Digitalgespenst - Invidious

Digitalgespenst

If you're going through hell, keep going.

- Winston Churchill

I'm a digital ghost online,
and a happy lone wolf offline.

My first attempt to reboot my life was in 2015, but I didn't exactly knew what I wanted and made mistakes. 2 years of therapy helped me to get over a dark past, and to find out who I truely am.

Then I started living my live completely different.
I cutted ties to everyone, left everything behind and started all over.

In late 2023 the person who sabotaged my life the most died. Nothing can stop me anymore (except my health, occasionaly). And no one can hold me back or throw me of my path. I never want to go back to my old shitty life, as it was the complete opposite of freedom.

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Just started my own Blog about my lost friend Melanie and my "Near death experience" - and how both of them influenced my life up to this day. For everyone who's interested to read about it, look at the comment below this post 😉

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Started to sort and look through my London pictures and prepare them for a few slideshow videos. Just a few pics which had been previously posted on my IG account in 2019 and 2020 (back when used IG - they banned me in 2020 and I never came back). Just noticed YouTube doesn't like the ratio / format of the pics... anyway...

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Post 01 of 02:

Started to sort and look through my London pictures and prepare them for a few slideshow videos. Just a few pics which had been previously posted on my IG account in 2019 and 2020 (back when used IG - they banned me in 2020 and I never came back). Just noticed YouTube doesn't like the ratio / format of the pics... anyway...

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Hello to my 13 subscribers!

I only know 2 of you personally, so 11 of you are probably strangers! Feel welcomed! 🙂

The videos you saw on my channel had been from my time in London, in 2019. A vibrant city I fell in love with, within a few days. The only reasons why I uploaded them are 1.) to have a back-up, in case the other 3 back-up's* somehow get lost or destroyed. And 2.) to share it with some friends or people I talk with.

It was not intended as material for a professional channel - that's why they're raw, unedited and mostly uncutted. There aren't many more left. But I still have around 8'600 pictures from my time there, which are still unsorted and unedited to this day. I never wanted to leave this city and was somewhat forced to leave it behind.

London and it's people let my soul thrive and made me bloom again, after a very tough time. Whenever I've been browsing through the pictures, my mood dropped almost immediately, because I couldn't have spend more time there, and hat to hastly leave within a few hours. But I realized I should face it now, go through all the pictures, sort and edit them, make some slideshows and process all the emotions that come with it.

So, whenever one of these slideshows is finished, I'll upload them here, too 😉 I just have to check before, if the music I have in mind for this, will cause any copyright-strikes or not. If yes, I have to re-edit and take some stuff from the YouTube library.

Other things from my past, which I also left behind unfinished, are on my list, too. Eventually I'll also mention them in a Post here. For example a Mixcloud account, with a Back-up of some of my best DJ-Set's, I've recorded between 2017 and 2024. A blog about my "Near Death Experience" and how it changed my life in the aftermath.

Also a German blog about "How to disappear completely and start over again" - If you scroll down in my community post, you'll see that I already made a 'short' post about it in english - and that this channel was once intended to be about this topic.

I'll share it for whoever might be interested in it, or need this. But you should know that I don't have any ambitions to gain a lot of followers, views, shares or admiration. Same as "Shiey" I'm not that interested in these things anymore (Link of a clip, where he talks about it, in the comments) - and that makes life much easier and less delusional 🙂

That's it for now!

Greetings from a controversional country:

A Digital Ghost

*that's a typical INTJ thing 😉

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When someone says "My door is unlocked" but the door is behind this:

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Happy sub-regional "My mental health is currently more important to me than anything else" - day!

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"They tried to bury me but didn't realize I was a seed." found in my notebook *

Picture by me: Gothic Industrial Party @ Zeche Carl, Essen (November 2009)