁𝓲 ꩜ .ᐟ」*

I have blurred everyone’s (alleged) IP address out because I have no idea whether or not this is real. I know for a fact mine isn’t, which is why I didn’t blur it.

‪@xMilkpudding‬

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