♡ ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕣𝕝𝕚𝕖 𝔹𝕖𝕒𝕣 ♡

1 year ago | [YT] | 18

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Hi everyone! Please please accept my apologies for being so bad with youtube lately... I promise I will be better soon.. I appreciate everyone that has stuck by me and Charlie and not left our little channel ❤️ .. Almost 3,000 subscribers... I am very proud of Charlie for that ❤️.... Now while we are on this subject, I would like to share some news.... Because it is Charlie's birthday today ❤️... I wanted to tell everyone that I put in an application for a puppy last weekish... They got back to me and said that he was already "matched" with someone else.. would I be interested in one of the siblings... I said, "yes"... she never got back to me... I was a bit let down, but thought that "you know what, everything happens for a reason I guess".... I must have looked at thousands of puppy pictures in the past week... But for some reason, I didn't feel any sparks... Well.. that was until a few days ago... I came upon a pup that gave me a little spark.. I moved on... went back on and looked again... Something said deep in my gut... APPLY... So I did...
Today... on Charlie's birthday... I got the call... They want me to have him... I don't mean to sound dramatic... (we all know that I am 😆)... But, I know that if you were to ask Charlie what the best gift that he could receive on his birthday would be... I think it would be my happiness... I think this pup will help ease some of this heartache.... I hope he likes me!!! He arrives next Saturday... I will showcase him very very soon, but I would like Charlie's channel to reach 3,000 subscribers beforehand... Just because 🤷🏻‍♀️... Then you can meet him!! Happy birthday my love!! I hope you are looking down on me every once in a while! I miss you more than I could ever explain!!
Oh.. P.S... I haven't even told Brian about this yet!! Never even told him that I applied!! 🤭... I hope he doesn't read this before he gets home from work!! 😆... Love you all!! Thank you for loving Charlie! And thank you for everything ❤️❤️❤️....
P.S... I think I am gonna be in bigggg trouble when he gets home 😯... Wish me luck!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

2 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 63

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Hi everyone!! Domino has made it safe and sound to his new foster home! They will be keeping in touch with me so that I can keep his medical care going (I need to see this boy get his happily ever after!).... Is he not tooooo precious?! The little angel!!! 🙏🏻😊❤️🫂❤️ God bless him!!!

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2 years ago | [YT] | 65

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Hi everyone ❤️ I'm sorry that I haven't been on here much lately.. I've just been trying to navigate the roller coaster of emotions that have come with the tremendous loss of my dear Charlie Bear... One of the worst things that I am having trouble with is the belief that the last medicine given to him was what ultimately ended his life, and I am struggling with that more than I could express.... I will never know..
On another note, I wanted to give you all a little update on Domino...
After my last post about the wonderful man who has rescued Domino for me, lots has transpired...
A family member of mine is a veterinarian, and when she heard that I was going to be taking Domino in, she called me with deep concerns about it... She explained to me that distemper is one of the most horrible viruses that a dog could get, and that even if he made it out alive and recovered, that I would most likely be dealing with long term neurological issues.. As I hope you all know, I personally would never turn down a sick animal, but her concern was with what I had just went through with Charlie, and that I would end up with my heart broken... That was something that I could have dealt with... knowing that even if just for a short time, I could show this dog that someone loved him and that was very important to me... The other side of things was the financial burden of this... Believe me.. If I had the money, it would be no problem... but unfortunately, I have put myself in some serious debt with Charlie's healthcare, and I just wouldn't be able to do this...
I spoke with my father, and he pretty much said that this was something I could not do and shouldn't have committed myself to it (even though it was very understandable). At that point, I asked my dad to continue the communication with Dr. Grimes (the vet that has Domino in his care) because I couldn't emotionally handle anymore at that point in time.... The hope was that we could find a rescue group that could take him...I had made peace with the fact that Domino wouldn't be coming to stay with me.. Atleast I had saved his life and given him a chance...
After a few days of searching, no rescue could be found... And now, Dr. Grimes had mentioned that Domino was depressed..
"GET HIM HERE NOW!!!!"... NOPE NOPE NOPE!!
This, I couldn't handle... As much as I was not ready in any way, shape, or form, I couldn't have this... I knew that we both needed each other right now.. My dad told the vet that I would take him...
The plan was for him to arrive this next coming week.. I finally got myself to a point where I couldn't wait for him to be here, and we could start our lives together.. I was ready for my new friend...
BUT.. 2 days ago, my dad received a text from Dr. Grimes saying that unfortunately, he was having an issue with the department of agriculture and that Domino would not be allowed to enter the state of Massachusetts with a positive distemper reading... He said that he found someone down there that was willing to foster him and give him the care that he needs.. and then they would find him a home from there... It will take between 4-9 months for him to get through the distemper and heartworm treatments...
How would I like to proceed?
I was not expecting that, and I was faced with such an inner confliction that I can't even describe... As difficult as it was, I said, "ok.." (I also agreed to pay for all his medical bills going forward... I needed to do that for him and for myself, I guess...)
A few hours later, I had a bit of a breakdown at work and gut punched with anxiety that I had made a big mistake.. That decision would affect both his and my life tremendously, and I wasn't sure if I made the right decision...
Called my dad in a panic and explained my concerns..
He told me that James has presented the idea that he put me in contact with Domino's foster family, and I will be able to stay in the loop and be kept informed of his progress, etc.. "OK, YES!" Thank God..
So... I still don't know how this story will unfold.. I have about a thousand mixed emotions... The biggest one being that I worry about the unknown in a sense of where Domino could end up.. What if he doesn't find a good home, etc.? How can I go on living my life unsure as to how he is doing? What if he ends up back in a shelter? ...those kind of worries..
Also, as I've said, I was nowhere near ready for another dog... All of this happened not even 2 weeks after I had just lost Charlie... But life works so strangely where I had finally gotten myself to a point where I couldn't wait for this new friend to enter my life...
Now, the silence that I have been living with has become even more deafening, and I feel more lonely than ever... Do I wait for him? Will his foster family fall in love with him and decide to adopt him? Do I start looking for another? Do I take more time to process my grief and dispair? I don't know... I do know that I will mourn the loss of Charlie FOREVER...
The truth is obvious.. I want Charlie back... And that can never happen.. Am I just trying to fill the hole that he left in my heart? Could that hole ever be filled? Probably not...
So that is that.. I just wanted to give you all this update and tell you all how much I appreciate your support and love and friendship.... Thank you for everything, from the bottom of my broken heart ❤️💔❤️

