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Yesterday in school, I had a very difficult day. First, I hit my head against the wall, and right after that, a football hit my face. I was in distress and felt stressed, anxious, and overwhelmed, especially by the crowd that formed, which only made things worse. Even though my best friend tried to calm me down, it didn't work. Because of this, I had to leave school early. In the afternoon, I slept for four hours straight. It hurts badly and I'm struggling to hear properly.
​On top of the pain, I've noticed I have a bit of memory problems, although sometimes my memory seems fine afterwards.

Thank you for reading.

Some tags?
‪@Kouwa.T‬​​
‪@Giyuu_real‬​​
‪@Sakiknyy‬​​
‪@JazzTheArtist-JH‬​​
‪@dewiincafe‬​​
‪@Kagehilunarveil柱義勇のNo.1‬​​
‪@Hikari_Usagihara‬​​
‪@A_Stickfigure_Named_Tsukiko‬​​
‪@Mrss_Shinazugawa‬​
‪@SerenityBreathing‬

11 hours ago (edited) | [YT] | 6

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Once I'm gonna be fully back I want to share more of my interests, But I'm too scared of judgement.

Some tags? (Not tagging those who saw it)
‪@Giyuu_real‬​
‪@Kouwa.T‬​
‪@dewiincafe‬​
‪@Kagehilunarveil柱義勇のNo.1‬​
‪@Hikari_Usagihara‬​
‪@JazzTheArtist-JH‬​
‪@Sakiknyy‬​
‪@kny_Akari_kato‬​
‪@Kaeko123‬

1 day ago (edited) | [YT] | 13

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Heres Shirojos body just in case Someone wants to draw her! I'll put an old design, I'm still using it! her redesign made by ‪@MisakaiTuski_secondchannle‬(first photo)

I was wondering if you guys can redesign her?
I really want to keep her old hair her old haori (half sakura side, half eyes) and I really want to make her eyes sharper.

No tags for this post <33

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2 days ago | [YT] | 10

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The art competiton rewards might take some time, but trust the process!
Instead of doing the old fashioned way, I'm deciding to give the rewards on the spot, Because I'm starting to have less energy for editing, I dont have time much as of now because of shcool and other personal things!!
I hope you'll like your rewards once finished and once I'll announce the winners.

Aas of now I'm currently taking care of my self and resting, I by accidentally stabbed myself with a finger, but I'm sure it will heal.

Thank you for your patience and support! ❤️
I'll see you guys once I fully decide to come back.

Some taggs:
‪@JazzTheArtist-JH‬
‪@Sakiknyy‬
‪@Mrss_Shinazugawa‬
‪@kny_Akari_kato‬
‪@Giyuu_real‬
‪@ahomelessjellyfish‬
‪@dewiincafe‬
‪@Kagehilunarveil柱義勇のNo.1‬
‪@Kouwa.T‬
‪@A_Stickfigure_Named_Tsukiko‬
‪@Hikari_Usagihara‬
Sorry if everyone is not tagged, I'm too tired to tag everyone else (ToT)

3 days ago | [YT] | 10

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I need to address someting clearly and calmy right now.

First of alll to those who saw my previous posts and the way I expressed my frustration sounded mean or harsh. I was very angry and mentally and physically exhausted over the past few days and I didnt manage those emotions professionally.

Now in some relationships of mine I'm still single handedly carrying the relationship and its conversations entirely by my own.

I believe relationships should be carried by both partners and not one partner carrying the relationship entirely by there own.

Now I dont want any apologies in the comments, I'm looking for actions, and if the person isnt showing it with there actions I'm done wasting my energy and time, This behaviour was too much to bear.

I'm prioritizing my peace and moving foward with people whose actions align with there words.
I'm done participating in this one sided dynamic when my own constant needs are getting ignored.

I'm not ending the relationship I'm going to stay away from it for a while, I hope this message wont be taken lightly by anyone.


Thank you for reading this far and I hope that message was understood for all.


Some taggs:
‪@kny_Akari_kato‬​​​
‪@JazzTheArtist-JH‬​​​
‪@Sakiknyy‬​​​
‪@Mrss_Shinazugawa‬​​​
‪@ahomelessjellyfish‬​​​
‪@Kouwa.T‬​​​
‪@Giyuu_real‬​​​
‪@Mão_Mão-2012x‬​​​
‪@dewiincafe‬​​​
‪@Kaeko123‬​​​
‪@Hikari_Usagihara‬​​​
‪@A_Stickfigure_Named_Tsukiko‬​​​
‪@SerenityBreathing‬​​​
‪@Kagehilunarveil柱義勇のNo.1‬​​​

4 days ago (edited) | [YT] | 7

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It sucks to have silent anger..
Because I always have a need for physical violence, espically now. But I tend to hold myself a lot, Untill the day comes and I have karate which I let out in physical training in karate, I'm more careful with it and gentle (because my peers are around me of course Outside of it I feel like I have less control but I am in control, I just let it out in writting when I dont have karate, quick example of this)
You dont want to be in my place..its not easy at all.
I sometimes express my anger when I raise the tone of my voice if I'm tired and generally sick of hearing someting over and over again.
Today I told my classmate that I wont be doing any video calls with her ever again due to her obsessive Behavior towards her crush (she has pictures if him that she kisses and we are not allowed to do that I dont know how she gets away with it, she talks about him on a daily basis, she tries to get personal info from the teachers about him.. just creepy) she told me "its not obsession! Its love!" Girl Shush, you clearly have an unhealthy obsession with this guy I said it clear and loud and oh she got mad at me, But its clear I've set boundaries.

