Crusader Actual

Hello Crusaders!

I'm sorry for the radio silence. Pull up a chair, and lets have a quick chat (it's going to be a wall of text so probably not quick).

I am regretful in saying that I jumped the gun with the announcement of my return and the trailer I posted...Holy crap like 4 months ago?? Yeah, I'm sorry to keep y'all waiting and not sticking to my word and releasing new content. While I could make the argument "soon" is a subjective term, I did fully believe I was going to be able to jump back into content creation. I was sorely mistaken. But, there is a somewhat justifiable reason for why that was. There were good intentions but they were fouled by a poor execution.

You see, since December I decided to embark on a career transition. As many of you have inquired about (and correctly guessed), I have been involved on the government side for work for the entirety of my adult career. I hit a breaking point towards the end of 2023 and realized I was no longer passionate about it, I was burnt out, and just all around didn't enjoy it, for a multitude of reasons. Essentially, I just wasn't feeling fulfilled. So, I made the decision to aggressively pursue a way into an industry I have been extremely passionate about all my life - the video game industry. This was a rather rigorous and time consuming process. I had a lot of learning to do and needed to re-wire my brain to a totally new way of thinking, and basically learn an entirely new and totally different industry compared to what I'm used to. As you can tell, government related work and video games are just a tad bit different.

That's all I was doing essentially for 6 months. Fast forward to April when I announced my return. I thought I was in a good spot to have time to work on my youtube channel and produce content. Well, a few weeks later many interview opportunities rolled in and I landed a rather senior position at a dream company of mine within the video game industry. As you can imagine I was extremely excited (and very relieved because I was starting to lose hope that this transition would be successful and every day I was second guessing this decision).

So, after accepting this role, I had a lot to do. There was prep and research to be done to make sure I was coming in at least knowing some things and not being totally useless on day one. l had to up and move to another state in another part of the country, and then starting a new position and everyday experiencing a fire hose of information as I learned this new job in a new industry and attempting to keep my head above water.

So...That's where I have been and why I have been so quiet. I am exposing a bit of my personal life here, while not totally specific, which I just won't do, but I do believe I owed you some sort of an explanation.

If you don't care about any of that, which I wouldn't blame you for, let's talk about the way forward right now. I made the mistake of grossly misidentifying a specific date and time where I think I could make videos, so I won't do that again. I will say I am still interested in making videos and covering Amber (even though a lot is happening in gorlworld that I think is incredibly stupid and Amber is a dumb as ever and if I have to hear her blame her BPD or whatever the fuck one more time for her stupid ass behavior and say how she's going to get therapy, which we all know she wont, I'm going to rub my face on concrete until there's nothing left), I just don't know if I'm going to be able to do that any time in 2024 due to just how incredibly busy I am with my new career and essentially new life in a new area.

This isn't an excuse to just keep, essentially, leading you all on, it's just the reality. I've loved making content, and more importantly, I loved interacting with all of you and the community we created together. I so badly want to get back to that, I just simply don't have the time at the moment. I hope you all understand. I want to be better at being involved in my discord, but to be honest I waited so long to address all of this I was a little hesitant, just because I knew I wronged y'all essentially, which was not the right decision. Bad news never gets better with time. I should have been just upfront from the get go. While I don't believe content creators always are obligated to let their communities know of happenings in their life, I think in some circumstances they should.

That all being said, I want to be more involved in discord at least, but I just can't feasibly make an accurate assessment of if I'll be able to make new videos, or stream, any time this year. I'm hopeful I can, but just can't say for sure. If I do, it likely won't be announced, it'll just pop up in your notifications one day.

All that being said - thank you to anyone who still reads these, thank you to anyone who still supports the channel and has asked for my return, y'all are truly fantastic and it makes me feel very warm and fuzzy knowing a lot of you still care and want my return - and I am honored to make you feel that way and that you enjoyed the dumb shit that I've created. I hope to do it all again. And finally, thank you to my fucking amazing mods, who honestly, I've shamefully left in the dark as much as you all, yet they continue to maintain the discord and help keep the community alive.

Thanks for reading this - I love you all and I hope you're doing well and enjoying laughing at Amber's stupidity as much as I am.

Lets chat in discord soon.

Much love,
-Alex

2 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 274

Crusader Actual

WELL HELLO CRUSADERS!

I apologize...I got lost at the...milk...store...But I'm back! ...and it only took 9 months!

No, but seriously, before anyone mentions anything about my poor timing and how I'm posting this on April Fools Day, rest assured...It's true...I'm coming back.

