•Amaiku-Chan• - Invidious

I hate Halloween

4 years ago | [YT] | 8

hello hi hi

Lemme just write my thoughts lately out here cuz no one mentioned in this will probably see this (if they do, ok idrc I'm not a poothay)

ANYWAYS,
I miss moon, I miss being friends with her and how much fun we had tbh, I don't really tell ppl about it because what destroyed the friendship was kinda my fault ig?
And I do really miss my old friendgroups, all friends I have at the moment are separate so there's no really friendgroup (I have a friendgroup irl not online tho)

Ame, moon, shira, yasu, lilac, me
That friendship was so iconic, I'm still REALLY good friends with shira and lilac but the rest ehhhh

Tbh I kinda cry when I remember the old times and how much fun we had, but I know it can never be the same cause everyone has different interests and personalities now considering this all happened in 2020 and it's now 2021.

Okay but moon(or moons friends idk if any of y'all will see this anytime soon or now) I do really miss you moon and it's kinda weird how I've been having dreams about u? Dreams like us being best friends and having fun and all. Everytime I stop thinking about you, I get a dream about u and the circle repeats, it's kinda painful.

I honestly don't know if u miss me or even remember me or even want to hear about me but if u do see this now you know.

Even tho I was in a really bad state in 2020 and am definitely better now I miss 2020 a lot. September to December was such a bad time for me, lost moon, lilac, Emma, ame, yasu in such a small time really messed me up for some months and the only ppl I was still friends with was Jess honestly, I only had Jess for MONTHS which is.. damn

Or remember the song "heather"? I used to listen to it thinking about ame and tbh it's so ironic that ame left me on 3rd of December ('I still remember 3rd of December')

I know everyone I knew back then has changed, so have I (definitely for the better) and I'm way more accepting now and less dramatic-ish? I was 12 after all.

But I'm really glad for my current friends lilac, Jess, shira, ary, James, red, maoli, Larissa, nai and more
They've really helped me in tough situations and I love them for that<3

Anyways that's all, I've never really vented publicly before but knowing this channel is dead n' all it doesn't really matter.

Also, if u weren't mentioned in this post please don't comment thanks<3

4 years ago | [YT] | 13

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•Amaiku-Chan•

HAPPY TWO YEAR FRIENDSHIP ANNIVERSARY!!!<33 ‪@yukishimamiya1391‬

I'm really happy to have met you and you're one of the few people who stayed with me<3 I love you soosososoos much no homo💕💕💕💕💕😩