Dark Crystal Academy

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Dark Crystal Academy

Signal and Response Delay

You dont get on the surfboard at first sight of the wave. You start slowly paddling. You prepare.

The excitement seeing a fresh new wave to ride and actually riding the wave are always offset. They are two different experiences.

If you stand on the board at the sight of the wave because you are so excited and impatient to ride the wave you wont have enough momentum to keep your balance.

You wont be leveraging the power of nature.

The excitement you feel is not the signal to act.

Once the excitement slightly wanes and you feel calmer, less intoxicated with excitement, that is when you start paddling.

When the wave starts to approach you wont be drunk with excitement.

You will be relaxed and present.

The excitement to ride the wave and actually riding the wave are two distinct experiences.

Hunger is the sight of a wave

Arousal is the sight of a wave

Being sleepy is the sight of a wave

Having to poop is the sight of a wave

If any of these have any urgency to them, that is a signal you have trained yourself to stand on the board at the sight of a wave.

Untrain yourself.

Hunger should be calm not urgent.

Arousal should be calm not urgent

Going to sleep should be calm not urgent.

Pooping should be calm not urgent

If any of these things feel urgent that is your cue to wait.

Food you can wait about 6 hours.

Sleep you can wait about an hour.

Sex you can wait about 30 minutes

Poop you can wait about 15 minutes.

If you wait and the wave never comes, it was a mirage.

Riding the wave and seeing the wave will always feel different.

Signal and response will always feel different.

The only exception to this is drinking water.

Water is the opposite.

If you are thirsty it means you have ignored previous waves.

Being thirsty is the last signal. Its when you see a wave in front of you not behind you.

Other than water, calibrated delay of response after the signal is the key to balance.

Nature loves balance and momentum makes balance easy.

This also applies to life's triggers. The trigger is the sight of the wave.

If you react instantly to the trigger you are standing on a surfboard with no momentum.

If you process the trigger first and take action when the wave is approaching, you will be leveraging the power of the universe to your advantage.

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Lust is the absence of beauty. It is the appropriation of beauty.

Beauty does not exist in impressions alone. Beauty is like the gold that is only found through digging. Through staying. Through the courage to be fully naked through the storm.

You could have no clothes on but still be wearing a suit of armor.

You could be fully armored and be fully naked.

There is no such thing as the exploitation of beauty. Because at the level of exploitation beauty hasn't been reached yet.

When beauty is touched it is a resonance with the most fundamental attribute of what we are.

When beauty is truly touched there is no distinction between beauty and its admirers. They both collapse, they both vanish in the presence of Beauty.

Lust is a poor man's supper. It is the sheepish attempt to touch beauty only to cower before it is truly touched.

One is more susceptible to the waves standing on the shore than stepping into the ocean.

This is why lust feels shameful. Because it is a sheepish attempt to access one's own beauty. Its trying to fool the basis of what we are and it can never be done.

The basking of one's own beauty can seem to start through the recognition of another's beauty. But it always ends as a recognition of the beauty of the cosmos. The beauty of the one. The beauty of what we truly are.

Therefore lust is simply the shame of believing in the apparent otherness. The apparent self-ness.

Be conscious of the impressions you take in. Does it register as beauty? If so what can be wrong?

Does it register as otherness and therefore selfishness? Extracting something from an other for the self gain? Or is it simply a recognition of beauty?

Sirenism is always a two way street.

What you eat is also eating you.

Just be conscious.

The crucifixion of the sinner is the same sin.

Beauty is the recognition that the sinner still always deserves love.

Not to excuse any actions. There will always be proportional consequences.

But that has nothing to do with the original beauty. Thats so far besides the point.

Withholding beauty from yourself is the original sin.

Beauty is how the one makes love to itself.

The beast finds his beauty through the admiration of her beauty.

The beauty finds her beauty by the depth of the beasts admiration.

Both are free because both have the courage to settle for nothing but beauty.

And both dissolve into beauty, not into eachother.

The one who chooses to wear the devils collar is the one who chooses to not stay with beauty for its own selfish sake. To abandon beauty at the last moment for the sake of my pleasure alone.

At the core its a belief in me. A belief in otherness.

There is no such thing as my pleasure alone. That is the devil's collar. The collar that is too big that can be removed at any time.

There is nothing more pleasurable than beauty. Pleasure without beauty is a poor man's supper.

