Icoso

maybe it's time for a goobulator update... stay tuned (and stay silly!)

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Icoso

who up almost hitting they 70k subscribers?

1 week ago | [YT] | 637

Icoso

It’s World Mental Health Day, which means it’s time for an oddly deep and personal message from your favourite 20-year-old Australian gamedev YouTuber and professional Mariokarter 💚

Mental health has been a conniving companion for me throughout my life. I’ve dealt with a fair amount of anxiety and depression, and for a long time I chalked it up to the growing pains of becoming an adult. But the more I’ve learned, the more I’ve realised that mental health shows up in all sorts of ways - some obvious, some not, and it can affect people very differently. Not all battles are visible, and neither are the victories, so I’ve been striving to celebrate the small wins in my life! It can be scary to feel too many things at once, but something I’m wary of is when I don’t feel much at all. A lot of my healing has mainly just come from… life, to be honest. Going through it, learning from my mistakes, and slowly figuring out what kind of person I am.

One thing I’ve been reflecting on lately is the gravity of making YouTube content, even as a smaller creator. I’m incredibly grateful for the response to the first Goober video - it was crazy sauce seeing so many people connect with it! It’s also been really cool to think about how YouTube could be something more sustainable going forward. That said, some comments I’ve been receiving are a bit… intense! I know most people mean well, and I try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt. But, it’s easy to feel overwhelmed by expectations, especially when these videos take months to make. So, part of my journey is detaching myself from the pressure of internet strangers and instead work on projects that I feel genuinely passionate about!

In addition to YouTube, my time is also eaten up by my job and full-time study at uni (oh how I love attaching grades to my self-worth!). I’m learning to pace myself, to focus on meaningful projects, and to trust that the right people will stick around ^-^ I'd also like to highlight the strength it takes to ask for help when struggling with mental wellbeing. I think it takes a lot of maturity and self-confidence to learn how to speak vulnerably about these topics, which is something I also hope to get better at. I'm happy to see a shift towards normalising speaking up about our struggles and how to create support systems, because it's not always easy to notice what truly helps us.

On a brighter note, I’ve been finding things that *do* make me happy (cats) and distancing myself from those that *don’t* (the state of the world tbh… o_O). I’ve also been noticing just how incredible my friends and family are, and making space to appreciate them (because I’m very lucky to have them in my life!)

So, if you’ve made it through my incoherent ramblings, thank you! Mental health *always* matters, so I hope today brings you something to smile about. Life is simply too weird for misery, so stay kind, stay curious, and stay silly :) 💚

2 weeks ago (edited) | [YT] | 634

Icoso

it's official: quick side tangents are a recurring segment!!!!!!!!

3 weeks ago (edited) | [YT] | 528

Icoso

The happiest birthday to the one, the only, @TheShelfman!! 🎉 He's a fellow indie game dev and very cool guy, go check out his videos 😎👉👉

youtube.com/@theshelfman

3 weeks ago (edited) | [YT] | 152

Icoso

this week's editing highlights

(without context, of course)

4 weeks ago | [YT] | 695

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1 month ago | [YT] | 133

Icoso

today's editing highlights

(i'm losing my mind, but having so much fun!!)

1 month ago (edited) | [YT] | 674

Icoso

Here are some awesome (sauce) screenshots from Goober Video 2 so far! :D

Editing is well underway, and even though it'll still take a couple months, I'm happy with the progress! 😄

I've been working hard on this video every day (among uni, work, keeping myself alive, etc. etc.), and so I hope it turns out well and that y'all'll enjoy it :>

1 month ago (edited) | [YT] | 583

Icoso

i think about this once a week :P

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