sahvellasan

GUYSSS ILL BE BACK FROM MY COSPLAY BREAK IN DECEMBER TRUST🙏🙏

1 week ago | [YT] | 25

sahvellasan

welp, youtube got me. I had the verify my age earlier today because youtube thought I was under the age of 13. I am not. I DO NOT like this update!! (hence the clippy pfp) but to continue watching "age restricted" content I had to. this is censorship and this is infringing on my privacy. if this happens to you, just remember you don't have to comply, but if you don't, youtube will hide videos and restrict you from certain features om this free platform because they couldn't get your personal info. stay safe out there ppl🖤

1 month ago | [YT] | 53

sahvellasan

now that all my cosplays are in storage for a couple months at most, and I still need to post on here, would u guys like if I made long form ASMR videos??👀
stuff like story times/reddit stories/anime recs and what I've been watching lately? :>

1 month ago | [YT] | 24

sahvellasan

I'll probably be going to highschool for the first time on Monday (I haven't been to school since the 3rd grade) not sure what grade I'll be in tho. I'm 17 but have an education of like a 5th or 6th grader. kinda excited cause I'll be away from my mom during the day. any Highschool advice?

(I'm socially awkward/don't have social skills also have really bad social anxiety >_<)

1 month ago | [YT] | 47

sahvellasan

CPS is not taking me out of the house today. nor my siblings. nor would they let me leave with my adult sister. now that my mom knows whats going on I'm definitely not safe here. the officer and caseworker were not taking any of my moms bullshit tho. I had a full mental breakdown and panic attack today. we're trying to figure things out in court. I can either tell a judge I'd like to live with my father or wait until I'm 18. I turn 18 in November. but we're not sure how long it'll take for me to be able to tell a judge. I just wanna leave mannn😭💔

1 month ago | [YT] | 65

sahvellasan

I'm gonna be taking a break from cosplaying until further notice. I need to get my life in order before I can partake in my hobby again. thank you for understanding🖤

2 months ago | [YT] | 47

sahvellasan

things are starting to look hopeful.
I hope I'm not making a mistake right now.




I'll update when it's safe guys♡ /srs

2 months ago | [YT] | 37

sahvellasan

my mom is just like this :)

2 months ago | [YT] | 20

sahvellasan

/vent/ I wanna post about the good and the bad that happens to me on here. I don't want to upset people, but I also don't want to sugarcoat everything. my cosplays and the internet is my only form of escapism. the only thing in my life I have control over. I don't have a good life. I've gotten comments where people would say things like "I wanna be like you" or "I wish I had your life so I could cosplay like you"
(not exactly those words, but basically that) please don't comment that. you don't know anything about my life. and it's little parasocial to say things like that. and I'm not saying you can't aspire to have goals when it comes to cosplay, my point is my life sucks ass. I wouldn't wish my life/living situation on my worst enemy. you guys have only seen my cosplays. not the real me. so, please don't think I have it good because of my internet persona. I'm not rich, I don't have friends, I barely have a parent. and I will speak about my life when I'm in a safe living condition, but until then, love yall♡

2 months ago | [YT] | 53

sahvellasan

I'm literally so sick rn 😩😩 I went to see kpop demon hunters in theater last weekend and I think I picked something up there🤒
I liked the movie tho! 9/10 for me :)

2 months ago | [YT] | 47