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Since 2025 is ending, I just want to let everything out…

This year… honestly it was the worst year for me but somehow the best year for Enhypen and that’s the only thing that made me smile through everything. ♡
People may ask: “If you are happy for them, then why was it the worst for you?”
Because this was my last year of college… and I had to leave my besties actually my sisters the people who stood with me for four years. We used to see each other every single day, laugh together, eat together, share everything And now? We barely meet. Life scattered us into different universities, different routines… and that distance hits harder than I ever expected.
Then uni started… and uni life isn’t what people show on social media. It’s stressful, heavy, and honestly depressing especially for me. I thought I made a friend there someone I could actually trust. I thought “She is so sweet, I will keep her in my life.” But things changed so fast. She hid things from me, showed me a totally different side… and I realised something painful:

Sometimes being alone is safer than being surrounded by the wrong people.

This year made me understand that the friends we make in our professional life… we shouldn’t trust them immediately. Just because someone looks kind or acts sweet doesn’t mean they won’t hurt you. Even the softest looking people can be snakes. Not every face you meet is honest. Not every smile is real.

This year was honestly a lot for me. So much sadness, so much heaviness and so many things that broke me quietly. I can’t even fully explain how badly this year ruined me. It wasn’t just one bad moment it was constant.
I felt tired all the time, mentally and emotionally, like I was just surviving every day instead of living. Some days I didn’t even recognize myself anymore and that hurts the most.
And because of all this I couldn’t give time to the people I truly cared about especially my online friends. Not because I didn’t care,not because I forgot them, but because I genuinely had nothing left in me. I was fighting my own battles in silence. I hate myself for ruining those friendships even though deep down I know it wasn’t really my fault. When you are drowning even replying feels heavy.
I didn’t have time, energy, or peace. I was trying to hold myself together while everything inside me was falling apart. People think distance means losing feelings but sometimes distance is just someone trying to breathe. I never stopped caring I was just exhausted in ways no one could see.
I wish people understood that I didn’t choose to disappear life forced me to. And even now I carry guilt for something I didn’t do intentionally. I hope one day they understand that my absence was pain not lack of love.
I didn’t have time to interact with anyone. I really didn’t. Most of my videos were scheduled because I wasn’t okay enough to be present. You can’t expect me to always be online or replying when I was barely surviving. I don’t know what happened to me. I honestly don’t. Something inside me just broke and I didn’t know how to fix it.

Please try to understand me just once. Just once. I wasn’t ignoring anyone on purpose. I was exhausted, lost, and shutting down. Talking felt heavy. Explaining felt impossible. I cared, I still care but I had nothing left in me. I was trying to save myself and ended up losing people and that hurts more than I can explain.

I know this is too long and I appreciate you for reading it all. Thank you for feeling my emotions today. 🤍Just please don’t hate me for something I never meant to do. I never wanted to hurt anyone or push people away. If I did it wasn’t intentional.

And after reading all this if you still think it’s all my fault then maybe I should let you go. I don’t think I have anything left to explain anymore. I have tried and I’m tired. Maybe it’s better to just leave me as I am. This year has already taken so many people away from me and losing more just feels normal now even though it still hurts.

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