I should have updated you all a while back and I apologize for that. For the last month my computer has been having difficulties, and unfortunately after many tech visits and trouble shoots, I have to buy a new graphics card and power supply. Which will set me back a lot on money I don’t have. Work has been hectic and my time management hasn’t been the best, thank you for sticking by me everyone. I appreciate you all. I’m ordering the computer parts tonight, so hopefully once I fix my computer I can immediately sit down and record for you guys.
Hey all, gosh it's been awhile. I just wanted to make this community post to finally address my absence. To everybody who was concerned and left comments, I have seen them, and I thank you so very much. That means a lot to me. And I apologize for not responding and causing some of ya'll to worry more than you needed to. Regardless I'm not sure how to really explain myself, a lot of it would be excuses and other nonsense, but Life has been certainly something in the last five months. If you Have any additional questions leave a comment and I'll happily reply to you.
A little over a year and a half ago I went through probably one of the hardest ordeals in my life. I'm happy to be past that now, even if it still hurts like mad, I can't express how lost I was for a long time. That was around the time I first started recording the stay night let's play too. Since then I've dealt with a lot of my own issues just bloated and even worse. Depression and anxiety were at their peaks for me. Even while going to therapy I struggled and struggled, to be honest it was really really hard. The last five months amidst a lot of other things I went through another spell where I was nearly consumed with my depression. I was merely focusing on going to work and paying the bills I needed to, when I wasn't doing that I'd just sleep or watch YouTube. Sometimes I'd just do nothing even. I'm still not over the past, i'm still dealing with the stages of grief itself. The end of the year was filled with scare after scare, when it wasn't the lack of money, it was the decline of my Mother's Health, and mine mentally. Heck, a month ago I got covid again. And spent another two weeks completely regressed.
There were days I didn't want to work, days I wanted to sleep and just do nothing else. It was scary, especially at night time. I hope this doesn't come across as an edgy tumblr post, but this is really just a lite explanation of some of the feelings I've had. There were days I'd attempt to record, to be productive. But I couldn't find myself able to do remotely anything productive. It was just Work, Sleep, Eat, do nothing for a while. There were times I felt undeserving of many things, love, and even the support of everyone on this channel. Really that's just nonsense, but sometimes you can trick yourself into believing it when you're just so low. I'm taking everything one day at a time, continuing therapy, and trying to come to terms with the past and let go. Just, Let Go. That's something I really need to do. If you've read to this point thank you. Just know that I appreciate it, and I will never stop wanting to create Entertaining videos for you all.
What's next for the Channel? Well, I have good news. A new video is actually ready, it'll be up soon. For real this time LMAO. After that I really do plan on at least having a few videos a week. I can't promise daily, but there could be little spurts like that if I get ahead. I have a lot of projects planned, plenty of ones that aren't just let's plays. Such as longform analysis videos. You know, those 8 hour YouTube essays of various media? yeah I'm gonna try and make some of those for Fate. God The nasuverse is still holding me in it's claws.
Much love to everybody, and I hope you have a wonderful day, evening, or night wherever it is that you are.
Just wanted to let everyone know that videos are finally coming back! I have a lot of explaining to do for why I was gone so long, be it getting the virus which is a no no word on YouTube, Work, Family drama etc. But We'll be back with the bad endings of the rest of Fate! And then Hollow Ataraxia and Fate/Extra!!
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I should have updated you all a while back and I apologize for that. For the last month my computer has been having difficulties, and unfortunately after many tech visits and trouble shoots, I have to buy a new graphics card and power supply. Which will set me back a lot on money I don’t have. Work has been hectic and my time management hasn’t been the best, thank you for sticking by me everyone. I appreciate you all. I’m ordering the computer parts tonight, so hopefully once I fix my computer I can immediately sit down and record for you guys.
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Hey all, gosh it's been awhile. I just wanted to make this community post to finally address my absence. To everybody who was concerned and left comments, I have seen them, and I thank you so very much. That means a lot to me. And I apologize for not responding and causing some of ya'll to worry more than you needed to. Regardless I'm not sure how to really explain myself, a lot of it would be excuses and other nonsense, but Life has been certainly something in the last five months. If you Have any additional questions leave a comment and I'll happily reply to you.
A little over a year and a half ago I went through probably one of the hardest ordeals in my life. I'm happy to be past that now, even if it still hurts like mad, I can't express how lost I was for a long time. That was around the time I first started recording the stay night let's play too. Since then I've dealt with a lot of my own issues just bloated and even worse. Depression and anxiety were at their peaks for me. Even while going to therapy I struggled and struggled, to be honest it was really really hard. The last five months amidst a lot of other things I went through another spell where I was nearly consumed with my depression. I was merely focusing on going to work and paying the bills I needed to, when I wasn't doing that I'd just sleep or watch YouTube. Sometimes I'd just do nothing even. I'm still not over the past, i'm still dealing with the stages of grief itself. The end of the year was filled with scare after scare, when it wasn't the lack of money, it was the decline of my Mother's Health, and mine mentally. Heck, a month ago I got covid again. And spent another two weeks completely regressed.
There were days I didn't want to work, days I wanted to sleep and just do nothing else. It was scary, especially at night time. I hope this doesn't come across as an edgy tumblr post, but this is really just a lite explanation of some of the feelings I've had. There were days I'd attempt to record, to be productive. But I couldn't find myself able to do remotely anything productive. It was just Work, Sleep, Eat, do nothing for a while. There were times I felt undeserving of many things, love, and even the support of everyone on this channel. Really that's just nonsense, but sometimes you can trick yourself into believing it when you're just so low. I'm taking everything one day at a time, continuing therapy, and trying to come to terms with the past and let go. Just, Let Go. That's something I really need to do. If you've read to this point thank you. Just know that I appreciate it, and I will never stop wanting to create Entertaining videos for you all.
What's next for the Channel? Well, I have good news. A new video is actually ready, it'll be up soon. For real this time LMAO. After that I really do plan on at least having a few videos a week. I can't promise daily, but there could be little spurts like that if I get ahead. I have a lot of projects planned, plenty of ones that aren't just let's plays. Such as longform analysis videos. You know, those 8 hour YouTube essays of various media? yeah I'm gonna try and make some of those for Fate. God The nasuverse is still holding me in it's claws.
Much love to everybody, and I hope you have a wonderful day, evening, or night wherever it is that you are.
- Hope
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New Hollow Episode is coming. Stay tuned.
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Just wanted to let everyone know that videos are finally coming back! I have a lot of explaining to do for why I was gone so long, be it getting the virus which is a no no word on YouTube, Work, Family drama etc. But We'll be back with the bad endings of the rest of Fate! And then Hollow Ataraxia and Fate/Extra!!
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