What's the point of exhausting myself and pushing myself beyond my limits when it's too fucking late? I had every chance to take the plunge and become the person I wanted to be and I blew it every. Single. Fucking. Time.
Why should I pour so much time and effort into drawings, stories, games, and animations when nobody's ever going to fucking see them? Why should I exhaust myself for nothing? Nobody knows who I am, nobody cares what I have to say, and everything I make is mediocre beyond belief.
Nobody cares. Nobody cares about me. Nobody knows what I make or eagerly looks forward to the next thing. You know why? Because they're too busy looking at works by REAL artists who aren't utter failures at adulting who can make amazing shit all by themselves and get millions of views. What do I have? Nothing. Zilch. Nada. Jack fucking shit. My audience is nonexistent and I will never find it because everything I make is horrible and every single website hates artists with a burning passion and do everything in their power to suppress them. We live in a fucking society. I blew every single shot I had at success because I waited too long and didn't take a single step on the path to my dreams because I was too busy crying like a little bitch.
I might as well just delete every single account I have on every single website. Why waste precious bandwidth on leaving all my worthless crap up when nobody's ever seen it and nobody ever will? I already deleted my own website because it's pointless in keeping it up when nobody in their right mind would ever hire me, let alone even know I exist. Why even try and make my mark on the internet when not a single solitary soul even cares? Did I even exist at all when not a single thing I have ever created has ever been successful or ever resonated with anybody in any meaningful way? The most success I've ever had in life is posting stupid shitposts and getting no response beyond "haha funny meme" before it too falls to the wayside. What a joke. WHAT AN ABSOLUTE FUCKING JOKE.
YTPs, games, fanfics, stories, storyboards, NSFW fetish crap, hundreds of creations I birthed unto the world, seen by zero because I am a worthless, insignificant insect competing with thousands of other insects who are better than me at everything and have a massive advantage because their lives don't suck and they actually have the skill and the bravery to go forward while I wasted every single opportunity I had to make something of myself and collab with others and now it's gone. It's all fucking gone. What a sick fucking joke. Why do I even bother pretending anymore when that ship sailed long ago? I'm better off just quitting this stupid pipe dream and devoting my life to my new job and living a mundane, unspectacular life of obscurity like the rest of the common folk. I will die having made no mark on this world and I will be forgotten by all because everything I did was insignificant and uninteresting. If I am remembered at all it will be as a sniveling coward who had nothing but ideas and none of the drive, skill, or passion to actually realize them.
"Here lies SuperSuck64, he never did anything of value or interest."
I still want to finish it but all the shit happening at Warner and just the world in general is just depressing me and I don't feel motivated to work on it right now.
Really just don't feel like doing much of anything nowadays because my drive and confidence is so low and I can barely focus on anything anymore. I've got like 12 other things I'm trying to work on but I just don't feel like doing any of it because I don't even see the point anymore. Everything just feels like a waste.
I'm sorry to have disappointed you all. I just really don't know what to even do at this point. I've come too far to just abandon this entirely, but it's probably going to be a long time until I actually finish it because of what a huge workload it's ended up being and I haven't been able to find time to work on it.
I don't know man, all this stuff used to be so easy for me. I just don't know what to even do anymore.
Seriously considering deleting this channel since apparently YouTube has decided "post new videos every day and never swear or do anything to upset our investors and give us all your personal info or die".
Fuck this fucking website. This is totalitarianism at its finest. I wish every single CEO would die in a fire because this disgusting obsession with turning everything into "content" is destroying the fucking world.
So I've been thinking... My vid is taking a long time to come out, it's REALLY long, and my issue with the copyright strike system is that it might be too long to the point YT decides it's not fair use. Would you guys mind if I posted the video in multiple parts? That way you guys will have something to tide you over while I work on the final stretch and I'll have a slightly easier time getting around YT's copyright bots.
Warner rejected my copyright dispute, so I'm not sure what I'm gonna do about my big video, considering it's much longer and thus features a lot more footage that could be detected by YouTube's copyright bots. Since it's a lot more effects-heavy it MIGHT be able to squeak by as there's a decent amount of "new" scenes made from different footage or where the footage is otherwise distorted but that's a big "might".
I'm still going to try and get the video finished within the next month, but as for how I'm going to upload it I have no idea. I haven't received any copyright strikes yet but considering this is the second time I've lost a dispute within such a short time I don't want to risk losing my entire channel.
If anyone has any suggestions for what to do, by all means suggest. Until then, though, I'm not gonna give up. I've gotten this far already, no sense in quitting when I'm this close to the end.
Well I guess I won't be making my cool big video since my computer's a fucking piece of shit that can't run anything right and every video editing software either runs like garbage or is impossible to use.
I hate my shitty fucking life. All I want is to be a creative but I lack the skill and resources needed and the universe does everything in its power to stop me from doing it.
Little PSA for today: Never trust any DVD from the pre-HD era that says it's "widescreen", unless you like having the entire top and bottom of the screen missing.
I'm admittedly not an expert on aspect ratios but comparing the two rips I have it's shocking how much is missing from the widescreen version.
And yes, this is related to a future video I'll be making.
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SuperSuck64
You know, what's even the fucking point?
What's the point of exhausting myself and pushing myself beyond my limits when it's too fucking late? I had every chance to take the plunge and become the person I wanted to be and I blew it every. Single. Fucking. Time.