2 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 69

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UPDATE ON DOMINO: HE LIVES!! Some of you may know of the vet that I got in contact with down in Tennessee.. He was able to get him out of that DREADFUL place for me!! Domino was literally saved by an hour!! Unbelievable... Unfortunately... Domino tested positive for distemper yesterday.. BUT.. This beautiful man, James Grimes (the veterinarian), believes very much that he is in very good physical shape and that this will not be a problem in this case... So here is what is happening... Dr. James has cleared and prepped an entire room in his practice for Domino... He will be isolating there for about 3 weeks, and he will be examined daily, cared for, loved, and treated for the heartworm and distemper... Then.. He will be driven to Massachusetts... To me... Ugh.. everyone!!!.. I told this incredible man that I am so sorry but I don't believe that I am going to be able to take him.... I am just so far from healing over the loss of Charlie... He said that that is ok... would I like to foster him until they can find him a home? I said.." Yes.. That I can do... I would like that... I need to hug this beautiful animal that was rescued one hour from death... It is probably the biggest win that I ever felt in my whole life... I really needed a win like this... Once again, Charlie is a hero... If Charlie hadn't passed away, I never would have seen Domino.. So if Charlie hadn't died, Domino would have... What have I gotten myself into?! Brian is gonna kill me 🤦🏻‍♀️... Love you all!

2 years ago | [YT] | 65

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PLEASE SHARE THIS! Hi everyone!!! Please pledge for Domino!! He is scheduled to be euthanized TODAY!!! I am waiting for the shelter to get back to me about rescuing him!! Unfortunately, he is in Memphis Tennessee and I cannot possibly get there today! I am nowhere NEAR ready for another dog, but... Can anyone see a resemblance here? How could I turn him away?! I've never posted anything like this, so I'm not even sure if links are clickable on these community posts, but I am going to give it a try...

Here is a little video of him...
youtube.com/shorts/3oo81Njv5K...

And here is a facebook link where you can PLEDGE for him!
A pledge is a $$ amount that you would be willing to pay for a rescue group to save him... If he were to be saved by the rescue, you would have to pay it... It can be any amount!! Please let's try!!! He needs us!!

www.facebook.com/100064437981980/posts/78730609676…

I am awaiting a phone call... I pray they call me back... Not ready for this!!! But can't have him die here..... no...

