𝓐𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓻𝓮𝓲

💌To someone that...I love~💌

-Hey Chae. I know I told you that we should give each other time but I decided to make one last post before giving that time.

I never tried or wanted you to get hurt. Even when I was at my worst, I tried my best not to hurt your feelings. Because your feelings, your heart and you, mean a lot to me.
Whenever we fought, I kept replaying our conversations in my head, regretting every bad thing I said. I always felt guilty and always tried to find a way to cheer you up.
And even now, even tho I'm not feeling well, I'm still trying to understand your side too, I'm still trying to not to hurt you.
I'm not blaming you, I'm not trying to make you feel guilty. I'm not trying to force you anything, even tho it looks like it.

Chae, maybe you never noticed but I never called anyone else "sissy". I always called them "sis" or something else, you know why? Because I didn't want you to feel replaced, because that nickname only belonged and will belong to you, only you.
Listen I didn't fight with you out of jealousy, I fighted out of love and fear. I wasn't jealous, I was scared, I was not okay.
Because I didn't want to be blended in, I didn't want to be equal to others. But you started loving me and the person that hurt me equally. That.......broke me, if I say it in nice words. That made me feel used, pathetic. Because you once promised not to do that. I'm not mad at you or anything, I'm just disappointed. I'm disappointed that you pretty much replaced me. I'm dissappointed that you were the one that replaced me. This isn't you Chae...where is my sissy? Can you please tell me where is she? Is she safe? Where can I find her?
Do you know how I know this isn't you? Because my sissy would never tell me "go cry about it". My sissy would never say such a thing. Never Chae, never.
My sissy, was always sweet to me. My sissy never replaced me. My sissy wouldn't blend me in the crowd and make our connection fade away in front of me. And please don't say stuff like "that sissy is gone" etc. Because, I know she isn't gone, she's just lost. Lost in this mess. And I'll find her. And about Paci, I don't have anything towards her, I don't have a beef with her.

I'm sorry for hurting you, I know my sorry won't help in any way but I'd still like to apologize, because after all I realize that I did some things wrong. I'm not asking you to forgive me right away, because I know that's not easy. Take your time, rest, eat something yummy, think about all this. And if you still have my old pin accounst, scroll through our chats and see what you replaced/made blended in.

Thank you for reading, and sorry for messing up a little. Now, go ahead and take your time. I won't bother you until then.

‪@youronlychae‬

12 hours ago | [YT] | 8

𝓐𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓻𝓮𝓲

‪@Sooya_struck‬ this girl, is literally chef's kiss🫶🏼😭 Babe, thank you so much for never replacing me unlike others, for always trusting me, for always healing me, for loving me, for being by my side, thank you for everything. You're my TRUE no.2, my sis, my healer, my everything literally ilysmmmm!😭🤍

13 hours ago | [YT] | 11

𝓐𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓻𝓮𝓲

No words can explain the pain and confusion I feel. Why does it always have to be me? I gave all my love, and still, it wasn’t enough. Promises were broken, words were forgotten, and I’m left here wondering what I did wrong. I wish I could stop caring, stop being loyal, stop feeling but that’s not me. I loved with my whole heart, and maybe that’s my biggest mistake. Even so, my heart can’t help but keep feeling, keep hoping, keep loving… even when it hurts this much.
I wish I could love others more, I really do… but she was unique. She held a place in my heart that no one else ever could. That’s why it hurts so much, and why no amount of trying can make the pain go away.

14 hours ago (edited) | [YT] | 8

𝓐𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓻𝓮𝓲

Some people chase "fun & new" things and forget who stayed through their storms.

15 hours ago | [YT] | 10

𝓐𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓻𝓮𝓲

It hurts, it hurts so much...

15 hours ago | [YT] | 10

𝓐𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓻𝓮𝓲

‪@kpopukiyo‬ What happened my baby? Is everything okay? love, Idk what happened, but I'm sorry if I hurt you in any way. Please remember that I love you the most. Remember that there is no one above you or equal to you.
You seem distant and it looks like you're ignoring me. What happened my wifeyy?

23 hours ago | [YT] | 10

𝓐𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓻𝓮𝓲

‪@kpopukiyo‬ why do you keep ignoring my comments babe?😭 is everything alright?
and I wrote smt in your community, why don't you check ittttt?

1 day ago | [YT] | 10