A lot has happened these last 9 months. A lot of GOOD things, but there have been a lot of changes.

I'll discuss those with you all at a later date, but just know for now I am officially BACK on YouTube.

I've been watching from the shadows, as I mentioned in my last livestream, and have been keeping up with Amber from a distance (honestly I've been more invested in KingCobraJFS because the BOY is having quite the saga right now) and it seems not much has changed, minus a change in location.

Moving forward...I can guarantee more videos SOON. I'm hoping to at least post a 'teaser' video in the next week or so, and then we'll go from there. What I can't promise is consistency...but we will cross that bridge when we get there because I'm in the process of ordering parts to build a new computer.

SO, that being said. I'm glad to be back. I've missed you all terribly. Special shout out to all the dedicated discord members who kept it WARM for me in my absence...and continued to post feet pics for some reason? Weirdos.

If you jumped ship and left the discord, have no fear...We will happily welcome you back into the Crusader Army here: discord.gg/bRBS54BMvb

We'll chat soon.

(special thanks to Pookie for the awesome meme)

-Alex

2 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 388

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Greetings Crusaders!

I write you all from the airport where I just landed back in the United States! Have to catch one more flight and then I’ll be home!

I’ve missed you all severely and can’t wait to get back to making content and streaming!

I was going to stream Sunday, July 2nd, however, my wife and I are exhausted from our 20 days of traveling, walking, eating, drinking, clubbing, getting married, etc.... so we need a few days to relax and spend time with our kitties and catching up on sleep :). SO, I have decided, since I am a loud, obnoxious, barrel-chested American, I will do a live stream on Tuesday, July 4th, America Independence Day, at 1 PM EST! Where I will catch up with all of you and of course our obese Kentucky Queen - I have not kept up with her at all over the last 20 days, so I have no idea what’s going on. Can't wait to see you all on Tuesday!

Super excited to talk to you all again! Oh yeah, in case you forgot, I got married in Poland last week! Here are a couple of pictures to tide you all over until Tuesday! I will post more on my Instagram in the next few days! Hope to see you all at the live stream!

-Alex

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3 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 365

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Buongiorno from the Amalfi Coast, Crusaders! Next stop, Roma! Italy has been absolutely breathtaking so far!

I wonder how many of these Countries Amberlynn Reid can find on a map...hmm...Also, the number of stairs here would be a huge no-go for our gorl. One wrong step and that dangleen ankle would never recover.

3 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 309

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Bonjour crusaders!

Figured I’d give a dainty little update from my travels! Spent the last few days in Paris and now I’m in Saint Tropez, France! Enjoying the sun and water! Miss you all!

In classic Crusader fashion, a close friend gifted us a bottle of Dom Perignon! (Don’t tell anyone but it tasted just like any other champagne, but the gift was highly appreciated).

Think Amber will ever travel abroad? Yeah, you’re right…probably not.

3 years ago | [YT] | 257

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Good day Crusaders!

Just wanted to provide some insight for the month of June in the event you’ve been naughty and haven’t seen my previous livestreams or videos.

My wife and I are in the process of moving into the new house we bought and then this Friday (June 9th) we leave for Europe for our wedding ceremony/honeymoon. I will be gone until June 30th.

So, most likely you won’t see any content from me until the beginning of July - which sucks cause I know ambers starting to do her desperate money grabs again by doing livestreams.

If you’re feeling a lack of Crusader in your life please join my discord and hang out with all of us, we’re a few members shy of 400 and the discord is a great place to hang out and chat with everyone including me!

I’ll miss you all and will see you all in about a month! Here is some beautiful art drawn by one of the community members known as “pie-lord” in my discord. This art piece is a sneak peek of what I’ll be doing in my next video upon my return.

Discord link: discord.gg/ZK2Vedbq

3 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 266

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For the US folks - Happy Memorial Day!

All gave some... some gave all. A very heartfelt thank you from myself to those who have served and are currently serving our Nation - thank you for your service. I highly encourage everyone to take a moment and remember those who gave their lives in defense of our country so that we may enjoy the freedoms we have today. We will never forget you.

