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It’s Mr. Chicken’s Adoption Day Anniversary!!! He used to be so soft and fluffy. Now he just cusses and tells war stories of neglect. ♥️🐓 #SupportPuppet #Narcissist

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It’s Mr. Chicken’s Adoption Day Anniversary!!! He used to be so soft and fluffy. Now he just cusses and tells war stories of neglect. ♥️🐓 #SupportPuppet #Narcissist

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Ask A Narcissist 🎉
Live today, Monday 12/8 @2pmPST
I won’t bite your head off unless I told you to do something and you didn’t DO IT! 😁
#narcissist 🐔

1 month ago | [YT] | 73

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Why do you believe you were devalued by a Narcissist?

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Forgive me, I'm going to rant.
I came across a new "narcissist abuse" channel so I took a peek to see what brilliant wisdom our fellow human had to teach. I usually just scroll by these things but the title was I bit triggering.
"If they say this...they're a COVERT narcissist".
First of all, you can't diagnose anyone with having a mental illness just for saying a specific phrase, word, or displaying an overt behavior.
The mystery exposed in this video was GUILT. Specifically, guilting you.
Do "I" guilt and shame people? Yes. Have you done this? Yes. Does that make you a SECRET COVERT NARCISSISTS that was born to destroy like Satan himself (eyeroll)? No.
I kept watching and, wait for it, she was promoting her revolutionary AI secret decoder device that helps you answer your questions on narcissistic abuse. Lady, what do you think ChatGPT does?
Side Note: I have had a caller use ChatGPT to describe his situation that was NOT ACCURATE! These "AI narcissistic helpers" tell you what you want to hear, even when you want to take responsibility for your own toxic behaviors. And they don't know the specific type of narcissists you're dealing with. Like every other channel, we are exactly alike without variation. Nope. The core is the same and we do have a lot of the same defensive behaviors, but I have NEVER met anyone EXACTLY like myself.
Example: A Narcissistic Collapse will make one narcissist depressed but another vengeful. There is not ONE narcissist out there that isn't co-morbid with other traits or disorders (as per Dr. Mark Ettonsohn).
On my channel, we get to learn about all the different combinations because WE both share with each other as a community of mental health detectives, educators of our own lives, and the lives of our relationships. I have learned more about myself through your experiences than narcissistic abuse channels and you also make me feel supported and not like a defective. Thank you. ❤️
Rant over.

Have a great day! Love you! 🌈 #narcissist

2 months ago | [YT] | 86

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I have read hundreds of books over the years and sent many of them away to Goodwill Heaven, but these are the ones that have helped me the most. These books woke me up to unconscious behaviors, helped me cope with the fractured parts of myself, warned or protected me from other difficult personalities, and helped me grow an empathetic spark for others. I hope they help you too. 🌈 #narcissist

2 months ago | [YT] | 70

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Here is my part of the New York Magazine article that dropped today (along with Lee, Sam, Noodles, and a couple others). I think I scared the journalist. 😈😂 nymag.com/intelligencer/article/diagnosed-narcissi…

One of the strangest, most shockingly honest products of this pipeline is Sara Crouson, who makes content under the moniker “Cluster B Milkshake.” Crouson’s journey to self-awareness began several years ago. She was writing letters to an imprisoned serial killer. “He killed people, cut their calf meat off, cooked it, and sold it to people,” she tells me. She’d always suspected that there was something different about her — that there was an emptiness inside her that allowed her to deceive others easily — and she hoped that by corresponding with a very obviously disturbed person, she might come to understand herself better. Crouson was married at the time and flirting with numerous men online out of sheer boredom. She wasn’t interested in any of them but enjoyed the power trip of stringing them along. Was her small-scale manipulation somehow analogous to calf meat selling? she wondered.
She never found out. She says, “I told my sister and my gay best friend — who are both pussies, by the way — who I was writing to, and they were like, ‘Noooooooo! Stop it!’ So I stopped.” Then she discovered Vaknin. Soon, everything started to click. Like Hammock, she joined a Facebook group, received a diagnosis, then started her platform. She says she was initially motivated by “Fame. Fame, fame, fame.” She was jealous when she saw other narcissists profiting from their condition. But then, through chatting with some of her new narcissistic followers, she gradually started to accrue other rewards. She began feeling shame for the first time.
It was a mixed blessing. “I used to push my feelings into a black hole inside of me,” she says, “and they would just disappear. If somebody tried to make me feel like shit, I just made them feel like shit. It was a perfect system.” Now, she sits with her feelings and processes them. She takes walks and tries to prevent emotions like guilt and shame from turning into rage.
Crouson often speaks in a slightly unsettling baby voice, which makes sense because she believes that her NPD began as a defense mechanism in her unstable childhood — she needed to numb herself to survive. It’s outdated now, but she can’t quite shake it. “We’re just toddlers inside,” she says of narcissists. “We’re just little kids throwing tantrums. Would you get offended if a little girl screamed and threw her doll at you? Or would you just ignore her and let her run off to her room?”
The stigma against narcissists, she says, is severe. “They think we’re black-eyed demons — vampires, descending with our rubber wings to suck their blood.” On her channel, she’s doing her best to provide a different image.
I ask Crouson what her relationship with her viewers is like and whether having an audience has impacted her NPD. “It’s simple,” she tells me in the baby voice. “I read books about narcissism and make videos. And you better fucking watch them … and fucking like … and fucking subscribe … and” — transitioning out of baby voice, she turns deadly serious — “shut the fuck up.”

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