(When I'm angered I also realize I barely have spelling mistakes and somehow I'm more Vigilant and aware)

Some taggs:
‪@Kouwa.T‬​​​
‪@Mão_Mão-2012x‬​​​
‪@Kagehilunarveil柱義勇のNo.1‬​​​
‪@dewiincafe‬​​​
‪@SerenityBreathing‬​​​
‪@A_Stickfigure_Named_Tsukiko‬​​​
‪@JazzTheArtist-JH‬​​​
‪@Sakiknyy‬​​​
‪@Mrss_Shinazugawa‬​​​
‪@kny_Akari_kato‬​​​
‪@Giyuu_real‬​​​
‪@Kaeko123‬​​​
‪@SillyArtsyGal‬​​​
‪@ahomelessjellyfish‬​​​
‪@Hikari_Usagihara‬​​​
 ‪@dead_channel-q5s‬​​​
‪@MisakaiTuski_secondchannle‬​​​
@cherry make's 🌷​​​
‪@TheAlienTheBlueOne‬​​​ (I thought I'd tag you for the first time :D!)
‪@yūgureXkaze‬​​
‪@SincerelyAdelinori‬

Note: The art competiton will contiune! Untill I choose to comeback! This post was just made to let go of my feelings.

6 days ago (edited) | [YT] | 8

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1 MORE SUB FOR ‪@Kouwa.T‬​ TO GET TOO 100!!!
CONGRATS!! IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!

CONGRATS FOR GETTING TOO A FREAKING 100!!!!!!!

6 days ago (edited) | [YT] | 7

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Guys I might be before "it" again, I've been so freaking senstive thoes days. Now I dont usually cry when it hurts in karate, but last time I got emotional because it hurted.
I was wondering if I could talk to you on insta just like I do with miu-san?
I feel like I really need emotional support right now.

6 days ago | [YT] | 4

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Dare passed by ‪@Kaeko123‬​​​​​​​​​ I think people might hate me for those reasons...
I tend to vent a lot in order to let my feelings out. It's not about burdening anyone its emotional release, almost a necessity, because keeping everything bottled up makes me feel like I’m going to break.


1. I tend to rent a lot in order to let my feelings out... I know some people view that venting, or even just my emotional posts, as attention-seeking, and that hurts. It makes me question if I should even share anything at all. (Not with words with actions yet I know I cant force people to react or to stay in my life.)

2. ​I have to be honest: I used to overreact dramatically to situations, and I understand why some people have that memory of me. That behavior came from a place of not knowing how to manage intense emotions, and I’m actively trying to learn and grow past it..

Thats it but I think theres more reasons..
But overall I dont feel hated much, You guys are making me feel vulnerable enough to share it publicly and your warm comments always make my day better.
Thank you so much ❤️

Not passing this dare to anyone, you guys are loved and you'll always be <33

Some taggs:
‪@Kaeko123‬​​​​​​
‪@Mrss_Shinazugawa‬​​​​​​
‪@ahomelessjellyfish‬​​​​​​
‪@Hikari_Usagihara‬​​​​​​
‪@yūgureXkaze‬​​​​​​
‪@JazzTheArtist-JH‬​​​​​​
‪@Sakiknyy‬​​​​​​
‪@kny_Akari_kato‬​​​​​​
‪@Giyuu_real‬​​​​​​
‪@SillyArtsyGal‬​​​​​​
‪@Kouwa.T‬​​​​​​
‪@MisakaiTuski_secondchannle‬​​​​​​
‪@A_Stickfigure_Named_Tsukiko‬​​​​​
‪@SerenityBreathing‬​​​​
‪@dewiincafe‬​​​
‪@Hikari_Usagihara‬​​
‪@Kagehilunarveil柱義勇のNo.1‬​
‪@Mão_Mão-2012x‬

1 week ago (edited) | [YT] | 7

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I'm taking a break for another week or 3 maybe even a month
I realized that I need it in order to heal and for my own happiness too 💞
I am really grateful for all of the support you guys have been giving me in my hardest times I cant describe how much I'm thankful with words.
You guys mean so much to me 🩵

Some tags 💞
‪@dead_channel-q5s‬​​​​​
‪@Giyuu_real‬​​​​​
‪@A_Stickfigure_Named_Tsukiko‬​​​​​
‪@SerenityBreathing‬​​​​​
‪@JazzTheArtist-JH‬​​​​​
‪@Sakiknyy‬​​​​​
‪@kny_Akari_kato‬​​​​​
‪@SillyArtsyGal‬​​​​​
‪@dewiincafe‬​​​​​
‪@Kagehilunarveil柱義勇のNo.1‬​​​​​
‪@Kouwa.T‬​​​​​
‪@yūgureXkaze‬​​​​
‪@Hikari_Usagihara‬​​​
‪@ahomelessjellyfish‬​​
‪@Mrss_Shinazugawa‬​
‪@Kaeko123‬

1 week ago (edited) | [YT] | 5