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2 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 64

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I want to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart for all of your prayers, love, kindness, and support... I am having a hard time thinking about how to say that we have lost our bear last night... I have never in my entire life felt an emptiness like this.. I will never say that Charlie lost this battle because there has never been a battle that he has ever lost, and this was a battle that I did not want to ask him to fight any longer... 5 hospitals sent him home saying that they couldn't find anything wrong with him... All his tests came back perfect... There was obviously something that they just couldn't find... As much as I begged God to let me keep him for a little longer, and as much as I will never understand God's ways, He needed his angel back... I am grateful that He let me have him for as long as He did... Charlie was the best gift that I have ever received... Charlie was the best friend anyone could ever ask for, and I don't know what I ever did to deserve him... I don't know how I will ever get through this pain, to be honest, but I will find a way... I am who I am today because of Charlie... Charlie saved my life in many ways.. I will do my absolute best to honor him by continuing on the straight and narrow... I am so sorry for this news.. I would love to continue making more videos, and hopefully I will get to a point where I can do that.. Just a bit too hard for me at the moment.. I love you all and I want you to know that one of the last things that I said to him was that he reached the hearts of so many people from all around the world, and he was loved by so many! I am so glad that I was able to share him with you all because, as you know, he was a special one...

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2 years ago | [YT] | 89

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Emergency room today... Charlie hasn't eaten for about 2 days.. He is very weak and very tired... I think he is in a lot of pain... Awaiting some more test results... He won't even look at chicken... He has been struggling to go to the bathroom.. If I can get something into his stomach tonight, he will start some new pain meds.. If he hasn't eaten by tomorrow, we will start him on an appetite stimulator... I'm praying that he eats something and I can start these new meds so that he can start to feel better...
Step 1: Get him eating again..
Step 2: See if the pain meds make any difference..
Step 3: If not, we go ahead with some x-rays...
I finally feel that we have a great vet in our corner, and I feel we will get to the bottom of all this... I need to do right by Charlie... He is absolutely breaking my heart...
Thank you, everyone, for everything! I'm so sorry that I have not responded to many messages. Just please know that I appreciate them all and just knowing how many people are rooting for Charlie brings tears to my eyes and makes me feel not alone! I truly love all of you! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️🫂❤️🫂❤️🫂❤️

2 years ago | [YT] | 65

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Hi everyone! Charlie has "chronic degenerative valve disease" and "pulmonary hypertension"... These are both things that we can hopefully manage with medication... They want some furthur blood and urine testing to determine if there is something that is causing one of those... The biggest issue that I am facing right now is that the cardiologist does not think that either of these things are what is causing his symptoms... I just started him on a new/different medication for his pain last night.. So I am hoping that over the next few days, I will see some kind of difference... He is giving me a hard time with eating right now, but I do believe he is being picky vs. no appetite.. I have had him on chicken and rice, so I am just having a struggle with him transitioning back to his regular food... I would like to somehow find some recipes that I can cook for him going forward.. I want him to enjoy his meals, but I also want to make sure that he gets the nutrition that he needs as well.. I just pray that I can find out what is going on with my boy... I understand that he is 13 years old and that dogs do slow down... But we know our dogs... and I know that something is going on.. I just need to get to the bottom of it... So, back to the drawing board we go! Thank you everyone for loving Charlie!! It feels so good to have so many people behind us 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️🫂❤️🫂❤️ I will never forget this!

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2 years ago | [YT] | 55

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Hi everyone! I wanted to give you all an update! Since my last post, Charlie has gotten weaker and more lethargic... I took him for a little walk the other day and almost had to call Brian to come pick us up about 10 minutes in because I didn't know if Charlie was going to be able to make it back.. I called our vet on Thursday in tears, saying that I was worried about him, and I was feeling like he was dying and I needed help! They never returned my call... I called again on Friday and was told to take him to urgent care.. They had no appointments available... This was one of the biggest kicks in the stomach I have ever had... Completely slammed the door in my face... I have been feeling so helpless and lost... Over the weekend, I called every emergency room and urgent care in our area... None of them had a cardiologist on site, and I have been feeling like I have nowhere to turn... Last night, I took a shot in the dark and emailed my late Joey's cardiologist... Almost 7 years ago, I lost him to heart failure.. She had moved out of state, but I wondered if maybe she would remember me and give some guidance of where I could go or who I could turn to... I explained that we have an appointment for an echo scheduled for the 30th with his primary care vet, although she is not a cardiologist... She did remember me and Joey! She told me of a place that I should call and explain the situation... Her best friend is a cardiologist there... I called and "name dropped" but they weren't able to get me in until February 12th! I emailed her letting her know this and that I would still get his echo done tomorrow and follow up with them afterward... Next thing you know, I get a phone call saying that they can see me today! She worked miracles for me, and I believe that God is in this story! She didn't want Charlie to have this test done by someone who is not fully trained with all the knowledge necessary to treat him... Thank you for all of your continued prayers, love, and support! I will let you all know how this appointment goes and what their findings are! Let's go, Charlie!! Let's go!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️🫂❤️🫂❤️🫂❤️

2 years ago | [YT] | 66