I started my channel on 7th of December, it's been 1 year since I've started this channel. Crazy, how the first channel anniversary felt so depressing, silent and inactive. And the reason just doesn't feel valid. Everything feels empty, I don't even feel like continuing.
Honestly, I stopped posting from like a month or some weeks ago, and the reason is the same. I constantly have the thoughts of quitting, and the thought only makes me tear up badly. I started this channel, with a lot of hopes, and here I am, sitting quietly, and breaking silently inside. Even as I'm uploading this post, it still feels hauntingly empty and the idea that no one will even comment or read this big a$s post, triggers me that why am I even posting this? This never felt like it, the thing that always made me unknowingly happy, is the same thing that's making me go silent as well as slowly inactive. And there's just no reason behind it. I'm losing people and in the same way, I'm losing my subs and my viewers. Honestly, I really don't care about that ; besides what I really care about is my supporters, my friends. And I've slowly got to know the fact that I'm 0% worth it of being a bmtuber or even a ktuber. Am I correct?
It's terrible, it's traumatizing, to think that maybe I have to take the decision of leaving, cause no, I'm really not doing this for attention, this whole thing just depresses me.
I am not worth it, I'm the most solitaire person ever, I really do have a depressive and an introverted vibe, I don't interact much because of my personality, and I feel like that's just the whole problem right there.
Slowly disappearing, slowly losing everyone and everything. If just one person has read this, it would be way more than enough for me. This maybe was your cartzi/zizi. Thank you.
A fan spotted Rami and her mom shopping together in Myeongdong. (Cr to : @RAMI_BASE on X) Don't know if this info is true, but let's hope that Rami is recovering and her health's truly getting better now!
Monstiez(s), have you voted for babymonster for the fans' choice and Visa fans' choice awards/categories? If you haven't, please go and vote! We're at no. 3! Please don't forget to vote daily, you can try voting by logging out from one account and voting from another! Or if it doesnβt work, use different devices if you have any! But please don't forget to vote, this is important.
-Okay, I never personally say things like this, but gosh, I've been stuck so badly at 140, like what, it's taking me so long to reach 150 subs, and it's going to be my first channel anniversary soon! Like help, Ik that I've not been active like earlier bcs of serious health issues, but I'm trying my best already. π I'm barely able to post these days, and when I do, I don't think I'm getting views like I used to do! Idk what's wrong, if it's something to do with my editing, I can improve guys, just tell me! I would put my everything, but just say it! If it's bad, I'm tending to make it better, just for y'all! Like I don't even know, how to explain this feeling, it feels bad to talk about this, I feel like I'm an attention seeker or something! Everything feels very silent, anyone BARELY communicates and comments. (Itβs my problem maybe, I'm a solitaire person, but it's just me, I REALLY CAN'T HELP IT!) If I post any videos, there's just one or two people commenting unless it blows out. RARE.
And I'm really so glad to those who are constant and they take the effort and some of their time to comment on my videos and appreciate them!
And also, I want to shout out the person, who always, like always supports me, who's always constant on my channel, appreciating the hardwork I put into my videos!
Vote for babymonster : on the mnet app, for the 2nd round of FANS' CHOICE awards! Fans' choice male : choose any of your fav bg or fav male artist! Fans' choice Female : Babymomo! πΉ Fans' choice of the Year : (to choose only one among both the female and male nominees!) Choose babymomo! πΉ We can do this, les' make our girls win their first daesang! We can do this, let's show our power!
"My favs aren't supposed to be your favs, they donate, they don't pretend-" My foot. π¦Άππ (Late to speak up, for this matter, but NO, this criticism? It's necessary, or else they're never going to know their mistakes! Sometimes criticism is necessary, whether it be constructive or destructive, and yes, in this case? Destructive criticism is a must. These idols, aren't even willing to know, what really is happening to the people who are suffering from breast cancer or any chronic disease which leads to death, unless they have it. This isn't a joke, this is the TRUTH, we're getting to know, and we SHOULD criticise these idols for doing the wrong. Wake up, and speak up guys. ππ
Vote for babymonster ("we go up") for "M-countdown" : β€·go to the app. β€·select "M countdown". β€·vote for "we go up". β€·vote upto 5 times per day! (Again, don't forget to vote for babymonster for the MAMA awards "fans' choice"!)
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Nah, cause I'm really bout' to explode, RAMII!π₯Ήπ
(this feels unreal.πππ₯Ή)
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I started my channel on 7th of December, it's been 1 year since I've started this channel.
