Inescapable Wisdom

My life story.

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Inescapable Wisdom

This is what I’m experiencing after almost five years in recovery from heroin addiction.

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Inescapable Wisdom

The truth that makes men free is for the
most part the truth which men prefer not
to hear.HERBERT AGAR

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Inescapable Wisdom

It’s been decades since I have played piano. Now that I am sober, healthy and free from addiction, the past, and codependency, it is time to enjoy life and get into my creativity !

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Inescapable Wisdom

Some things are just too heavy to carry by myself. Today knowing I’m not alone in my struggles gives me a sense of ease and comfort that I once only believed could be found in a bag of dope. This is what recovery has given me and I’m pretty damn grateful !
#recovery

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Inescapable Wisdom

The following are realizations I had in early sobriety:

Have I been fooled into thinking things like if it feels good don’t do it? If it appears healthy it’s lame? That good clean fun is boring and stupid ? That taking care of myself is a pain and a waste of time? That being too nice is a sign of weakness? That praying is for nerds and losers? That I can’t stand to see someone anyone including myself truly happy ? That only puppies and babies deserve to live a carefree and blissful existence? That choosing a career and committing to a goal is for other people to do but not for me? That my answer to any problem was usually to medicate or run away?
Can I do the opposite of those things and then some?

If you are just beginning a sobriety journey, or recovering from a life of misery, you’re in the right place! Keep hope alive 💙

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Inescapable Wisdom

This was written in 2020:

For the last five months, I have been fighting to recover and heal from addiction. What I have discovered is that I’m actually healing the trauma that led me to use drugs in the first place. This has required more bravery than I’ve ever had to summon before. I had to let go completely of any old ideas of how to live and learn new ways. I have gotten validation along the way from law enforcement, a family court judge, professionals in the mental health field, and others in recovery that tell me I’m redeemed. I’m healing. I’m a survivor.

And yet, my mind will quite nearly convince me at times that I’m unworthy of recovery. That I’m so broken I can’t be fixed. That I may as well just give up because I don’t deserve a life of freedom and purpose. That I’ve already been damaged beyond repair.
Conclusion: Addiction wants me dead. The enemy wants to undermine any effort made to escape his grip. But God has the final word here. God has me in his hands and will never leave me. Not only that, His perfect love has allowed me to experience REAL PEACE, TRUE HAPPINESS AND PURE ECSTASY. There is no comparison between this type of spiritual high and the one I chased after my entire life. None.

We do heal and we do recover.
#addiction #recovery

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Inescapable Wisdom

I’m the monster they created
Never loved only hated
I don’t think I can take it
Anymore.
Is there anyone at all
Who I can call
When I’m giving in
Given up hope
Do I dive into dope
To kill this pain
Or is there another way?

Take my hand.
Lead me on.
Make it hurt
Then kiss it gone
This won’t end
It never will
You and I even now
Ever still.

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Inescapable Wisdom

Is this a slow play
Or is that just for today
Torn between what I feel
And what I can say

Get vulnerable open up
Spill my guts then wait
Hold your breath and make
Me not regret this at all

If I could just be
Just breathe, and free
the girl who needs to see
That love is a thing
Within her reach

Torn, torn between
Walking it out
And turning around
Afraid that one more closed door
Will be the one that locks
For good.

(Written around 90 days sober)

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