Why should I pour so much time and effort into drawings, stories, games, and animations when nobody's ever going to fucking see them? Why should I exhaust myself for nothing? Nobody knows who I am, nobody cares what I have to say, and everything I make is mediocre beyond belief.
Nobody cares. Nobody cares about me. Nobody knows what I make or eagerly looks forward to the next thing. You know why? Because they're too busy looking at works by REAL artists who aren't utter failures at adulting who can make amazing shit all by themselves and get millions of views. What do I have? Nothing. Zilch. Nada. Jack fucking shit. My audience is nonexistent and I will never find it because everything I make is horrible and every single website hates artists with a burning passion and do everything in their power to suppress them. We live in a fucking society. I blew every single shot I had at success because I waited too long and didn't take a single step on the path to my dreams because I was too busy crying like a little bitch.
I might as well just delete every single account I have on every single website. Why waste precious bandwidth on leaving all my worthless crap up when nobody's ever seen it and nobody ever will? I already deleted my own website because it's pointless in keeping it up when nobody in their right mind would ever hire me, let alone even know I exist. Why even try and make my mark on the internet when not a single solitary soul even cares? Did I even exist at all when not a single thing I have ever created has ever been successful or ever resonated with anybody in any meaningful way? The most success I've ever had in life is posting stupid shitposts and getting no response beyond "haha funny meme" before it too falls to the wayside. What a joke. WHAT AN ABSOLUTE FUCKING JOKE.
YTPs, games, fanfics, stories, storyboards, NSFW fetish crap, hundreds of creations I birthed unto the world, seen by zero because I am a worthless, insignificant insect competing with thousands of other insects who are better than me at everything and have a massive advantage because their lives don't suck and they actually have the skill and the bravery to go forward while I wasted every single opportunity I had to make something of myself and collab with others and now it's gone. It's all fucking gone. What a sick fucking joke. Why do I even bother pretending anymore when that ship sailed long ago? I'm better off just quitting this stupid pipe dream and devoting my life to my new job and living a mundane, unspectacular life of obscurity like the rest of the common folk. I will die having made no mark on this world and I will be forgotten by all because everything I did was insignificant and uninteresting. If I am remembered at all it will be as a sniveling coward who had nothing but ideas and none of the drive, skill, or passion to actually realize them.
"Here lies SuperSuck64, he never did anything of value or interest."
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So... part 3...
I still want to finish it but all the shit happening at Warner and just the world in general is just depressing me and I don't feel motivated to work on it right now.
Really just don't feel like doing much of anything nowadays because my drive and confidence is so low and I can barely focus on anything anymore. I've got like 12 other things I'm trying to work on but I just don't feel like doing any of it because I don't even see the point anymore. Everything just feels like a waste.
I'm sorry to have disappointed you all. I just really don't know what to even do at this point. I've come too far to just abandon this entirely, but it's probably going to be a long time until I actually finish it because of what a huge workload it's ended up being and I haven't been able to find time to work on it.
I don't know man, all this stuff used to be so easy for me. I just don't know what to even do anymore.
1 year ago | [YT] | 3
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Seriously considering deleting this channel since apparently YouTube has decided "post new videos every day and never swear or do anything to upset our investors and give us all your personal info or die".
Fuck this fucking website. This is totalitarianism at its finest. I wish every single CEO would die in a fire because this disgusting obsession with turning everything into "content" is destroying the fucking world.
Literally 1984. Fuck YouTube, fuck Google, fuck Hollywood, fuck capitalism, FUCK THIS DYSTOPIAN SHITHOLE.
1 year ago | [YT] | 10
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So I've been thinking...
My vid is taking a long time to come out, it's REALLY long, and my issue with the copyright strike system is that it might be too long to the point YT decides it's not fair use.
Would you guys mind if I posted the video in multiple parts? That way you guys will have something to tide you over while I work on the final stretch and I'll have a slightly easier time getting around YT's copyright bots.
2 years ago | [YT] | 3
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Warner rejected my copyright dispute, so I'm not sure what I'm gonna do about my big video, considering it's much longer and thus features a lot more footage that could be detected by YouTube's copyright bots. Since it's a lot more effects-heavy it MIGHT be able to squeak by as there's a decent amount of "new" scenes made from different footage or where the footage is otherwise distorted but that's a big "might".
I'm still going to try and get the video finished within the next month, but as for how I'm going to upload it I have no idea. I haven't received any copyright strikes yet but considering this is the second time I've lost a dispute within such a short time I don't want to risk losing my entire channel.
If anyone has any suggestions for what to do, by all means suggest. Until then, though, I'm not gonna give up. I've gotten this far already, no sense in quitting when I'm this close to the end.
2 years ago | [YT] | 1
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Incredible what you can accomplish when Adobe isn't eating up your memory with gratuitous, useless bullshit.
2 years ago | [YT] | 3
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Game. New. Play.
2 years ago | [YT] | 1
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Well I guess I won't be making my cool big video since my computer's a fucking piece of shit that can't run anything right and every video editing software either runs like garbage or is impossible to use.
I hate my shitty fucking life. All I want is to be a creative but I lack the skill and resources needed and the universe does everything in its power to stop me from doing it.
3 years ago | [YT] | 3
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3 years ago | [YT] | 10
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Little PSA for today: Never trust any DVD from the pre-HD era that says it's "widescreen", unless you like having the entire top and bottom of the screen missing.
I'm admittedly not an expert on aspect ratios but comparing the two rips I have it's shocking how much is missing from the widescreen version.
And yes, this is related to a future video I'll be making.
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