Crazy, how the first channel anniversary felt so depressing, silent and inactive. And the reason just doesn't feel valid. Everything feels empty, I don't even feel like continuing.
Honestly, I stopped posting from like a month or some weeks ago, and the reason is the same.
I constantly have the thoughts of quitting, and the thought only makes me tear up badly.
I started this channel, with a lot of hopes, and here I am, sitting quietly, and breaking silently inside.
Even as I'm uploading this post, it still feels hauntingly empty and the idea that no one will even comment or read this big a$s post, triggers me that why am I even posting this?
This never felt like it, the thing that always made me unknowingly happy, is the same thing that's making me go silent as well as slowly inactive.
And there's just no reason behind it. I'm losing people and in the same way, I'm losing my subs and my viewers.
Honestly, I really don't care about that ; besides what I really care about is my supporters, my friends. And I've slowly got to know the fact that I'm 0% worth it of being a bmtuber or even a ktuber. Am I correct?
It's terrible, it's traumatizing, to think that maybe I have to take the decision of leaving, cause no, I'm really not doing this for attention, this whole thing just depresses me.
I am not worth it, I'm the most solitaire person ever, I really do have a depressive and an introverted vibe, I don't interact much because of my personality, and I feel like that's just the whole problem right there.
Slowly disappearing, slowly losing everyone and everything. If just one person has read this, it would be way more than enough for me. This maybe was your cartzi/zizi.
Thank you.
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I hate how much I'm addicted rn. ππ
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"We are the π."
Oh, I see a masterpiece comin'.
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A fan spotted Rami and her mom shopping together in Myeongdong. (Cr to : @RAMI_BASE on X)
Don't know if this info is true, but let's hope that Rami is recovering and her health's truly getting better now!
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Monstiez(s), have you voted for babymonster for the fans' choice and Visa fans' choice awards/categories? If you haven't, please go and vote! We're at no. 3!
Please don't forget to vote daily, you can try voting by logging out from one account and voting from another! Or if it doesnβt work, use different devices if you have any! But please don't forget to vote, this is important.
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-Okay, I never personally say things like this, but gosh, I've been stuck so badly at 140, like what, it's taking me so long to reach 150 subs, and it's going to be my first channel anniversary soon!
Like help, Ik that I've not been active like earlier bcs of serious health issues, but I'm trying my best already. π
I'm barely able to post these days, and when I do, I don't think I'm getting views like I used to do! Idk what's wrong, if it's something to do with my editing, I can improve guys, just tell me! I would put my everything, but just say it! If it's bad, I'm tending to make it better, just for y'all!
Like I don't even know, how to explain this feeling, it feels bad to talk about this, I feel like I'm an attention seeker or something! Everything feels very silent, anyone BARELY communicates and comments. (Itβs my problem maybe, I'm a solitaire person, but it's just me, I REALLY CAN'T HELP IT!)
If I post any videos, there's just one or two people commenting unless it blows out. RARE.
And I'm really so glad to those who are constant and they take the effort and some of their time to comment on my videos and appreciate them!
And also, I want to shout out the person, who always, like always supports me, who's always constant on my channel, appreciating the hardwork I put into my videos!
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Vote for babymonster : on the mnet app, for the 2nd round of FANS' CHOICE awards!
Fans' choice male : choose any of your fav bg or fav male artist!
Fans' choice Female : Babymomo! πΉ
Fans' choice of the Year : (to choose only one among both the female and male nominees!)
Choose babymomo! πΉ
We can do this, les' make our girls win their first daesang! We can do this, let's show our power!
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"My favs aren't supposed to be your favs, they donate, they don't pretend-" My foot. π¦Άππ
(Late to speak up, for this matter, but NO, this criticism? It's necessary, or else they're never going to know their mistakes! Sometimes criticism is necessary, whether it be constructive or destructive, and yes, in this case? Destructive criticism is a must.
These idols, aren't even willing to know, what really is happening to the people who are suffering from breast cancer or any chronic disease which leads to death, unless they have it.
This isn't a joke, this is the TRUTH, we're getting to know, and we SHOULD criticise these idols for doing the wrong.
Wake up, and speak up guys.
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Vote for babymonster ("we go up") for "M-countdown" :
β€·go to the app.
β€·select "M countdown".
β€·vote for "we go up".
β€·vote upto 5 times per day!
(Again, don't forget to vote for babymonster for the MAMA awards "fans' choice"!)
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