Xin Asuwa

I bought this Bass Guitar for cheap in the middle of the night in Facebook marketplace. It’s a yamaha as well. I regret none 🙏

1 day ago | [YT] | 549

Xin Asuwa

My brain is still processing what just happened. 😵‍💫 I never in my entire thought I would ever see the time that my stream would actually reach that much people. I don’t understand why a lot people watch me as well, I’m not even singer really. Thank you so much guys seriously! I’ll make sure to brag to my mom what happened today. Thank you for all the nice words as well. I am so shocked and so freaking grateful rn 😭 ❤️🥹

1 week ago | [YT] | 1,221

Xin Asuwa

I unironically like my bench more than my gaming chair, it’s very 10/10 100%

1 week ago | [YT] | 1,001

Xin Asuwa

It’s been 7-8 years since I started chasing my dreams. Back then, I was so miserable. I hated what my life was becoming. It felt like I was a zombie, doing a the same routine that I don't even care about. But I had to do it because we aren't rich and I had to do my best all the time just to survive. But I kept thinking that if I went down the road I was taking, I'll be miserable until I die. So I started thinking like a crazy person. If I’m going to die anyway, I might as well do the things that make me happy.



I started learning how to make music. From producing instrumentals, to recording, to releasing it online. Freelance here and there, to earn money to survive and upgrade my recording equipment. But that didn’t really work out for me. I was too fragile to handle the harsh opinions in the music industry, and I started becoming unhappy again.



So I decided to start making Youtube content because I thought it was fun. At first I would only remix VTuber songs, but eventually tried streaming because of chat pressure. My computer back then wasn't even built for what I was doing. I had an old gen i3, 4gb ram with no graphics card, so you can just imagine the lag. But I realize I was really happy when I'm streaming.



So I took it to a different level. Using my old channel, I applied to a VTuber company, which I was accepted into and they were the people that made me Xin. I didn’t even have the pc for it so I borrowed money from my sibling to buy a good enough pc. I had to pay that debt every month for years.



But because of my life choices, people that were once very close to me made fun of me, berated me, and mocked my dreams. I watched those people lose respect towards me. It hurt a lot. I still remember every snicker, every time I was the punchline of a joke. I remember everything and I just endured it for years. That was the reason why I stopped hanging out with people, I barely left my room then because I was so scared of being judge.



Anyway, back to VTubing. I was only gonna try livestreaming as an actual VTuber for a year and if didn't work out, I was gonna quit. But then that company close after a year, I got to keep my channel and all my assets. And I continued streaming. There were so many times I wanted to quit because my viewers kept decreasing. Like going from 20 to 10 to less than 10, it was terrifying. But then I started doing more music streams and for some reason it got so many viewers. And that's why I am still here rn. I am forever in debt to all the people that support me, I really am grateful from the bottom of my heart. Because of my recent streams, I finally had resources to distance myself from all the people that cause me hurt. Now lived on my own, and I am happy.



I'm writing this for my future self and maybe for people who have dreams too. I’m not sure if anyone will find this inspiring, but I just want to ask you something: if the world ended in a week, what would you do?
Because if there’s something you truly want to do, just do it.

I turned out great, and I’m a dumbass so you can absolutely do it too.
And for my future self reading this: don’t lose sight of your goals. Stay grounded. Check your ego, and always be grateful to the people who have been there for you.

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2 weeks ago | [YT] | 1,402

Xin Asuwa

Today, we reached 2 milestones in 1 stream. We reached 25k subs and we broke through 400 live viewers. 😭 This was legit one of my most insane stream. Thank you so much, I swear I owe everything I have right now to you guys. I can’t believe that a couple of months ago, this channel was dying (u can even check if u scroll down my livestreams, how my views just suddenly spiked up). I am so grateful that I get to do my passion and you guys enjoy it as well. Seriously guys THANK YOU!! 😭😭😭😭

3 weeks ago | [YT] | 818

Xin Asuwa

I'll find a BF and you'll see, you're gonna eat your words chat!

4 weeks ago | [YT] | 250

Xin Asuwa

I am live playing REPO rn!

1 month ago | [YT] | 277

Xin Asuwa

I'm gaming later with ‪@LubarVT‬ , I'm gonna be live on my Twitch and my other youtuber channel. Stop by if you wanna hang out!

1 month ago | [YT] | 62