Beauty is the one thing you cannot buy.

Attempting to purchase beauty is self incrimination disguised as hedonism.

Its an admission into self hood. An admission into ignorance.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. It precedes the eyes. And what precedes the eyes cant be touched let alone bought with gold.

So be naked in your recognition of beauty. And be conscious wherever you sheepishly cower from that which you are.

Remember

You always still deserve love.

We all always still deserve love.

No exceptions

Because being deserving of love isnt conditional on beauty.

Beauty is the recognition that deserving love was never even a question in the first place.

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EVERYTHING IS JUST AN APPEARANCE IN CONSCIOUSNESS

These words you're reading.

The reaction to these words.

The sense of self that reacts.

The one who gets it or doesn't get it.

Its all appearing in consciousness

Your idea of who is writing this.

Who that person is.

Who that person is relative to the person you think you are.

Your acceptance or judgment of these words.

The acceptor or judger of these words

It's all appearing in consciousness

Anybody you could call they

Anybody you could call me

Its all appearing in consciousness

Insecurity pain elation

Its all appearing in consciousness

Strategy and the strategizer

The spiritual one. The awake one. The asleep one.

All appearing in consciousness

All just images on the screen

images that could not be seen without the screen

All of the varieties of apparent objects and subjects are completely dependent on consciousness

All versions of you are just appearances within you

Its always been a one (wo)man show.

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The sun does not know how its light is received.

It barely somehow knows its light IS received.

The only thing the sun knows is shining

If it knew anything else for even a micro second, it would stop being the sun

It would stop shining

The solar system would collapse

The planets rely on the sun for one thing:

to only know himself

To only know the sun

The planets don’t take it personally that the sun doesn’t know them directly

The planets know the sun can’t know them and also be the sun, because it is the sun’s singular intense focus and knowledge of itself that illuminates the planets

The greatest love comes from the greatest detachment

The sun can only know the planets to the degree the planets know themselves.

The sun knows that is the original space where we all meet.

The sun knows that if it looks outside of itself to see the planets, it won’t find what they essentially are.

The only way the sun can find the true self of the planets he illuminates, is in their knowledge of themselves.

The closer they get to themselves the closer they get to being seen by the sun as their true self.

If the sun had a mouth, lips and a tongue, and the planets asked the sun what it calls itself, it would say ā€œI amā€.

The sun deeply and one-pointedly bathes in his own beauty, in his own glory, in his own being.

He does this knowing he is a model, an usher into the portal of each of our own beings. But this isn’t the reason he shines. What keeps his fire going is the joy of bathing in his own being.

This is what keeps him looking away from the planets and onto himself.

Looking towards himself is what allows him to see the planets as they essentially are.

The sun is blinded by his own light and therefore blind to the illusions of space and time.

He knows we all share the same being.

And he is unwaveringly there

If the sun could speak it would say I am.

Maybe he is too busy so intensely knowing himself that speaking it would be a folly.

But if he could speak he would say I am.

To meet him in the space we all share.

To know thyself as he knows himself?

The light that he shines is his testimony.

As Crowley said, everyone is a star.

ā€œShine onā€

-The kooks

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If the devil you know is better than the devil you don’t know, than the god you know is worse than the god you don’t know

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Had a vivid dream that I was talking to different teachers.

I woke up with the phrase repeating in my head:

ā€œUnconditional love is a crucibleā€

Happy new year fam 🫶

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Let the mind be, let the body be

If you ever find yourself in a moment where you feel it is impossible to feel at peace

Just repeat this to yourself like a mantra

Let the mind be, let the body be

Often the body comes first

Let the body be

Maybe your heart is racing

Maybe your head is pounding

Just let the body be

Let the heart race, let the head pound

Maybe your thoughts are racing

Maybe your emotions are pounding

Just let the mind be

Be with the body, be with the mind

But don’t touch them

They are doing exactly what they need to

Just let them be

Be in the space where your awareness is just sitting next to the body and mind like a loving friend

Imagine a friend is experiencing trouble in the mind and body

How would you be with them?

They just need someone to be with, they don’t need anyone to fix them

Maybe you are so attached to how you think the body and mind should be

You can let that be even

Let yourself be attached

You detach by letting yourself be attached

You detach by letting yourself be as you are

You become who you really are by allowing yourself to be who you are

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