Knock, knock, knock! Here I am again, wanting to share something important with all of you.
If you're not interested, I'm sorry for mentioning you, but you can simply ignore this post.
The thing is, ''22nd October is my 1st-year (11th-grade) board exam result day''.After that, I'll officially become a 2nd-year (12th-grade) student. But there's a problem!
My family has extremely high expectations of me when it comes to my results, and honestly, my papers went just okay. So, I guess you can imagine how scared I am right now.
One of my biggest fears is this: What if I fail to live up to my mother's expectations? And what if I don't get good marks? What if I can't secure admission to a good university because I don't meet the required merit? What if I lose important opportunities and end up ruining my future, at least to some extent?
The problem isn't with all my subjects. I can score above 90% in subjects like English, Urdu, Islamiat, and T.T.Q. without even studying that much. And when it comes to Computer Science, you already know that your girl, ''itxdhillon, is an expert!'' I've consistently scored 98% in Computer Science in all my previous board exams.
Statistics isn't the problem either because it's literally my favourite subject.
So, I guess some of you can already figure out which subject I'm talking about...
''YES, IT'S MATHS!''
It's not that I don't understand Mathematics. According to my previous academic records, I've consistently scored around 94% in Maths, and that's one of the reasons I chose Mathematics as my field in the first place.
As we all know, everyone goes through difficult experiences in life, and I can't possibly share every single problem I face with all of you, can I?
So, here's what happened.
Two days before my Mathematics exam, my health suddenly got really bad, and I had to be admitted to the hospital from 7 PM until 1 AM.
Whether the problem was serious or minor isn't the point. The real issue was that I was extremely worried about my upcoming paper, and I felt like I couldn't afford to get sick at such a crucial time.
Thankfully, Alhamdulillah, I don't have any ongoing health issues. But I'm someone who finds even a simple fever difficult to tolerate. I get so upset that I sometimes start crying, even over something like that.
And there's another thing I've struggled with since childhood: I get so stressed about every upcoming exam that I sometimes end up making myself physically unwell.
Because I was in the hospital, I couldn't prepare for my Maths exam the way I had wanted to. And honestly, the paper didn't go as well as I needed it to in order to maintain my usual 94% record.
That left me incredibly stressed. But somehow, the months passed so quickly that I didn't even realise how June had turned into October, and now my result day is right around the corner.
The reason I'm sharing all this with you is that if, IF, IF, I fail to live up to my own expectations and my mother's expectations, I might have to say goodbye to all of you too, and perhaps even to life itself.
I'm not talking about disappearing for a while and returning one day as if nothing happened. I mean that one morning, when you search for my channel or look for my Pinterest account, you might not find me anywhere. Not ever again.
''So, please pray for me.'' Because 22nd October means so much to me. It feels as though my life, my future, my dreams, and my happiness all depend on this one day.
I hope you'll understand me and stand by me during this difficult time. I know you can't do much for me apart from praying, but I hope you'll support me through your prayers when that's all you can do.
MY LITTLE STAR HIT 30K!! 😭💗🎀 FIRST OF ALL, I'M SOOO PROUD OF YOU, BABYGIRL!! 🥹🫶🏻 You genuinely deserve every bit of love and success coming your way. It feels so special to see someone as precious as you growing, achieving her dreams, and reaching new milestones. Even though we're just online friends,you really feel like a little sister to me. 🩷 I hope you never stop believing in yourself, because this is just the beginning of something so beautiful for you. May your channel keep growing, may your hard work bring you endless happiness, and may you reach 100k soon🎀 Keep shining, and keep making your dreams come true. CONGRATULATIONS ON 30K, MY GIRLLLL!! 😭💗 I'M ALWAYS ROOTING FOR YOU AND YOUR SUCCESS!! 🫂💕 MY LITTLE STAR!! 🪷💋 to my dear @Ownyourstory_official from your itxdhillon 🖤
never loose the person who asks this...,because no one has enough time to listen your ''bak bak'' except for those who really loves you! Your Itxdhillon 🖤
Itx_Dhillon🖤
Knock, knock, knock! Here I am again, wanting to share something important with all of you.
If you're not interested, I'm sorry for mentioning you, but you can simply ignore this post.
The thing is, ''22nd October is my 1st-year (11th-grade) board exam result day''.After that, I'll officially become a 2nd-year (12th-grade) student. But there's a problem!
My family has extremely high expectations of me when it comes to my results, and honestly, my papers went just okay. So, I guess you can imagine how scared I am right now.
