I have been missing for the past several months, not because I'm dealing with how hard the college is, but it's more to how demotivated I was.
I think there is no point anymore in trying to integrate into an environment where you're constantly being under pressure, and the environment that actually demotivates you a lot.
I'm taking the consequence of being labelled as "coward" or "jerk", or whatever bad labels they are going to give.
I just had enough.
No more.
I want to get back to my old self where I truly make something because it's really fun.
I don't want to hope anything from them in term of appreciating my works anymore.
I want to become solo player that have no bounds in pursuing anything that make me happy.
I want to be alive again!
I can do this!
I know it's going to be difficult, thinking that I have met so many awesome people here.
I don't want to part ways with them solely because I had bad terms with several of the members.
But I don't want to stay stagnant either.
People come and go.
We meet good people and bad people as time passes.
I have seen the good people, and I would sacrifice anything to protect them all.
But I have also seen the bad people, who solely brings negativity to my heart.
I already know how I work, how my soul functions, and how it responds. This is for the better.
This is a risk I will take.
I have made a grave mistake, and I don't think by submitting to what some of them want in order for me to "repay for my mistake" going to make me happy either.
I have been playing solo for a long time.
I know that I can do this again!
It ain't saying that I will never do collaboration, but I know that solo playing is what suited me best.
+ my laptop isn't capable enough for doing heavy AE edits, so my future works gonna be in.... simple PMV I guess?
And as my weebness goes stronger each day, my contents prooobably gonna be very..... weeb-ish... Still gonna make PMV, but using Japanese song since I'm pretty much tired with the current mainstream song (also since no one wants to collab with me if the song is in japanese :'(
Now, I have several ideas and I want to make something using them. And I need your suggestions for which song to pick. And yes, they're either anime openings or endings haha
Down with the poll..
or you can come with your own suggestion down in the comments.
Cubed
regular weekly (if not daily) editing stream?
wont be PMV since i'm moving to AMV for now.
3 years ago | [YT] | 6
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Cubed
Blergh, my laptop self destructs while dragging a texture into After Effects XD
I think no more streaming possibilities until then.
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Cubed
I have been missing for the past several months, not because I'm dealing with how hard the college is, but it's more to how demotivated I was.
I think there is no point anymore in trying to integrate into an environment where you're constantly being under pressure, and the environment that actually demotivates you a lot.
I'm taking the consequence of being labelled as "coward" or "jerk", or whatever bad labels they are going to give.
I just had enough.
No more.
I want to get back to my old self where I truly make something because it's really fun.
I don't want to hope anything from them in term of appreciating my works anymore.
I want to become solo player that have no bounds in pursuing anything that make me happy.
I want to be alive again!
I can do this!
I know it's going to be difficult, thinking that I have met so many awesome people here.
I don't want to part ways with them solely because I had bad terms with several of the members.
But I don't want to stay stagnant either.
People come and go.
We meet good people and bad people as time passes.
I have seen the good people, and I would sacrifice anything to protect them all.
But I have also seen the bad people, who solely brings negativity to my heart.
I already know how I work, how my soul functions, and how it responds. This is for the better.
This is a risk I will take.
I have made a grave mistake, and I don't think by submitting to what some of them want in order for me to "repay for my mistake" going to make me happy either.
I have been playing solo for a long time.
I know that I can do this again!
It ain't saying that I will never do collaboration, but I know that solo playing is what suited me best.
I can do this!
For my own sake, for my happiness.
Wish me luck, everyone!
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Cubed
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+ my laptop isn't capable enough for doing heavy AE edits, so my future works gonna be in.... simple PMV I guess?
And as my weebness goes stronger each day, my contents prooobably gonna be very..... weeb-ish...
Still gonna make PMV, but using Japanese song since I'm pretty much tired with the current mainstream song (also since no one wants to collab with me if the song is in japanese :'(
Now, I have several ideas and I want to make something using them. And I need your suggestions for which song to pick. And yes, they're either anime openings or endings haha
Down with the poll..
or you can come with your own suggestion down in the comments.
6 years ago | [YT] | 3
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Cubed
I can go for communi-posting woa...
Now let me ask...
Are you a weeb?
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