𝙉𝙭𝙞𝙡𝙪𝙫𝙖𝙣 ˖.𖥔 ݁ ˖

Once I get out of this school next year in May, I just want to take the time and mentally thank the people in my school who gave me a portion of their kindness in an entire sea where it feels like I’ve been misunderstood (Maybe I’m just odd, I don’t know).

I want to thank the people who didn’t go right to judging me when other people who clearly don’t know me did.

I want to thank that one person who was patient of me, even if we didn’t talk much it still felt nice that I had someone temporarily to speak with.

I want to thank that one person on the bus who kept letting me sit next to them when I had no clue where to sit. (I mean…yes that’s little but even that means a lot from the lack of friends I don’t have)

I want to thank that amazing counselor that I talked to all of those times, even if I’m still struggling with talking to others, I’m glad I was speaking to them.

And I want to thank that lady from the attendance office who watched me ever since I was a freshman grow up into becoming a Senior.

I might’ve not had a friend group at all, but I’ll definitely focus on some of the good things that happened.

4 days ago (edited) | [YT] | 2

𝙉𝙭𝙞𝙡𝙪𝙫𝙖𝙣 ˖.𖥔 ݁ ˖

I can’t get over this. 😭

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𝙉𝙭𝙞𝙡𝙪𝙫𝙖𝙣 ˖.𖥔 ݁ ˖

I desperately hate how this repetitive cycle continues, I go to school and something extremely akward happens EVERYTIME.

Like, I’m sorry if I appear as a weird person. I barely talk to people and I don’t even know how to hold a conversation AND IT SUCKS. 😪

Like all I just want is a friend but I doubt anyone outside of social media would be willing to talk to me. I wish I could speak to someone about my hyper-fixations…I wish I could find someone to speak about my favorite Anime’s and what other stuff I’m interested in a hearing them speak about themselves too but I CAN’T. I want to feel free to be cringe and do stupid stuff with someone and yet that’s automatically thrown out the roof. 😓

2 weeks ago | [YT] | 2

𝙉𝙭𝙞𝙡𝙪𝙫𝙖𝙣 ˖.𖥔 ݁ ˖

I say I don’t want an online boyfriend / girlfriend because obviously that’s what you’d usually hear a good amount of people say not to do but in my head it’s the only way left for me to receive external validation because I doubt nobody in real life would appreciate me.

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𝙉𝙭𝙞𝙡𝙪𝙫𝙖𝙣 ˖.𖥔 ݁ ˖

2 weeks ago | [YT] | 1

𝙉𝙭𝙞𝙡𝙪𝙫𝙖𝙣 ˖.𖥔 ݁ ˖

I was so disgusted for a second because I saw a fanart Garou X Metal Bat on Pinterest and the I said to myself “Ew, isn’t Garou like in his 20’s?” 💔 And then I searched up his age and he’s like 18 years old, I was actually stunned, I refuse to believe he’s only one year older than me and metal bat, he looks like he’s already an adult. 😪

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𝙉𝙭𝙞𝙡𝙪𝙫𝙖𝙣 ˖.𖥔 ݁ ˖

‪@SHADYD3MON‬ , I searched through to web and found some other verified websites for you to report your cyber bullying incident to, or some crisis hotlines you can actually speak to counslers on (The links you can actually click on are in the comment section)

I tried to see If I could report your incident on the first one but thier asking for personal information so I think it’s best for you do do it.

https://www.ic3.gov (Internet Crime Complaint Center - IC3)

https://www.esafety.gov.au/report/forms (E safety , only if you live in Australia)

https://tips.fbi.gov/home (Federal Bureau of investigation)

https://www.stompoutbullying.org/helpchat (Stomp Out Bullying / Crisis line)

Numbers you can call // 0300-323-0169 or 0845-225-5787

https://www.crisistextline.org/topics/bullying/ (Crisis Text Line)

Hope you get justify buddy, you and nobody else desearves this. 💙✊

1 month ago | [YT] | 1

𝙉𝙭𝙞𝙡𝙪𝙫𝙖𝙣 ˖.𖥔 ݁ ˖

Bro Zantetsu’s birthday was two days ago, how did I forget that fast? 🥀

1 month ago (edited) | [YT] | 4

𝙉𝙭𝙞𝙡𝙪𝙫𝙖𝙣 ˖.𖥔 ݁ ˖

‪@Yourlocalnerd-ig‬ Here’s my fanfic of my Woman in the yard OC! His name is Damian and he’s kind of inspired by Chigiri.

