My family and I have been homeless since October of last year. We have had to resort to parking at gas stations so I can ask for money to survive each day... It is so few and far between. You would not believe how many people tell me no, but not to say that they _can't_ help us, but that they're _not going to._ This happens time and time again, every single day, then when we're unsuccessful we all get back in the car, argue and fight about how hungry we all are, then I end up having a screaming match with my mother and we all go silent for the rest of the car ride. Still in the waiting list for the housing program, still haven't heard anything, I have been praying to God every single day for us to have a house to live in, _NOTHING._ Despite all my praying we are still homeless. Despite my best efforts begging we still don't have a bed to sleep in, only the car. I am now mentally exhausted and burnt out to the point where I don't even have emotion toward it anymore. How can so many people see what you're going through but still just tell you no, not because they _can't_ but because they _won't?_ Even if I was the one being asked, I would still find some way to help, but I guess there is just no place for me on this hateful world. I can't deal with how bad things get each day anymore. I won't even bother going to the hospital this time because it will just be the same experience as every other time when I do, and at the end of it I'll be right back on the streets. I don't know how many people are going to even see this but honestly I wouldn't be surprised if nobody does; I wouldn't want to hear my own bullshit either I guess. My mother already is sick of it and so is my own sister who normally sticks up for me. Not to mention I have gone a whole year without my meds and my bad luck always makes sure I don't get up with the doctors office.
It has become very clear to me that God is done with me and this is the end of my life as I know it. I'm done getting my hopes up, done getting excited only to have false hope. I'm just going to cut to the chase and kill myself. Thank you all for putting up with me for so long. Goodbye, Earth, I did NOT enjoy being on this planet just to suffer.
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My family and I have been homeless since October of last year. We have had to resort to parking at gas stations so I can ask for money to survive each day... It is so few and far between. You would not believe how many people tell me no, but not to say that they _can't_ help us, but that they're _not going to._ This happens time and time again, every single day, then when we're unsuccessful we all get back in the car, argue and fight about how hungry we all are, then I end up having a screaming match with my mother and we all go silent for the rest of the car ride. Still in the waiting list for the housing program, still haven't heard anything, I have been praying to God every single day for us to have a house to live in, _NOTHING._ Despite all my praying we are still homeless. Despite my best efforts begging we still don't have a bed to sleep in, only the car. I am now mentally exhausted and burnt out to the point where I don't even have emotion toward it anymore. How can so many people see what you're going through but still just tell you no, not because they _can't_ but because they _won't?_ Even if I was the one being asked, I would still find some way to help, but I guess there is just no place for me on this hateful world. I can't deal with how bad things get each day anymore. I won't even bother going to the hospital this time because it will just be the same experience as every other time when I do, and at the end of it I'll be right back on the streets. I don't know how many people are going to even see this but honestly I wouldn't be surprised if nobody does; I wouldn't want to hear my own bullshit either I guess. My mother already is sick of it and so is my own sister who normally sticks up for me. Not to mention I have gone a whole year without my meds and my bad luck always makes sure I don't get up with the doctors office.
It has become very clear to me that God is done with me and this is the end of my life as I know it. I'm done getting my hopes up, done getting excited only to have false hope. I'm just going to cut to the chase and kill myself. Thank you all for putting up with me for so long. Goodbye, Earth, I did NOT enjoy being on this planet just to suffer.
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