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I promise I’m going to upload something within the next two months…or TRY to…

Long story short, burnout + trying to find a job in real life + fighting my own depression and anxiety + trying to be more physically active in my day to day routine = I’m not dead…

I hope you’re all having a good one no matter where you are :)

4 weeks ago | [YT] | 0

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Well…what a turbulent month October was…and yet I feel like I’ve mentally come out of the back end of something…I can’t describe it other than it feels like a weight has suddenly been lifted off of my spirit…

I can’t promise that I’ll try to get a new video out before the new year…but I’ll TRY to try to get a new video out soonish…

9 months ago | [YT] | 2

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For fucks sake…my last video is now 9 months old…

I wish I could say something other than progress on my latest video but I can’t…

The truth is i keep find myself getting sidetracked, I’m trying to see if I can move away from my volunteering job and into a paid job so I don’t keep eating away all of my savings and stop letting my OCD dictate weather or not I even leave the house and just bedrot…

The problem with me is I’ve always needed a routine and if I don’t have one…I just don’t do anything unless I’m extremely motivated to do something…

But anyways, I haven’t given up and this is me just saying hi for now :) speak soon guys

1 year ago | [YT] | 3

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Hi everyone…

So…it’s been 4 months since I last uploaded anything…

The final part to my crash 2 analog horror is taking a bit longer than I thought to complete…

I started a new volunteering job about a month ago and have been enjoying it…it’s been nice actually looking forward to seeing what a working day would bring…instead of dreading it like I did in the other job I was bullied out of…

The truth is even though I’m working on a select few projects wherever I can in-between work, family life and leisure…it still takes longer for me to do anything as I can become burnt out and I start focusing on something else for the time being…

But it’s gotten easier as I’ve been learning to be more kinder to myself and I’ve been constantly focusing on general self improvement…a lot of what’s happened in the past doesn’t bother me a great deal now, but still a little bit…but with time I’m sure even that will change…

Please don’t be worrying about me, I am ok…if anything all things considered, I’m the most content with my life right now than I ever have been for a LONG time…

And don’t be afraid to post a comment with any queries or anything…or just post FIRST or skibidi I really don’t mind :D

1 year ago | [YT] | 2

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Ok so now I can create channel posts…

I thought this was something you could do when you’d hit an X number of subscribers but…whadyanow?

Anyway, I know it’s been over a month since I last uploaded anything…remember that trailer I made for that animation simply titled “psychologically troubled”?

Yknow that thing that was supposed to come out last year?…I’m still working on it and it’s 99% complete…thank. Fuck.

I don’t know why it’s taken me this long to make it…I mean I kind of do, I would enter mental ruts, burnout and stuff would come up like when I (no joke) broke my elbow back in September last year and was off work for 6 weeks…

I’ve also been trying to just sort myself out mentally and…I think I’m finally out of the other end…

I’m exercising more…nearly every Sunday I’ve been playing airsoft with my brother…and I’m trying not to allow small things to wind me up to the point where I start to feel like the whole worlds against me and it’s all hopeless…

As much as I don’t want this to sound corny or sarcastic or whatever…I do still think about everyone I’ve ever met on YouTube…I hope you’re all doing ok…

2 years ago | [YT] | 2