𝙎𝙤𝙣𝙜 𝙋𝙡𝙖𝙮𝙞𝙣𝙜:

"Bury Me Low - 8 graves"

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Damian woke up earlier than his Mother and two siblings, he cleansed and dressed himself up. A baby blue sweater with a star placed in the middle, blue Jean pants with his yellow converse shoes, and his long curly hair tied in a ponytail with his bangs leaning on the front. Half of the time people at his school would mistake him for a being a female, he wasn’t really offended but found it entertaining how people tend to get his gender confused, he didn’t mind feeling pretty.

He was sitting next to his father’s grave, a silent moment of thought and mild grief. He felt a sense of ease that he can speak and connect to someone that’s close to him, even without words needing to be said specifically.

His mother told him that he died in a car crash after a date night with her, and that he was the one driving while his mother was in the car seat.

Things never really felt the same since then, Damian has been struggling with nightmares, and problems related with trauma, he acts as if nothing ever effects him when deep down something does.

Damian didn’t truly care if he died any-day, if anything, he could feel at peace, freedom from his nightmares, freedom the thoughts that mentally and physically ached him.

He returned right when everybody inside was starting to wake up in his home. He casually turns on his phone to see if his friend texted him, he clicked on messages and turns out the Wi-Fi was out again.

It was a bright summer morning in the country-side, he didn’t really have much of anything important to do today.

His little brother Taylor came out of the hallway.

“Yo Damian, where were you?” Taylor asked

“I was out visiting Dad’s grave.” Damian said.

“Come on man, you could’ve at least asked me to come.” Taylor said with a pout.

“Next time, alright?” Damian said with a grin.

Taylor rolled his eyes in a goofy-looking manner, he then spoke up again.

“The WI-fI is out again.” Taylor said as he grabbed some food.

“Yeah, noticed.” Damian said as he set his bag down.

“Ugh…now I can’t play my video games.” Taylor said with a groan.

“I’m sure you can spend one day without playing your shooting games. Besides, maybe we need our eyes off the screen for a while, just sit here in the farmhouse and chill, you know?” Damian said

“I guess you’re right.” Taylor said, he started to put some food into the bowl.

“Hey, why are you feeding Charlie mashed potatoes? He’s not supposed to eat that.” Damian said.

“We don’t have anymore dog food for him, we can’t just let him starve.” Taylor said.

Damian sighed, shaking his head.

“Well, don’t come to me when Mom gets on you about it., he’s gonna vomit.” Damian said.

Damian walked to his little sister’s room, she was laying in her little fort that she made out of her own blankets, reading a story to her little penguin.

“Morning Annie, slept well?” Damian said with a small smile.

“Mhm!” Annie said as she nodded. She looked up from the story she was reading, it was the same one she liked looking at every time she woke up, sometime he would read it to her when their Mother had moments where she didn’t have the energy to do anything at all.

Damian ruffled her hair, something silly that he tends to do with his little siblings a lot. He then walked out of the room.

He walked over and went to his Mother’s room to see if she was doing okay, he knocked.

“Come in.” She said.

Damian opened the door, he saw his mother sitting on the bed, grabbing her crutches to hold onto.

Ever since that accident she’s been more upset, his poor mother just wished to be put out of her misery everyday.

“Morning, ma.” Damian said calmly.

“Morning Damian.” Ramona said.

Ramona tried to get up, struggling a bit.

“Woah, woah! Hold on, let me help you.” Damian said as he rushed to help her out.

Damian carefully gave her support to stand on her crutches, it took about a minute to do so.

“Thanks sweetheart, that’s really nice of you.” Ramona said as she made a small smile.

“Of course, anything for you. I just wanted you to be careful.” Damian said with empathy.

Damian looked at his mother’s phone that was lying on the bed, noticing her camera roll was still showing on the screen.

“Hey, you’re still watching that video of you and Dad?” Damian asked.

She stopped to look back at her phone for a moment.

“I sure have.” Ramona said.

“I know…it’s hard. I’m sorry.” Damian said with a pang of guilt.

Ramona put a hand on his shoulder, looking directly at her oldest son.

“It’s not your fault that any of this happened Damian, remember that.” Ramona said.

Damian nodded, the sadness he felt made him blame himself for a lot of things lately, he grew silent.

2 months ago | [YT] | 1

𝙉𝙭𝙞𝙡𝙪𝙫𝙖𝙣 ˖.𖥔 ݁ ˖

I just found out that Zantetsu’s birthday is on Halloween, maybe I could make a Halloween fanart of him.

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