Nicole Feliciano

Pumpkins, soup, and slow moments — fall’s favorite trio 🍂🎃🥣 #homemadesoup #fallmoments

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6 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 0

Nicole Feliciano

Here is the uncut, original piece to “buried alive”

She’s where I buried her alive.
I can sometimes hear her in the silence when I am alone screaming, scared, hurt, I try to drown out the noise but sometimes I listen I let her scream I don’t cover my heart so it doesn’t hear. I sometimes reach out to her in my tears but then I pull away scared she will consume me. Sometimes I can hardly hear the world cause she’s so loud. I wanna hold her and tell her it’s ok, but if I do will she take over, will I lose the person I become today. Trapped in fear not sure where to turn, sometimes I can feel the pain she felt, I know the reasons why but that’s when I yell back at her to stop! Stop I don’t want to remember. I don’t want to go back there. Then I feel bad, I feel sorry I am sad, then I find myself there with her buried alive in fear. Anger takes over, pain is in control now. Then I hear someone coming, so I shut her up, I leave her there I raise the volume and smile. She aches in silence and waits for my return. I always return. It’s an agonizing pain abandonment.
#BuriedAlive
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#SpokenWordArtist
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#InnerChildHealing
#SurvivorStory
#EmotionalHealing
#PoetryOfPain
#TraumaRecovery
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8 months ago | [YT] | 0

Nicole Feliciano

“Buried Alive” 8/13/2025

She’s where I buried her—alive.
Sometimes, in the silence,
I hear her.
Screaming.
Scared.
Hurt.

I try to drown her out,
but sometimes I listen.
I let her scream.
I let the echoes rattle through my chest.

Sometimes I reach for her through my tears,
but pull back—
afraid she’ll consume me,
afraid I’ll lose the person I’ve become.

Yet she’s loud,
so loud the world fades away.

I want to hold her,
tell her it’s okay—
but if I do,
will she take over?

Trapped in fear,
I feel the weight of what she felt.
I know why.
And that’s when I yell back—
“Stop! I don’t want to remember!
I don’t want to go back there.”

Then guilt crawls in.
Sadness swallows me whole.
I’m suddenly down there with her,
buried alive in fear.

Anger moves in.
Pain takes control.
Footsteps come—
I silence her,
turn up the volume,
and smile.

She aches in silence,
waiting for my return.
And I always return.

Abandonment—
an agony we share.
#BuriedAlive
#SpokenWordPoetry
#SpokenWordArtist
#HealingJourney
#InnerChildHealing
#SurvivorStory
#EmotionalHealing
#PoetryOfPain
#TraumaRecovery
#HealingThroughArt
#PoetryPerformance
#MentalHealthAwareness

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Nicole Feliciano

Work hard in the gym, flex hard in the wild 🏋️‍♀️🌊#LakeLife #QuadGoals #LegDayEveryday #MuscleAndMind #StrongAndSexy #QuadsOnPoint #FitLife #LakeVibes #LegsForDays #FitnessMotivation #MuscleGirl #FitAndFeminine #SummerStrong #GymToLake #AthleteLife

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Nicole Feliciano

“Fit. Fierce. Fearless.” 🖤
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8 months ago | [YT] | 2

Nicole Feliciano

It’s not him I miss anymore—
It’s what he did.
The weight of it hits me out of nowhere,
Like a wave I never saw coming.

Not the love—
But the lie I lived in.
The time I spent building a life
With a man who never truly saw me.
Never lifted me up—
Only threw me down.

I remember driving home,
Begging God he wouldn’t be angry.
Trying to stay small,
Quiet,
Pleasing.
Handing over my money just to hear “I love you”—
As if love was something I had to buy.

I can’t believe I gave so much
While he made me feel like nothing.
He called me useless before I even had a chance to breathe.
If I wasn’t smiling enough,
Or too tired,
Or too quiet—
He didn’t hold me.
He pushed me deeper into the dark.

And still,
I stayed.
Begging a man who hated me
To love me.

He used me for comfort,
For attention—
But never truly saw me.
He looked through me like I was glass.

He’ll never admit what he’s done.
Too proud.
Too small.
Too afraid to face the truth of himself.

Because real men—
They own their wrongs.
Real love—
It shows up.
It repairs.
It proves.

