RenanTheFangamePlayer (WTSTH)

Made new thumbs n headers for FNAOM 1 and 2.
They're still undergoing progress, just might take a while to actually come out.

Feel free to check em out:
gamejolt.com/games/FNaOM/528131
gamejolt.com/games/FNaOM2/801009

Also made a new Itch.io page for FNAOM 1:
renanthefangameplayer.itch.io/five-nights-at-orang…

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1 week ago |[YT] | 56

RenanTheFangamePlayer (WTSTH)

‪@ma1x855‬ Yea there's something wrong with the PC release. Might be just me, idk.



Translations:

“The code execution cannot continue because libH.dll was not found. Reinstalling the program may fix the problem.”

“The code execution cannot continue because ui.dll was not found. Reinstalling the program may fix the problem.”

“The code execution cannot continue because openal.dll was not found. Reinstalling the program may fix the problem.”

“The code execution cannot continue because uv.dll was not found. Reinstalling the program may fix the problem.”

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3 weeks ago |[YT] | 35

RenanTheFangamePlayer (WTSTH)

Quite a late post, but here it goes.

Yeah, it’s true. Kseniya Chan and I broke up. (Last month already)

We’ve been through this, yes. We already talked about it and worked things out, but it still hurts. (Kinda)

She ended up developing feelings for someone else, and while I do think being honest about those feelings was the right thing to do, I’m still trying to wrap my head around how fast everything happened.

I’m glad she was honest with me, and I respect her decision. That doesn’t mean it was easy for me to accept, though. Some of the things said still confuse the hell out of me. Like, “Something sparkled in me.” (Wtf is that supposed to mean)

I’m not going into every detail publicly, because there’s really no need for me to put everything out there. People have told me to forget about it and move on, and I’m doing my best to move forward. But that doesn’t mean I have to pretend I wasn’t affected by it.

That being said, I’m not here to blame or attack Kseniya. I respect her decision, even if I don’t necessarily agree with how everything played out. I genuinely hope things work out for her.
And despite everything, we're still friends.

That’s all, y’all. Have a good day. :)

3 weeks ago (edited) |[YT] | 44

RenanTheFangamePlayer (WTSTH)

A little update after my last post.

I wanted to give a bit of an update, since I know my last post was pretty heavy. I've talked things out with some people, and I'm feeling better than I was when I made that post. Things aren't magically perfect now, and I still have things I need to work through, but I feel like I can finally breathe a little easier.

I'm going to try to take things one day at a time and focus on healing and bettering myself. I don't expect myself to suddenly be okay, and I know there will probably still be bad days, but I want to keep trying instead of letting those days define me.

And yes, I'm still going to be around. I'm not disappearing or leaving everything behind. I still have people I care about, things I enjoy, and things I want to keep doing. One of those things is FNAOM.

I originally paused development because I was struggling a lot mentally and honestly didn't have the energy or motivation to work on it. But now that I'm feeling a bit better, I think it's time to slowly get back into it. I don't want to rush anything, though. I'll work on it at my own pace and focus on making progress when I can.

I really appreciate everyone who checked up on me, listened to me, or simply stayed around while I was going through all of that. It genuinely means more than I can put into words.

I'm still figuring things out. I'm still healing. But I'm here, I'm trying, and I'm going to keep moving forward.

I'll still be around. And FNAOM will be back. 🧡

(Btw, I was told people were being blamed over my situation. Please don't blame anyone. It's no one's fault, to begin with.)

1 month ago |[YT] | 43

RenanTheFangamePlayer (WTSTH)

I already made a post about this few days ago on Game Jolt, but I decided to take it here as well.
I decided to do one more vent post about how I've been feeling lately.


||TW: SUICIDE, DEPRESSION||

I've had times where I've genuinely wished I was dead, thought about ending everything, or just wanted to disappear and not have to deal with anything anymore. I've never attempted anything, but those thoughts can get really loud sometimes. I'm not going to pretend they magically disappear because someone tells me to “stay positive.”

I've been struggling with depression for a while now, and lately it's been hitting especially hard. I get emotionally exhausted, frustrated with myself, and trapped inside my own head. Sometimes I hate myself over things I've done, things I couldn't do, or things that probably aren't even as serious as my mind makes them feel.

One thing that really frustrates me is being told to “just be happy” or “get better.” I know people usually mean well, but if I could simply decide to feel okay, I would've done that already. I'm trying. I just can't force myself to feel better on command.

I've also been struggling with feeling like I don't really have a purpose anymore. I don't know where I'm going or what I'm supposed to look forward to, and sometimes that feeling of being stuck genuinely scares me.