One of my biggest fears is this: What if I fail to live up to my mother's expectations? And what if I don't get good marks? What if I can't secure admission to a good university because I don't meet the required merit? What if I lose important opportunities and end up ruining my future, at least to some extent?
The problem isn't with all my subjects. I can score above 90% in subjects like English, Urdu, Islamiat, and T.T.Q. without even studying that much. And when it comes to Computer Science, you already know that your girl, ''itxdhillon, is an expert!'' I've consistently scored 98% in Computer Science in all my previous board exams.
Statistics isn't the problem either because it's literally my favourite subject.
So, I guess some of you can already figure out which subject I'm talking about...
''YES, IT'S MATHS!''
It's not that I don't understand Mathematics. According to my previous academic records, I've consistently scored around 94% in Maths, and that's one of the reasons I chose Mathematics as my field in the first place.
As we all know, everyone goes through difficult experiences in life, and I can't possibly share every single problem I face with all of you, can I?
So, here's what happened.
Two days before my Mathematics exam, my health suddenly got really bad, and I had to be admitted to the hospital from 7 PM until 1 AM.
Whether the problem was serious or minor isn't the point. The real issue was that I was extremely worried about my upcoming paper, and I felt like I couldn't afford to get sick at such a crucial time.
Thankfully, Alhamdulillah, I don't have any ongoing health issues. But I'm someone who finds even a simple fever difficult to tolerate. I get so upset that I sometimes start crying, even over something like that.
And there's another thing I've struggled with since childhood: I get so stressed about every upcoming exam that I sometimes end up making myself physically unwell.
Because I was in the hospital, I couldn't prepare for my Maths exam the way I had wanted to. And honestly, the paper didn't go as well as I needed it to in order to maintain my usual 94% record.
That left me incredibly stressed. But somehow, the months passed so quickly that I didn't even realise how June had turned into October, and now my result day is right around the corner.
The reason I'm sharing all this with you is that if, IF, IF, I fail to live up to my own expectations and my mother's expectations, I might have to say goodbye to all of you too, and perhaps even to life itself.
I'm not talking about disappearing for a while and returning one day as if nothing happened. I mean that one morning, when you search for my channel or look for my Pinterest account, you might not find me anywhere. Not ever again.
''So, please pray for me.'' Because 22nd October means so much to me. It feels as though my life, my future, my dreams, and my happiness all depend on this one day.
I hope you'll understand me and stand by me during this difficult time. I know you can't do much for me apart from praying, but I hope you'll support me through your prayers when that's all you can do.
That's all I wanted to say. 🤍
Your Itxdhillon 🖤
some mentions:
@Eraৎ @Ownyourstory_official @Tulip_girl88 @Tanhyung @BruceLee26921 @nagarajraj1339
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Itx_Dhillon🖤
finally,i ends up on giving you a ''BADD-DUA''...!
Your Itxdhillon 🖤
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Itx_Dhillon🖤
No caption!
Your Itxdhillon 🖤
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Itx_Dhillon🖤
MY LITTLE STAR HIT 30K!! 😭💗🎀 FIRST OF ALL, I'M SOOO PROUD OF YOU, BABYGIRL!! 🥹🫶🏻 You genuinely deserve every bit of love and success coming your way. It feels so special to see someone as precious as you growing, achieving her dreams, and reaching new milestones. Even though we're just online friends,you really feel like a little sister to me. 🩷 I hope you never stop believing in yourself, because this is just the beginning of something so beautiful for you. May your channel keep growing, may your hard work bring you endless happiness, and may you reach 100k soon🎀 Keep shining, and keep making your dreams come true. CONGRATULATIONS ON 30K, MY GIRLLLL!! 😭💗 I'M ALWAYS ROOTING FOR YOU AND YOUR SUCCESS!! 🫂💕 MY LITTLE STAR!! 🪷💋
to my dear @Ownyourstory_official
from your itxdhillon 🖤
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Itx_Dhillon🖤
i don't know how many times i'll repeat this lesson in my mind...
Your Itxdhillon 🖤
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Itx_Dhillon🖤
never loose the person who asks this...,because no one has enough time to listen your ''bak bak'' except for those who really loves you!
Your Itxdhillon 🖤
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Itx_Dhillon🖤
is it really funny or i'm cursed??
Your Itxdhillon 🖤
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Itx_Dhillon🖤
But I still ask my heart, did I really fall for you, or am I just naive?
Your Itxdhillon 🖤
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