But he never loved me.

While I was fighting to keep him above water,
He was pushing me under.
#HealingJourney #EmotionalAbuseRecovery #SelfWorth #LettingGo #ToxicLove #SurvivorStory #FindingMyself #SpokenWordHealing #TraumaToTriumph #WakingUp #FromPainToPower #SelfLoveFirst #RealLoveHeals #YouDeserveMore #WoundedNotBroken

8 months ago | [YT] | 0

Nicole Feliciano

Here is the first version of “this is my revenge” I want to acknowledge that my writing isn’t perfect I outline and write out my thoughts on its purest form. I promised to be open to letting the process flow. So here is the uncut version the messy teary eyed version.

Wanting peace for the monster who broke me. I refuse to allow his hate to consume me. I know who I am I know how I loved and if it was so true even while he burns me I pray for him. In the deepest parts of my soul I want him to live to breath to succeed cause that what true love is. That is my revenge, it’s not hate it’s not angry it’s pure it’s real it’s love. He tries so hard to rip it from me but he can’t he can’t stop the purity in my heart. The pain is there but for a purpose. It doesn’t mean I lost it means I win. I win because my heart didn’t turn cold it didn’t burn up in his empty space. It held true to what I have told him an along, that I was real I was pure I was 100 percent what I said I would be. Although I know he will never find another like me I still pray he does. Because that’s what true love is, it’s pure, it’s real even when the one you gave it too wants to see you burn. Jesus said “ forgive them for they do not know what they do” so I let go and forgive him. One day my heart will find its place, with another and it’s not to hurt him but it’s because I gave so much love that I deserve what is real what is true. This is my revenge!

8 months ago | [YT] | 0

Nicole Feliciano

“This is my revenge.”

I want peace for the monster who broke me.
Not because he deserves it—
but because I do.
I refuse to let his hate consume me.
I know who I am.
I know how I loved.
And if that love was ever real,
even as he burns me with his silence and cruelty,
I still pray for him.

In the deepest parts of my soul,
I want him to live, to breathe, to rise—
Because that is what true love is.

That is my revenge.
Not hate.
Not anger.
But love.
Pure. Honest. Unshakeable.

He tried to tear it from me—
But he failed.
He cannot destroy the purity in my heart.
Yes, the pain is real—
But it has a purpose.

I didn’t lose.
I won.

Because my heart never turned cold.
It didn’t burn up in his empty space.
It held true to everything I told him.
That I was real.
That I was pure.
That I was everything I claimed to be.

And though I know he’ll never find another like me—
I still pray he does.
Because love… real love…
doesn’t want to see someone suffer.
It wants to see them grow—even if it’s without you.

Jesus said,
“Forgive them, for they know not what they do.”
So I do.
I forgive him.
Not for his sake.
But for mine.

One day, my heart will find its place—
With someone who sees it, honors it, loves it back.
Not to hurt him—
But because I gave so much love,
I deserve to receive the same.

This is my revenge.
Not bitterness.
Not rage.
But freedom.
Forgiveness.
And the kind of love that never dies—
only rises.
#ThisIsMyRevenge #HealingAfterHeartbreak #ForgivenessIsFreedom

8 months ago | [YT] | 0

Nicole Feliciano

#healing #selflovejourney #freedom #journalentry #movingon #growth #letgo #peacewithin

9 months ago | [YT] | 0

Nicole Feliciano

“Does He Remember?” 6/30/25

Sometimes I wonder…
When he sits down to eat—does he tap his fork before the first bite, like I used to?
Does he pause for a second, without realizing why?
Do the little things I did echo in his silence?

There’s nothing he gave me that I carry now—no habits, no traces.
But he carries me.
He carries my quirks, my laughter, the softness I brought into his life.
The way I made ordinary moments feel sacred.

I wonder if he thinks of me.
When the noise quiets and he’s left with himself…
Does a part of him miss what I was?
Not just the love I gave, but the feeling of being seen—really seen.

Because I gave fully.
And maybe he never knew how rare that was.
But even if he forgets…
The truth is, I didn’t lose myself.
I left pieces of me in love. And those pieces mattered.

Just a quiet thought that won’t leave me tonight.
#HealingInSilence #UnspokenGoodbyes #PiecesOfMe

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