Hey guys, it has certainly been a while since I last did anything to the channel, but more so you guys haven't heard from me in years. I decided to come on here to post what has been going on since the last time you've all heard from me.
I'm finally going to break my silence, and just jump straight into it, but these last few years have been absolutely awful to say the least. These last few years that I have experienced, were no normal years but rather a long, and continuous ass whooping. Even as far as the creation of the last video I have uploaded, it just started to spiral down from there. I can't say that I had some major screw ups with certain people, because I messed up a lot, and a lot of it could have been avoidable if I communicated more at the time, but it was also other factors that came to me and I just absolutely had no control of it. With that being said, I had way too much pressure in my hands that I just started lying to myself, but most importantly, lied to others. I just had too much pressure built up over the years, that I just decided to completely vanish off of the internet completely. Isolating myself away from my problems, whether if I had no control of them personally, or just caused by me because I wasn't being an honest person, didn't solve a thing. I want to apologize to those people I am referring to in this post. I wish I can just go back and tell myself that I should communicate more about the issues I was dealing with personally and be honest with myself, but life has gotten the best of me ever since I vanished that day with no trace. Even with personal issues I was going through, it still doesn't justify me to lie to myself and others about it, and just creates issues that are just avoidable. That is basically a general idea on what I have been up to for these last few years. There was more to that but honestly, those are more on the personal level of mine. I just get upset thinking about those certain experiences I had went through. It wasn't sometime after 2022 where I just focused more on getting my life back on track, and just get my mental state of mind in a better place, and it is something that I am still working at the very moment
As for me wanting to return back to uploading, I want to do it on a time I feel like I am ready to return. I had previous return attempts where I was gonna come back other times, but honestly, the timing was just wasn't there as more personal problems out of my control would arise. I am also currently trying to move out of my parent's house to continue pursuing on my education in University. Those are currently my goals at the moment, but its more on the maybe instead of officially happening.
If you happen to come across this community post, I appreciate it you for taking your time to read it. I was just scared to even do anything like writing a community post, and be more communicative about my past, but I think its time to do something for a change
I just wanted to explain some things here, but other than that, I will see you all on the flipside
Zenrax
Hey guys, it has certainly been a while since I last did anything to the channel, but more so you guys haven't heard from me in years. I decided to come on here to post what has been going on since the last time you've all heard from me.
I'm finally going to break my silence, and just jump straight into it, but these last few years have been absolutely awful to say the least. These last few years that I have experienced, were no normal years but rather a long, and continuous ass whooping. Even as far as the creation of the last video I have uploaded, it just started to spiral down from there. I can't say that I had some major screw ups with certain people, because I messed up a lot, and a lot of it could have been avoidable if I communicated more at the time, but it was also other factors that came to me and I just absolutely had no control of it. With that being said, I had way too much pressure in my hands that I just started lying to myself, but most importantly, lied to others. I just had too much pressure built up over the years, that I just decided to completely vanish off of the internet completely. Isolating myself away from my problems, whether if I had no control of them personally, or just caused by me because I wasn't being an honest person, didn't solve a thing. I want to apologize to those people I am referring to in this post. I wish I can just go back and tell myself that I should communicate more about the issues I was dealing with personally and be honest with myself, but life has gotten the best of me ever since I vanished that day with no trace. Even with personal issues I was going through, it still doesn't justify me to lie to myself and others about it, and just creates issues that are just avoidable. That is basically a general idea on what I have been up to for these last few years. There was more to that but honestly, those are more on the personal level of mine. I just get upset thinking about those certain experiences I had went through. It wasn't sometime after 2022 where I just focused more on getting my life back on track, and just get my mental state of mind in a better place, and it is something that I am still working at the very moment
As for me wanting to return back to uploading, I want to do it on a time I feel like I am ready to return. I had previous return attempts where I was gonna come back other times, but honestly, the timing was just wasn't there as more personal problems out of my control would arise. I am also currently trying to move out of my parent's house to continue pursuing on my education in University. Those are currently my goals at the moment, but its more on the maybe instead of officially happening.
If you happen to come across this community post, I appreciate it you for taking your time to read it. I was just scared to even do anything like writing a community post, and be more communicative about my past, but I think its time to do something for a change
I just wanted to explain some things here, but other than that, I will see you all on the flipside
- Zenrax
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