Dr Haleemah X

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3 months ago | [YT] | 3

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Hello. How are you?
Unsurprisingly, I have been working on a new body of work — a new E.P. It moves slowly, often unfolding in the dark. It is strange, but certain.
It reminds me of purple — my youngest niece’s favourite colour. ’Twas mine too, as a child. At times, it still is. “Purple” often makes things better, and if not better, then sometimes, tastier.
This work, I suppose, is where dedication, mythology, unconditional love, and experimental rhythm reside.
Anywho — I will see you all soon, In Shaa Allah.
Actually, it is more accurate to say: you will see me soon, In Shaa Allah.
It is a peculiar thing, knowing so few of you who support my work. You should write to me — so that we may exchange a few pleasantries.

3 months ago | [YT] | 11

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✨ Two of Allah’s Names Are Holding You Right Now ✨

Al-Haadi (ٱلْهَادِي)
Al-Mudabbir (ٱلْمُدَبِّر)
The One who Guides.
The One who Orchestrates.

Recently, I’ve been receiving so many emails from women saying the same thing in different ways:
“I’ve tried everything.”
“I don’t know what else to do.”
“I’ve done the ruqyah, the tahajjud, the istikhara, the therapy, the gym, the duʿāʾ lists, the healing, the journaling…”
And still—no clarity, no answer, no shift.

But here’s the thing I want to remind you of:
You’re not the orchestrator. You never were.

Your job?
Is to move like Maryam عليه السلام moved.
To shake the tree—even when the pain is unbearable, and the effort seems absurd.
To position yourself, prepare yourself, polish yourself.

But the fruit?
That falls when Al-Mudabbir (ٱلْمُدَبِّر) commands it.
When the Divine Orchestrator sets things in motion that you never even saw coming.
When pieces rearrange quietly in the background of your life, without announcement, without noise, without your hands.

And the guidance?
That comes when Al-Haadi (ٱلْهَادِي) decides it’s time for you to see what you were blind to,
feel what you had numbed,
and walk a path that was hidden until this very moment.

So if you’ve been worrying…
If you’ve been overthinking, obsessing, planning, spiraling…
Take a breath.
You are not the whole system.
You are a seed.
And seeds are buried before they bloom.

Further reading for those interested:

🔹 Al-Haadi (ٱلْهَادِي) – The One Who Guides
The word hudā (هُدًى) appears frequently in the Qur’an, referring to divine guidance. It is not just information or direction—it is placement. Allah places the heart where it needs to be. As Allah says in Surah Al-Qasas (28:56):
“Indeed, [O Muhammad], you do not guide whom you like, but Allah guides whom He wills.”
This means that even the Prophet ﷺ could not grant guidance to the ones he loved—because true hidaayah comes only from Al-Haadi. When you’ve done your part, and you’re still uncertain? That’s when trust in His guidance begins.

🔹 Al-Mudabbir (ٱلْمُدَبِّر) – The One Who Orchestrates Affairs
Derived from the root d-b-r (د ب ر), which means to arrange or plan something with wisdom and end-goal in mind. In Surah Sajdah (32:5), Allah says:
“He arranges (yudabbiru) the affair from the heaven to the earth…”
Even when nothing is “happening” on the surface, the Divine Orchestrator is managing unseen affairs—perfectly timed, wisely layered, and intricately interconnected. We see only pixels. Allah sees the entire picture.

🔹 Together, these two Names remind us:
• Yes, we are responsible for effort (harakah),
• But outcomes are in Allah’s hands.
And sometimes, the delay is the mercy. The confusion is the clarity in disguise. The stillness is part of the orchestration.

So yes—ladies, shake the tree.
But don’t force the fruit.
Let it drop when the Divine decrees.

Dr Haleemah X

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The Divine Counsel on Confronting Fear: A Reflection

Fear is an intrinsic element of the human condition — a complex emotion that reveals both our fragility and our capacity for courage. It is neither a sign of weakness nor a barrier to spiritual progress; rather, fear, when rightly understood, can become a gateway to deeper consciousness and connection with the Divine.

Allah, in His infinite wisdom, addresses the nature of fear in the Qur’an not as something to be shunned or suppressed, but as a reverential mindfulness known as taqwa. This is beautifully expressed in the words:

“Indeed, Allah is with those who fear Him and those who are doers of good.” (Surah An-Nahl 16:128)

Here, the term “fear” transcends the ordinary sense of dread or anxiety; it is a profound awareness of Allah’s presence and authority. This sacred fear cultivates humility and awakens the soul to a higher moral and spiritual responsibility. To fear Allah is to align one’s actions with His divine guidance, thereby transforming fear into a source of strength rather than paralysis.

In this light, fear becomes not a hindrance but a catalyst for ethical and spiritual action. It encourages believers to persist in goodness and righteousness despite the trials and uncertainties that life inevitably brings. The assurance that “Allah is with” such individuals offers a profound comfort — a reminder that divine companionship accompanies those who walk the path of consciousness and virtue.

Further deepening this exhortation, Allah commands believers with an imperative that resonates through the ages:

“So do not weaken and do not grieve, and you will be superior if you are [true] believers.” (Surah Aal-Imran 3:139)

This directive calls for resilience and hope. It acknowledges the reality of hardship and sorrow but insists that true believers rise above despair through steadfast faith (iman). To “not weaken” is a call to maintain inner strength; to “not grieve” is an invitation to trust in Allah’s wisdom beyond immediate appearances.