"Americans may not only pay tribute to our honored dead but also unite in prayer for success in our search for a just and lasting peace." — John F. Kennedy, Memorial Day 1962

3 years ago | [YT] | 131

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DONT MISS THE EPIC SHOWDOWN!! Tune in to my Sunday live stream on May 21st at 1:00 PM EST for AMBERLYNN REID JEOPARDY. Watch in awe as galaxy brained individuals such ‪@TheNarcAlert‬, Penny Royalities, Paige the Human, and special guest from the community, Carina, face off to prove who has absolutely no life uhhh I mean... who knows the most about everyone's favorite obese Youtuber, Amberlynn Reid! DONT MISS HISTORY IN THE MAKING!

3 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 88

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Sorry for the abrupt end to the stream! My power through the house completely surged out and everything shut down....Youtube is being weird and not giving me the option to do another stream...So I'm going to have to call it for now...

Thank you to everyone for being there today - I had a lot of fun and hope you did too. Thank you to the mod team for doing their thing and thank you to all the Noble Knights as well as all the generous donators, especially Alex with their colossal donation. I really appreciate it! You guys are the best.

See you all in the next video! And again, sorry for the abrupt end to the stream...not sure what that was all about. Hope y'all have a great rest of your weekend!

3 years ago | [YT] | 104

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Greetings Crusaders!

There is a large wall of text incoming, so pull up a chair, stay a while, and listen, and let's have a quick chat.

If you have been present in my previous live streams and/or watched my latest video then you know I have a lot going on in my personal life right now. My wife and I just bought a house and will be moving around mid-May. On top of that, our wedding in Europe is happening in June and we will be collectively doing our honeymoon as well. This essentially means I will be rather scarce for the next two months. I also have some potentially big changes coming in my career in the next few months, which, depending on how that shakes out, could completely alter my continued presence on YouTube.

On top of this, I have been disappointed with the trends of the channel over the last two months. The growth has slowed significantly compared to what I am used to and I have found myself getting increasingly frustrated and confused with how the algorithm works and what/if I'm doing something wrong with my content which is contributing to fewer views and thinking my channel is on the decline.

I've told y'all from the beginning that our community is the most important thing to me. This remains true, however, I would be a liar, to the extent that Amber is a liar, if I said I didn't enjoy watching the subscriber numbers go up and the views go up. I've been told youtube ebbs and flows and maybe that's true, maybe I'm just in a slump right now. However, I am not enjoying reacting to Amber. I feel as though it stunts my creativity and is just, frankly boring, and low effort. I want to continue to push myself creatively...That's why I started a YouTube channel initially. I want to branch out more. And yes, it will be frustrating because the views will be low, because people only want to see me react to Amber, and even then those views are down. So, at this point, I feel I have nothing left to lose. I would rather take lower views and be proud of the content I produce rather than receive a lot of views for lazy content that I don't enjoy making.

I'm wanting to try a bunch of bold new things on my channel. The first of which is doing some more gaming-related things. In my last live I mentioned working on a video game retrospective. To be honest with you, I love video game retrospectives, they're some of my favorite types of youtube content. When I'm traveling and away from my wife, I frequently fall asleep listening to them. I want to give that a shot and push my abilities to create something new, rather than some lazy reaction content where I just roast some insignificant obese Kentucky woman, along with 100 other reaction channels doing the same thing that frequently beat me to the latest Amber content since for a lot of them, YouTube is their primary job. This is something I can't keep up with, not while I work a full-time, high-stress, and high-demand job. This isn't a jab at them, it's just the fact that I will never be able to keep up with the Amberverse in a timely manner because I will never be on top of Amber's latest uploads as soon as they occur due to my job and other aspects of my life. I want to put my effort and limited free time into something I enjoy and something challenging. I feel so rushed doing Amber content, mainly because of myself, that I need to hurry and react to a video and put it out so I can keep up with the algorithm. That's not fair to y'all, content-wise, and not fair to me because it's undue stress for a hobby I am supposed to enjoy.

I'm not posting this as a "feel sorry for me" or anything like that. I simply want to give you all a heads up that I want to try new things, and the thought process behind the why. Y'all deserve to know when things change, and why I want to make these changes... because after all, without all of you, I wouldn't have this fantastic community, or this YouTube Channel. For those here strictly for Amber, I still intend on reacting to her here an there...maybe once every few weeks or when she does something collosally stupid again, like saying Stevie Wonder isn't blind...but I won't be going out of my way to react to her recent videos as soon as they release, because, lets be honest, she's not doing anything or going anywhere.

Thank you for taking the time to read this, if you did. More content to come soon, but maybe in a different form. I will still continue to Live Stream at least once a week simply because those bring me a lot of joy and I love being able to interact with all of you live - they're so much fun.

Talk to y'all soon.

-Alex

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