There are times when I don't need advice or someone telling me everything happens for a reason. Sometimes I just want someone to sit with me, listen, talk about random shit, or even give me a hug. Having someone there can mean more than people realize.

My sleep hasn't been helping either. My schedule is terrible, and I often don't fall asleep until around 6 AM. Even when I'm exhausted, my mind refuses to shut up. I end up overthinking, worrying, or just lying there unable to sleep.

I've been feeling pretty lonely too. I don't actually want to be a loner. I want people around me. I want to feel included and know that people genuinely want me there, without constantly wondering if I'm bothering them or asking for too much.

And honestly, I don't care if some people think I'm baiting, looking for attention, or being dramatic by saying all of this. I'm talking about how I genuinely feel. I'm tired of keeping everything bottled up just because someone might misunderstand me.

There are still little things that keep me here. They don't magically fix anything, but they remind me that my life isn't only the worst moments I'm going through right now.

I'm not suddenly “better,” and I don't have everything figured out. I still have a lot to work through. Maybe moving forward doesn't always mean feeling happy or having your entire life figured out. Maybe sometimes it's just making it through another shitty day without giving up on yourself.

I don't know where I'll be from here or when I'll feel like myself again. But I'm still here. I'm still trying.

I'll still be around.

1 month ago |[YT] | 31

RenanTheFangamePlayer (WTSTH)

I think it's about time I try to vent out about what's been bothering me for a long while now.

And since some people had been worried about me lately.



Starting things off, sorry for the sudden vent post, and I apologize if this is a lot to read. I've just had a lot on my mind lately and I feel like I need to finally get some of it off my chest.



So, I've been thinking a lot about why I've always struggled to talk about my problems with people.

I never really understood how to talk about my problems with anyone. I went through a lot growing up, and for most of my childhood, I internalized everything I thought and felt because I genuinely thought keeping it all to myself was the right thing to do. I never really understood that talking to people about my problems was even an option, or that I could actually tell someone about the things I was feeling.

What's strange is that I think I was actually much more open when I was younger, especially around 13–16. I used to be more comfortable expressing myself and talking about what I was feeling. Somewhere along the way, though, I became much more closed off. I gradually got used to keeping things to myself, and eventually I taught myself to suppress my emotions rather than actually deal with them.

I think that followed me into adulthood more than I ever realized. I've spent so long neglecting myself that I don't think I ever really stopped to figure out who I am underneath all the things I've kept buried. Sometimes I wonder if I even really know who I am deep down anymore.

I'm also scared of being rejected by the people I like spending time with the most. I think part of me is always afraid that if I open up too much or show how I really feel, I'll end up pushing them away. So even when I want to talk about what's going on with me, there's always that fear in the back of my mind telling me that maybe I should just keep it to myself.

What's especially strange is that, despite all of that, I still try my best to help other people through their own struggles and problems. I can listen to people, comfort them, and try to make things a little easier for them, even though I've never really known how to do those same things for myself.

I don't think I know how to believe that I deserve that kind of care. Maybe that's part of the problem.

I don't have everything figured out, and I don't even know if I'm capable of figuring myself out yet. I just know that I've spent a very long time keeping everything inside, and I'm only now beginning to understand how much that has affected me.



Again, sorry for the sudden vent post, and thank you to anyone who took the time to read all of this. I really appreciate you hearing me out.

1 month ago |[YT] | 42

RenanTheFangamePlayer (WTSTH)

Hey. I don’t usually post things like this, but I feel like this is important to share.

A document was put together with information about Adriel and the situation around him. If you’ve ever interacted with him or followed him, I recommend reading it and forming your own opinion.

docs.google.com/document/d/190N8hVDCJnIvMIdByddL9W…

Also recommend checking out Misael and Jayden's posts for more information: youtube.com/post/UgkxZSfl-LBv98P1E1s_hFx5GnBzkJUoC… youtube.com/post/UgkxU3lDEVPw1EOvOve6U5rb0TZPh_7FI…

5 months ago |[YT] | 46

RenanTheFangamePlayer (WTSTH)

I wish y'all a (late) Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

9 months ago |[YT] | 62

RenanTheFangamePlayer (WTSTH)

Man the new FNAF 2 Trailer is just so peak,,,
Y'all hyped?

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11 months ago |[YT] | 63

RenanTheFangamePlayer (WTSTH)

New Discord Server yall
That's all lmao
discord.gg/jr4rpqWdte

1 year ago |[YT] | 31