Faith, therefore, is not a passive state but an active force that transforms fear into courage, grief into patience, and vulnerability into empowerment. It affirms that the trials that awaken fear are not signs of divine abandonment, but opportunities for spiritual refinement.

The journey of confronting fear is thus a sacred encounter — a dialogue between the soul’s trembling and the heart’s surrender. It is a conscious choice to face uncertainty and discomfort, not with reckless abandon, but with a spirit fortified by prayer, patience, and trust.

In this sacred tension lies the promise of transcendence: fear, rather than diminishing the self, expands the horizon of spiritual possibility. It reveals the limits of human control and invites reliance on the divine will, fostering a profound sense of peace even amid life’s storms.

May we all find in these divine words the courage to confront our own fears — not by denying their presence, but by embracing them as thresholds on the path to greater submission, wisdom, and grace. Through patience (sabr), heartfelt supplication (du’a), and sincere faith (iman), may we transform fear into a beacon illuminating the way toward inner serenity and divine proximity.

Dr Haleemah X

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Ashura — When Impossible Odds Meet Allah’s Mercy

A sacred day of reflection, resilience, and divine mercy.

In Islamic tradition, this is a day where immense trials met profound miracles — where doors that seemed forever shut were opened by the will of Allah. It’s a day that reminds us that deliverance arrives after difficulty, and that what is meant for you will never miss you.

As an artist, writer, performer, and scholar — my work has always wrestled with questions of representation, struggle, and the unseen paths of those on the margins. Ashura isn’t just a historic event. It’s a symbol of what it means to remain rooted in purpose when the world feels indifferent.

Ashura is a symbol of impossible odds overturned by divine decree — a manifestation of Allah’s perfect justice (Al-‘Adl العدل) and wisdom (Al-Hakīm الحكيم). It is a reminder that what the world cannot see or appreciate is never hidden from the All-Seeing (Al-Baṣīr البصير), the One who knows every struggle, intention, and silent prayer. In the quiet, subtle care of the Most Gentle (Al-Laṭīf اللطيف), even unseen work carries profound meaning and benefit.

For anyone carrying dreams that feel heavy, work that goes unnoticed, or voices that struggle to be heard, remember this truth: your efforts are seen, your purpose matters, and the One who watches over all things — Al-‘Alīm العليم, the All-Knowing — holds you in His care.

May this be a day of openings, of ease, and of provision in both the tangible and unseen realms. May your practice, your scholarship, your work, your voice be a means of benefit and blessing, by the grace of the Oft-Forgiving (Al-Ghaffār الغفار) and the Provider (Ar-Razzāq الرزاق).

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Livin’ in the ‘ospital these days arkid 🌪️

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My insomnia knows Fajr is now on its way. In the quiet hours, cognition loops inward—rumination sharpens, and memory rehearses itself. Wakefulness, then, becomes less a disturbance and more a metaphysical aperture: a moment in which the soul addresses what daylight displaces.

As Jalāl al-Dīn Rūmī writes:

“Because I cannot sleep, I make music at night…
The heart and the mind are left angry with each other.”

Sleeplessness, in this light, is not merely restlessness—it is an invitation to reckon, to compose, to witness the self without noise.

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Eid Mubarak, people dem 🌙✨

As the crescent moon rises and we enter this day of joy, reflection, and reunion — I want to send you love from the depths of my heart.

This year, Eid feels different. Not just for me, but for many people across the world whose strength continues to shine through silence, struggle, and stillness. From those rebuilding their homes in war-torn lands to those fighting for education, from caregivers navigating hospital corridors to voices rising up online and off — this Eid is for you.

May your healing be held. May your voice be honoured. May your prayers echo louder than your pain.

Eid is a time of beauty and breaking barriers. A time to give, to forgive, to grow. So today, whether you’re surrounded by loved ones or navigating solitude, know that your existence alone is a revolution — and a blessing. This is resistance.

Let us not forget the oppressed, the displaced, the grieving. And let us not forget ourselves — our inner child, our inner elder, our inner warrior.

To my beautiful growing community: thank you for being here. For every view, like, comment, or quiet presence — I see you.

Eid Mubarak. May your day be soft, your heart be full, and your light be undeniable.
Warmly,
Haleemah

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8 months ago | [YT] | 10

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Muslim Women do not need to be seen canonically or monolithically.
We are here — moving, building, theorising, lifting.
The question is never about visibility granted — it’s about how we author our own frameworks of presence, power, and narrative. It’s about revealing the spaces that we have always operated within and our fluid embodiment of multiplicity.

That’s where characterisation comes in.

Characterisation resists containment. It refuses the soft violence of “representation,” where the frame is already fixed and the gaze preordained. Characterisation speaks in verbs: to shift, to rupture, to embody, to re-script. It is the textured, contradictory, myth-making articulation of self that refuses neat categories.

When you exist in multiple in-betweens — mixed heritage, faith, gender, rhythm — you don’t wait to be recognised.
You construct.
You interrupt.
You build the corridor and then you burn the blueprint and point of access.

This isn’t about being included in someone else’s archive.
It’s about writing new lore.

So yes — biceps.
And new scholarship.
Same muscle, different modality.

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